"I don't want to let this go. I don't want to lose control. I just want to see the stars with you."

I just want you to play the video up
there while you are reading this

especially in Yoongi's last point of view  XOXO

The party was loud as night falls, the once solemn and emotional wedding was turned into a club like party when the elders left the venue. The teen agers and young professionals are slowly getting high and drunk wildly swaying their bodies to the up beat music being played the DJ, it is really getting sweaty in the middle of the dance floor very opposite to the tables beside us that never lose its elegance and purity of the wedding. The young lady, Dahyun was almost stumbling as she find her self cannot handle the alcohol that was taking over her system. She approached her designated chair and rested her self there. 

"Oh gosh, my head is pounding" She muttered to herself while clutching her head while squinting her eyes close. She wants to be refreshed once again, to be sober once again, she's now regretting taking a few hard liquors while she's losing herself there. 

"Dahyunie? You look like shit" The youngest in their table, Tzuyu said to her making her glare which was only turned into a fit of giggles coming from all the girls surrounding her. Each one of them was holding a wine glass, half full but they still look glamorous unlike her. How? She really went too far enjoying, isn't she? She groaned in annoyance, mostly to her self while pulling on her hair to release the annoyance and even to soothe her head pain.

"Ya'll are not helping, seriously" She eyed every single lady in their, the eldest their Nayeon-unnie handed her a glass full of ice and water. She sipped it fast but only ended with a sharp pain, oh brain-freeze. The pain only doubled she's now whining

"Put your tounge in the roof of your mouth, hold it there for a second" Jeongyeon instructed and she obeyed everything she said, magically the brain-freeze just disappeared like that. 

"You are so careless, what happened to you anyways? You really look like shit." Chaeyoung butted in. 

"I just want to enjoy, it has been a while." She briefly explained herself, no other excuses, straight-forward. What is the point of explaining in too much words if you're gonna end up in the same answer.

"Yes , it has been a while. anyways Dahyun, it has your name in it." Jeongyeon was holding a navy blue box with her name on it.

"It is placed in your table so I kept it since it seems important"

It was simple, not that elegant but it seems like an important thing was in there. She was puzzled to her feelings about the box and its very own sender but that feelings was overflowed when she opened the navy blue box, as she saw the very familiar necklace, it was her mother's. All the confusion was turned into diamond like tears when all her good memories in her childhood suddenly came back to her, like flashing images on her head. It was a white gold necklace with a crescent moon pendant that was covered with precious stones that made it shine under the moonlight above them, one more confirmation is the engraves "wolf" on the back of the pendant. Her tears came rushing down her cheeks as she held the necklace close to her heart. She was sobbing that one by one her unnies was hugging her to stop her from crying. When she calmed down a bit, having a proper vision because it was blurry from tears earlier, she saw a paper inside the box where she retrieved the necklace.

There, it was said.

"Dahyunie, my precious little sister, your big brother was really sorry. I failed to be an elder sibling to you, the regret, the guilt, the anger towards myself was eating me when I saw you cry in front of me. I am sorry for losing you, for losing you for the first time, and now second. I don't want to but if this means your happiness, I can give it to you, sweetheart. If it means I will be the one who will be in deep pain that is okay, as long as you are happy. For once, I want to do my role as your big brother. Little sister, I can't imagine how you survived being alone in this cruel world on such a young age, I am sorry, your big brother is really sorry. But no matter what, no matter how many times I say I am sorry, I can't bring back those times that you should be with us, those precious time you got to spend your years with our parents. I am sorry for losing you, it wasn't an accident for me, for truly it was my fault, if I just hold on tighter on you while in the middle of that carnival. If I held you tighter, if I just.

Do you still play piano? I am being too selfish to ever dream to play a piece with you again. Too selfish to ever wish to make it up for you. Too selfish for everything. For the last time I am deeply sorry. If leaving you into your happiness, I am willing to let go. I don't want you to suffer, as that, even for just a little, I can be a big brother to you Dahyun. Mom and Dad, don't find them, they've changed, please just continue on your life. Make the best out of it. Keep this necklace Dahyun, please. Dahyun, I am sorry, for the last time. At least I am at peace when I take my leave. Take care of yourself baby sister. Wait for the right man for you, patience is a virtue. I am sorry I cannot guide you nor protect you nor to be one of your guest to your future wedding. Dahyun, make the most out of it, always. I love you lil' sis. Till next time

Yoongi 

Her soft cries and sob went louder as she finished reading the letter. She clutched her mouth to lessen the sound but failed when the pain in her heart even got worse, she can't breathe, she can't. She blamed her big brother Yoongi but she still has a place in her heart longing for his brother. She knows he is here but she never approached him, he was at her side but she didn't even glanced on him nor talked to him. She ignored him but now the letter looks like he was saying good bye to her. She scanned the area with her puffy red eyes, in search for Yoongi, approaching his seat only to see a crimson red blood that stained the white covering of the chair. There, her heart even pound louder, she was scared. She wants to see Yoongi, to apologize to him, to have a quality time to him. She didn't want to conclude so one idea popped out of her head.

Find Jeongguk, quick

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"Jiminie!" A distant voice called from a far that caught up the alpha's attention. He was busy almost throughout the day and he was really preoccupied of this whole wedding day of his, not that he was complaining about all of it. It was grand, it was lovely, it was perfect and he loved every single second of it. He was glad that everything went perfect and exceeded their expectations. He thought he wouldn't enjoy this day but here he was, on his bride's side.

He didn't expect he will give that very speech to Jihyo. He didn't expect that he will vow to his bride earlier with no doubts and having a happy heart. There is this emotion in every word he spoke. He even found Jihyo lovely and adorable at the same time. Those tantalizing eyes of her, he just couldn't get enough of it. How her innocence got ripped out of her when she submitted herself to him. Oh gosh, he couldn't believe this beautiful lady was his' in every way. It was just impossible but here he was. Why though? He couldn't answer himself from that very own question of his.

"Namjoon-hyung!" His eyes turned into full crescents again as he turned back and waved to that familiar voice. He couldn't see properly when he smiles so he put on his normal face and saw all the boys was beside Namjoon, they were all wearing tuxedo and looking like fresh bachelors who will get any lady that they want and even bow at their feet. He couldn't agree more. His friends really do like Greek gods.

"Jiminie and his bride, ah so nice to see you Mrs. Park Jihyo" Jeongguk offered his hands for a handshake when Jimin slapped it right away, sending him deadly glares. Jihyo found it too cute so she giggled at how her husband looks then followed after by the boys. Jimin glared at the boys but immediately soften when he pouted at his wife.

"Yah, why are you laughing at me hun?" He pouted before pushing back Jihyo's hair that was covering her face and clipped it behind her ears. "There beautiful, I can see your beautiful face
clearly"

"You look cute and s-stop that, t-those compliments make my heart thump almost the whole day, if you won't stop it my heart will just explode, do you wanna be single?" Jihyo threatened her husband, contrary Jimin was the one who was giggling this time.

"I won't stop because I truly know you deserve more than that" He stole a kiss from Jihyo, a simple short peck on the lips that left the lady blushing like a red tomato in front of her husband and his friends making her cup her face to hide the blush Jimin caused.

"Aww so cute!" Jimin teased her along with his friends.

"Please stop, oh gosh" Jihyo begged in embarassment.

"You'll get used to it Mrs. Jihyo" Namjoon smiled at the  young woman.

"Anyways, can we borrow Jimin for a while?" Hoseok butted in with his stretched heart shaped lips that was forming to a big smile. He was too enthusiastic the whole day bit he never loses his energy, rather being a big ball of energy and giving his positive vibes.

"Yeah sure, I can handle my own anyways and the girls are waiting for me. Jimin and I is has been together the whole day though." She smiled so lovely that she wrapped the boys in her fingers and made them coo in her charm and cuteness.

"You sure you can hun?" Jimin chirped for the last time.

"Of course, now go enjoy with them" She kissed him in the cheeks and finally took her leave and going towards the table of her friends. Jimin half heartedly let go of her hand and followed her by his gaze on every step she took.

"Jimin-ssi" The young vampire called him, getting his attention.

"It's Jimin-hyung for you Kookie." He snarled to the younger, clearly displeased from the lack of respect.

"Already whipped for your bride in a week Jimin, How can you fall in love with her in a span of week" Jin added himself to the conversation. Clearly, their hyung was too serious for his own liking that it killed the positive vibe that surrounds them.

"Please not now hyung? Let's just drink tonight shall we?" He beamed his adorable smile to have his way to his hyung but it feel when he saw that very same serious look, not just from Jin but all the boys in front of him, sighing in defeat, he grabbed their eldest by his wrist and dragged him to an empty table away from the crown they're in.

"Speak" Namjoon mumbled coldly. It sent shivers to the alpha's spines because the demon prince was all collected most of the time and it was really rare for him to give this aura, especially to him since he was treated like a kid of the demon prince.

"Hyung, I clearly don't know. I don't like any of these from the beginning, hell I even want to finish it from the very beginning. I disrespected her to actually have a nerve to propose to mate her unwedded." He sighed loudly then he grabbed a bottle of wine close to him and drank straight from the bottle. " Hyung, this, this is too new to me, to actually care for a person, to treat a person specially. Heck I don't even understand myself especially in that week of preparation up to this day. I never once imagined to be wedded to my own cousin, to say those words to a woman whom I just met after long long years. I never thought that my childhood lil sister will be my wife and I will fall in love with her. Oh fuck, I am fucked up aren't I?" He glanced towards his hyungs who were solemnly staring at him and listening to every word he was saying

He was new to all of this, it caught him off guard to actually feel these feelings. He inhaled sharply and then the only thing to ease this thoughts was to drink it away. He chugged the contents of the bottle before turning once again to his friends.

"I am proud of you then, you manage to find yourself a girl who will truly care for you. You managed to find happiness that will last for a long time. Man! you got all the best" Jeongguk chuckled but it was really obvious that between his words, was puzzles to be solved. Like he was pertaining in to something indirectly that made the alpha frown. He was confused with the smile that was creeping out of the vampire's lips and even the knowing stares from the others. He was confused but he can't see the words between his sentences but he was sure, there is meaning behind it.

"Hey, why are you so silent? Isn't this your happy day Jimin-hyung?" There, there it is once again. He was itching to talk back, yo actually question him where is this conversation going.

"Jeongguk, stop it." Jin cracked the silence. So he was right all along, it has a meaning under it.

"What? I am not saying anything bad, aren't I hyung?" His eyes, oh his eyes he just wanna pull those ball out of their sockets. His temper is already stretched, he was clenching his fists to stop himself pouncing on the younger nor question him of what is really his problem.

"Yeah hyung? See? There is nothing wrong here" Then again, they engage to a stating contest, seeing the emotions in their eyes but all he can see within the younger's eyes was void. He was expressionless but his bitchy mouth has the audacity to speak those words. He snapped. He truly snapped especially when Jeongguk smirked at him. He wanna conclude that this is all alcohol talking but the younger is really getting to his nerves.

"Speak, Jeongguk, what is it that you really mean? Don't play dumb on me" He sternly said. He really wanna push this when he saw Jeongguk chuckled then laughed. He is livid, he can punch him in the guts any minute from now. His curiosity came back when he saw Jeongguk's fave bacame dark and serious. His eyes void of any emotion was now full of anger and hatred.

"You are so dumb all along hyung, do you know that? You see her worth in just a snap of your fingers. You handled her with care and love, like she is a fragile glass. You love her in a week. You are insane. You're such a dimwit" Jeongguk scowled at him

"So what is your point here Jeongguk" The alpha stand up challenging the vampire. He was almost ready to punch him but the vampire never lose his cool. He seems unaffected in front of a raging wolf.

"You never see his worth, you never appreciated him. Never did you appreciated his presence and him as a being. You didn't love him no matter how much he tried to catch your attention. You never cared for him, you're so selfish, so cruel to even punish him without any reason. So selfish of you to kidnap him that day and then disregarding him afterwards. You are so cruel for him to hurt him physically and emotionally. You are so heartless. You don't even remember his existence up to this day."

"Jeon-"

"Yoongi-hyung, I saw him. He is hurting but he is still present in your wedding. That hyung" He shook his head in disbelief. "You are such a jerk Jimin-hyung, so cruel of you" The alpha was left dumbfounded. He was speechless.

"He loves you"

Jeongguk was about to turn back and leave but a panting Dahyun suddenly popped in front of him. She was nervous, eyes uneasy like what will she say was very important. She was clutching her chest, she was sweaty but the boys aren't dumb to not notice her tear stained cheeks and her puffy red eyes. She is still teary while catching her breath. Like she was hardly breathing.

"K-kookie" Her tears started cascading down her porcelain like cheeks.

"Dahyun, what is going on?" The coolness of his tone went nervous and uneasy as well. He grabbed the lady's shoulders to make her face him then suddenly Dahyun rested her head on the junction of the vampire's neck and sobbed there. Leaning all her weight to the young man for she can't feel her legs anymore in to much worrying, like anytime she will pass out. She is scared, so scared of her thoughts.

"Kookie, find my big brother, he is missing oh please. I just wanna hug my big brother. Oh Yoongi, I am sorry big brother, I am sorry" She sobbed, her tears never ending till Jeongguk's shirt went damp. The young man doesn't know what to do, he is torn between comforting Dahyun and finding Yoongi. He can also see the boys lost their cool and Jimin was standing there looking like useless piece of shit that made him really annoyed. 

He sniffed the air he is familiar with Yoongi's scent and his blood. It's been months he was observing Yoongi's whereabouts with his scent so he wanna rely on to that. He was confused that he double checked and sniff the air so many times but it is so faint. Yoongi's scent was so faint but the blood was there, it was so strong. He can't find the right words to say but clearly his face shows it all that everyone there started to notice and ask questions about it.

"Jeonggukie? What is wrong?" Taehyung asked him while he rubs Dahyun's back. 

"I can smell his blood but. His scent, Yoongi's scent, it is fading."

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 I am hurting, I won't hide it anymore. It is getting suffocating. It makes my heart clench in pain. It hurts that everytime I breathe I felt like I don't deserve it anymore, that everyday its getting really hard to breathe. It hurts, it hurts like hell. Those hot tears, they never stop for being caged for so long. For being kept it on my own. I fought, I fought so hard, every single day for the love I am holding unto. It hurts, oh it hurts.

I shifted into my wolf form running to the dark unending forest. The tears was blurring my eyes but I don't want to stop. No, I won't stop. If escaping and running from it will bring me in peace, to ease the pain I am feeling, I will do it. I am getting exhausted, but I kept pushing myself. Keep going I chanted to myself. Keep going to the heart of the forest. To run away from Jimin, to run away from this heartache but my body can't handle it. Shifting drained all the energy I have. I am panting but my mind keeps shouting, go on. To run away farther but when I see where I am. I am at ease, to finally in the middle of the forest. To the heart of it.

It is  serene. So silent but its beauty was outstanding in the dark. The grass was tall that it touched his waist. Little flowers beautifies the area and provide a really good scent. So this is it. The silence, the peace, once again, in his grasp but all of these seems familiar. The familiarity was seeping to his nerves. Then memories flooding his memories, then his dream came through.

He breathed in and out then dropped into his knees. The blood was starting gush out of him. His body was losing it and slowly failing. He can feel he is being weak. Too weak to even hold himself up. To even protect himself. To run once again but he gave up. He finally gave up from being strong and acting to be one. 

I placed my hand where my heart is located, where my heart shouts and beats for a certain alpha. I want him, to be with me. To be mine. To be my man. A mere lemma thought that was going on and on inside my head. Is it my own fault that this stupid organ wants him. Is it my fault that I believe that love conquers all. That love will win in any circumstances. I can't stop my heart to beat everytime I see him. I can't stop myself from wanting him. From loving him.

In just a moment please. Please let my heart rest for a while. My heart that was so stubborn for wanting you. My heart is tired, so tired but still kept on loving you. No matter where you are, no matter what your status is, this heart will keep beating for you, for longing for you, this heart, it is yours, shouting your name, from then on till its last beat . You took it from me, but it is getting tired. 

Please hold my hand, don't ever let go, for you are my last hope. I can't stop but please for the last time hold unto my love, one last time. The darkness will fall, the silence will fall but for the last time, can you be mine? Even for just a while. Even in my imaginations, hold my hand like you want me, like you love me. My head was messing with me, your memories keep flashing, keep bugging me. 

I saw you in my dreams from the first day, I know it is you. When I saw you for the first time, I am so afraid to die to actually go away from you and be with any other available man because of being scared of losing what I am fighting for. It is weird that I never felt a strong feeling of anger towards you when you held captive. To never felt any hatred when you hurt me physically, I just can't. I've learned, no it was so sudden that I feel inlove with you. With every single detail about you. The feeling even bloomed more when I came to know that you are my Chim, my childhood friend. A promise that I held to for a long time. It is okay honey because I can still love you, from a far. Watching you up close everyday, I felt contented. Those happiness with you was limited but the happiness I felt within those precious memories of mine was limitless. I love you so so much.

I laid myself at the heart of the forest. My body slowly shutting down but these memories keeps flashing on my head. One by one they came to me. The occurrence of the scroll, is this it? I didn't bother to stop the blood that was gushing out, instead closed my eyes as I face my last moments. Resting for a while as I indulged myself with memories. Holding my locket with a cutted image of Jimin close to my heart. The man I truly love, with all myself, with all my life

When I said I love you, I mean you are the world to me. I said it like I mean it. You're my sunshine in the rain. My light that pierced through the dark. My world and my everything. Your presence is like an air, I need it to live in this cruel world. You're my hope in my despair. You are the last reason to live. I wanna go back to the days when we were young. Those happy days you swore me that promise. I held on to that, being grateful that all those painful years I had something to hold on to. 

Is it okay if we go back? Is it so bad for me to wish that this love wasn't one sided? Is it?

Seeing you from far away made me contented. I wished you were by my side intoxicated by your scent drowned with the love I wished to come true. How I wish I can see the stars with you, it makes me don't wanna let go and lose control. You're so far away.... I love you, my Park Jimin, everything you do. The way how your eyes turn into small crescents when you smile. How you cutely giggle, how you enjoy being a child-like whenever you are with the boys. How sweet your voice when you sing and how you captured me one single time when you dance. How passionate are you. Your handsome face and those small little details. I haven't got to know you more but one thing is for sure. Perfections and flaws, I love you. I really do.

Happiness that cannot be grasped by my weak hands. The love I cannot hold unto. But darling you made me be still and grasp to a little spark of hope. Darling you made me complete. Till my last strength and as I take my last breath. 

The omega's body was slowly shutting down, he closed his eyes. Just like that he started disappearing into small ashes, floating into the thin air like a speck of dust in this universe as he took his last breath with the last of his thoughts. And just like that, he disappeared into the thin air

"I love you Jimin. I will be still. Loving you for eternity.For in my heart, it was

WRITTEN"

Last chapter and I am emo, anyways, watch out for the Outro. Luvy luv!!!

@yoonminethereal