Hypochondriac-

I am terrified I won't be there to see you all graduate

I worry about the pain it will cause you

I think about "what if" way more than I should

I lay awake at night thinking about scenarios I wish would never enter my mind.

I can't stop the invasive thoughts that the pain might be serious.

I spend hours thinking, is this actually something or just based out of fear

I try to be strong and sprinkle positivity over everything

I take my meds because they are supposed to help

I waste precious time thinking the worst

I should be enjoying the day with all of you

I think about all of you standing at your dad's casket; God, you were all so young

I ask myself, is this the best I can do

I push the fears down another day

I pray they don't wake up lying next to me

I look at your faces, and I have the courage to be strong

I beg the universe; please don't let this condition seep and carry on to one of you

I live and survive with OCD; it's absolutely real

Old-

You have youth, and your health
Your hair is so dark and beautiful
The smile on your face only brings light
The future is ahead of you; barely anything behind
Your thoughts are still pure, not yet jaded
You sweet boy, you sexy young man
Listen to my words; please take my advice
My youth is fading
There are streaks of white running through my hair
The lines around my eyes mimic my smile
I have seen so much
The thoughts in my mind are injured
Please don't let the makeup fool you
Forget about me; enjoy your youth
Let's pretend that week never happened
I swear it's for your own good
Don't take my word ask your parents
They won't lead you astray
You beautiful creature, can't you see I'm old