Tuesday 9:44 AM

Can I tell u something?

Sure

But is this like a heavy thing or normal cuz I need to mentally prepare myself

Lol

It's mediumish to heavy I guess

Alright I'm not doin anything in study hall so lay it on me

Well first off I've never told anyone this

Alright then

It's about Cristiana

Well as much as I loved her she pissed me off to no end

Isn't that how siblings are?

No it's more than that

With her I wasn't my own person I was hers. Cuz she was always putting me down

And making me feel stupid and insignificant

And the reason I told you I don't have friends was only partly true. I had friends. She didn't and in response she drove my friends off

That's why I only have three friends but really it's less cuz the other two wouldn't hang out with me without Mickey cuz they can't stand Cristi

There were so many times I just fucking hates her but I never said anything

Because I never wanted to upset her

But now I feel so fucking horrible

These past few days I've sorta liked feeling like my own person and I hate myself for it

No

No?

Yes no

I'm lost now

U don't hate urself

U hate that u nvr talked to her about how u felt so dontsay u hate urself

Cuz it's not healthy to do that

But it's okay to be ur own person

K?

Yeah thanks

Your annoying presences helps me out a lot

Feel kinda bad that I don't do anything for you lol

Oh you do

?

My life isn't all fun

I get upset and pissed

But I usually feel better when I text you sbout random shit

I'm not sure if I'm more upset or happy about that

Y upset?

Cuz ur using me asshole

-_-

And here I thought we were having a moment

*shrug*