Every day Im getting just a little bit older

But I dont feel like Im moving forwards

All I want to go is backwards

Wouls love to turn the pointers on every clock

Back

To where I once had a life

I wanted to live

So let me step one feet behind another

Oh its impossible

But in dreams and memories everything is possible

So I stay for hoping to find back the me I am in myemories

I stay for rewinding time

Atleast in my head

Crying seas of tears in my bed

Only my pillows know my real pain

Wiping away the tears

With unrealistic imaginations

Of a future I never can have or want to have

Of a life I once loved

Which now is the life of a different person

I dont recognize anymore..

Every day Im getting just a little bit older

But I dont feel like Im moving forwards

All I want to go is backwards

Wouls love to turn the pointers on every clock

Back

To where I once had a life

I wanted to live

Every day Im getting older

Every now and then I wonder what happened to me

To the times where I used to laugh and joked and never worry about yesterday or tomorrow

With the friends

I used to have

Ah yeah

Back in primary school

Ha

Ha

Haaaaaahh

Ahhhhhh

I dont know me no longer

When will I ever get stronger

Let me think of the laughs and sunrails on our faces we once had

The moments we shared

With everyone while smiling bright and wide

To the world

To strangers

Looking at us strange questioning our sanity

Wondering why we were so happy

Because they know life like I know today

Oh back in the day when a person on the street laughed at me for being all happy

They called me the one who could always laugh without reason

The crazy hyperactive

Childish girl

I had no reason to be

And I didnt need no one

No reason no person

Was lonely

But happy

Every day Im getting just a little bit older

But I dont feel like Im moving forwards

All I want to go is backwards

Wouls love to turn the pointers on every clock

Back

To where I once had a life

I wanted to live

Oh I miss the moments where I could scream and spit into everyones faces who told me I was stupid for not thinking and caring about anything

Well now I care about everything

Because I forgot how it was

When I had no future and no past

And only right now

Oh yeah I miss when I was all like a child

With unrealistic dreamworlds

Which kept me alive somehow

And weird quirks and flaws

But back then it was all allright

Since I was young enought to be dumb enough

To think that I could live like this careless sadless

All day all night with no worries about tomorrow

Well

Now its not an excuse to be too lazy to take stuff up in my hands

And reach out to the world and possibilities

Now I am living in the past with no future I could love

Nothing is the way I ever wanted it to be

But I am used to it

I have no time to take on the world anymore and laugh and scream in my fullness to everyone

Now I dont wipe away my tears in a second anymore and they dont dry anymore

And my only plans are to always wanting to kill me tomorrow

Every day Im getting just a little bit older

But I dont feel like Im moving forwards

All I want to go is backwards

Wouls love to turn the pointers on every clock

Back

To where I once had a life

I wanted to live

Every day Im getting older

Or am I?

And I am frightened

By the feelings I had for a lifetime

And now am missing

Where did my feelings and dreams stopped following me

Where did I lost all my feelings

Was it along the way of losing me?