Training this and training that, it's all i knew, it's all i've ever known and all i will know. I knew the man across from me, but he didn't know his real name nor could i find it in me to say anything. I knew I had family out there, i knew my father was a popular man, dead now, but still my father. They talked about him often, how they were lucky to have got me in time before i knew much about his features. But i saw it in their minds, Steve Rogers or Captain America was my father and my mum was Margret Carter. Two people in love until my father went into the ice during the end of the war, which brought the "End" of the war for the world. It wasn't true because it was still going on, it was simply under the radar now and it was only worse that's for sure.

Bucky was often hurt just as i was anytime we were out of line or taking things or knowing things we weren't supposed to. But there stupid brainwashing tactic and machine never worked on me, much to their dislike and surprise. No one knew why, they figured it was the soldier serum that was in my veins from my father or something else, but they didn't know nor did I. I did however know a lot on them, a lot on mum and dad, and this entire operation all around, but they didn't need to know what I really knew. Because if they did, if they knew that i really knew everything going on then they'd either torture me or worse try killing me. What they didn't know was the things i could do to them, the things i could do and would do if they tried anything against me.

That's why they call me sniper or sometimes they called me rebel, I preferred rebel to sniper. I sometimes sit in my cell and wonder what mum is doing and if dad is still alive because they usually put me and bucky in ice. It helps that we have the super solider serum because when we go under into the ice we still survive. Although for me after i turned fourteen i didn't need the ice anymore because i stopped again and stopped needing the ice to keep me alive for years on end. So that was both a positive and negative because now i had to do more undercover work for them all the damn time.

Fighting people, killing people, it was all i knew, it was all i ever did with my life and i, I honestly was tired of it. Tired of the fighting, the messes i made and they cleaned up, but what did it even mean for me. What was out there for me anyway, mum was probably long gone and father well, who knows if he's still in the ice or out of it yet. I didn't even know what year it was anyway, i barely knew the day of the week or date in the month. I did know basic learning stuff, like science, social studies, English, math, art, and more, but it didn't mean they gave me a blood clock in this shit hole.

And maybe that was the point, to never be able to tell what year, what day or what fucking month it was. But i would, if anything eventually get out, i was determined to, and bucky would come along with me even if he hates it. I am determined to break the both of us free, and with my abilities i could have by now, but something was holding me back and i was determined to find that out as well. But for now, i did as told, did what i had to for one reason alone, survival and thats what it really came down to nowadays. Because if i didn't survive i would never see mum again or possibly even father either, so survival was important for me because that's all i needed or had right now.