I'm such a idiot, Chloe's birthday is on the 5th. Nova's is on the 4th. My bad... (mixed it up last chapter)

november 5th/ 8:30 am/grande household/

☾☾☾ARIANA☽☽☽

I make my way inside of Chloe and Nova's room ready to wake Chloe up. Today was the 5th. My baby girls birthday. Nova's birthday went pretty well, we went out with the girls friends had some lunch, my mom along with some of my friends flew into town as well. One down, and another to go.

Nova came in behind me, "Can I wake her mommy?"

I smiled letting her go in front of me climbing onto Chloe's bed "Sure just don't-"

"WAKE UP CHLOE!"

I cringed, "Yell."

Chloe quickly sat up covering her ears, "Novieee!" She whined only for Nova to hug her making her fall back down on her pillow.

I shake my head at the two, "Guess what day it is?"

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHLOE!!" Nova yelled at the top of her lungs.

"Nova inside voices please. Thank you."

Chloe's loud giggles could be heard beneath Nova. "Nova i can't breathe!"

I quickly rush over pulling Nova up off her sister. "Now," I sighed resting my hands on my hips, "It's your birthday isn't it? Come on Nonna, Courtney, and everyone else are going to be here soon!"

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"Happy birthday dear Chloe, happy birthday to you!" We all sang to Chloe and she had the biggest smile on her face. It was always "happy birthday to Chloe and Nova" She's had so much fun celebrating on her day this year.

Chloe made a wish blowing out her candles. Nova ran over to her, "What did you wish for?" She questioned, a mischievous look on her face. A stern glare comes across my face knowing what she was doing. "Nova stop trying to trick your sister."

"No mommy it's okay, I wanna tell her I wished for daddy to be proud of us, for taking care of mommy through everything, and all that stuff," She shrugged, "nothing much."

The two engulfed each other in a tight hug making my heart swell.

I see Chloe whisper something in Nova's ear and Nova gasps quietly leaving the room and coming back with a gift bag. "Here mommy." She held it out to me. "It's for you." Chloe says standing by Nova's side.

I took it from her hands, "Babies I appreciate this and all but it's not my birthday. This week is all about you guys."

"Just open it." I eye the both of them suspiciously pulling out the tissue paper and reach my hand inside bringing out a new phone. I gasped "Babies-"

"Uncle Frankie helped us!" Chloe smiled as Frankie came up behind her placing his hands on her shoulders.

"Yeah since you broke yours when you dropped it?" Nova said almost as if she was confused.

I felt my heart rate go up again and before I could even try and say something, I feel someone pull my arm from behind, "Ariana." My mom looked me directly in the eye, "I know you love them. I do too. And that you wanna protect them from everything in this world, I talked to Courtney and I even had a talk with Malcolm's parents, it's time. And this day is very special you know that right?"

I bit my lip and nodded my head knowing she was right. Courtney was right. I just wished I would've done this while Mac was still alive, he would have made it so much easier.

"Chloe, Nova, come here." I say to the twins and they both look at me. "Mommy?" They say in unison, "Are you okay?"

I took in some air through my nose, "Yes, yes come here." I guided them to a private sitting room where it was just me, my mother, Courtney, along with Karen. I took a seat on the soft light grey couch motioning for my daughter's to sit next to me. Nova sat on my right side while Chloe sat in my lap.

"Nova, remember how I said I would always tell the truth to you guys?"

Nova's shifted uneasily, "Yes..."

My mom handed me the girls birth certificates. A small smile came across my face as I took a deep breath, "Nova Isabella, Chloe Penelope..." I sighed. This was so hard for me to do.

"I um..." I swallowed so hard that it hurt. "I lied to you guys."

Nova crossed her arms "I knew it. Of course you did. Why wouldn't you? You're always lying to us."

"Nova please let her speak" Karen says and I nod in thanks.

Chloe leaned her head into my chest "Mommy what's wrong? Why are we all in here? And why are you showing us our birth certificates? We already know we have different birthdays."

"The truth is, the real reason I didn't know that you two had different birthdays wasn't because I didn't look at them. Mac knew, Karen told me a few days ago. When you two were handed over to me I was told that you were both born just before midnight. On the 4th."

Chloe sat up looking at me, "Handed over?"

Tears begin to fill my eyes as I turned to my mother. She pursed her lips telling me to continue. "Babies, you weren't born to me. I'm not your biological mother." I cry out ripping the bandage off. And boy did it sting. Bad.

My mom immediately came over massaging my shoulders.

Chloe removed herself from my lap. She looked like she had been punched in the stomach. She shook her head as tears ran down the sides of her cheeks. "No mommy that's not true stop it!"

I blinked my eyes reaching out for her hands, "Babygirl please-"

Nova scooted away from me before standing up, "Mom come on. There's pictures of you and daddy holding us at the hospital, pictures of you pregnant with twins, ultrasound pictures, come on now." She listed thinking this was some kind of joke.

Courtney got up leaving the room, she knew what was coming next. She spent months, years trying to heal me. And she still is. I thought I had made it past that point in life. I really did. I've pushed through tough times before. None of them were as hard as dealing with Mac's death...except for one. And I think about it every day.

"I can't believe you're going to be a mom"

"And I can't believe you're going to be a dad"

"You're having twins! Congratulations!"

I've played that moment over and over in my head since...why is my life such a mess?

"Chloe, Nova, will you let me speak?"

Only Chloe spoke, "Go ahead."

"Yes. I was pregnant with twins. They weren't you guys though, you girls came much, much, later. I was so excited. But..." I placed my hand over my stomach. I swear I can still feel it. Like something inside of me. I can still feel them inside of me.

I wasn't sure they were ready to hear this, but I had to tell them eventually. I just wanted to get it all out. "One night..." I scrunched up the loose fabric of my shirt, "I woke up and there was blood everywhere.." I feel my stomach turn as I began to go over that dreadful night in my head. "Your daddy rushed me to the hospital and we learned that, we had.." I covered my mouth silencing a sob. "We lost them. I had miscarried..."

The expression on Chloe's face softened "They-they died?"

I nodded hysterically while my mom scratched my back. My voice cracked, "Yes Chloe."

I feel her arms hook around my neck, "Then what?"

"I was to scared to try again, I didn't want it to happen again, so we looked into adoption." I wiped away my tears forming a smile. "And that's when you two came along. At first it was just one we were looking for, I had gave up on two. But when I heard there was a chance of you two splitting up I couldn't let that happen. So I convinced daddy to let me adopt the both of you. So you could stay together. Today is the day we got you you know?"

"That's why you were holding us at the hospital."

"Yes..Nova" I tapped Nova on the shoulder and she turned around. "Nova can you talk to me please?"

"So we're not your daughters."

"No baby you're not but-"

"Don't call me that. You lied. Again. And so did Malcolm!"

"Nova mommy and daddy-" Chloe started but Nova interrupted her, "No. She's not our mother don't you get it? Ariana, if you're not our real mom, and Mac isn't our real dad," She clenched her fist, her jaw tight, "Then who and where are our real parents?"

"Nova, what have I told you about calling me by my name? It's mommy—"

"NO IT'S NOT! You are not my mommy. Joan is not my grandmother. And neither is Karen. Frankie, is not even my uncle!" She then chuckled, "And Malcolm is not my father." She yelled making all her words clear for me to hear.

"Also, you lied to the world. Did you know that huh? You don't even deserve to be a mommy. The only title you get is liar."

Fresh hot tears fell from my eyes. How could she say something like that? I know she's mad I get it. I've already spent years beating myself up about it. Telling myself how bad of a mother I was. And she reminded me.... that I was right.

Chloe went after her, "Nova! You made mommy upset!"

"SHE'S NOT MY MOM!"

My heart shattered into millions of pieces. I wish he was here, he'd tell me what to do. She's gonna hate me forever.

I tried to get up but my mom stopped me. "Let them have a minute." I collapsed into her arms, "Mommy, I feel like the worst person in the world. I ruined their lives. I did."

"Ariana do not say that. You didn't "ruin" anything. It's new to them they still need to process."

"Why couldn't he be here?!"

"Baby breathe-"

"He's supposed to be be here! We were supposed to do this together."

It just seems like every time I overcome a obstacle, there's something else. I can't ever catch a break.