Drop by drop

Im washing my hairs

Dont know why

Because I dont even care

With noone else about me

Noone does

Seeing drop by drop

Falling down to the shower head

Wish I could fall deeper in my bed

Get out of my head

The tears the feelings

I got rid of

Oh no oh yeah

Kill me

But dont

In this way

I am slowly dying

Its too slow

Make it faster

Make me drop as fast as the drops of my hair tips

Im washing my hairs

Dont know why

Because I dont even care

With noone else about me

Noone does

Seeing drop by drop

Falling down to the shower head

Wish I could fall deeper in my bed

Get out of my head

The tears the feelings

I got rid of

Drop by drop I am swimming away in the mirror

I cant see through through the blurry eyes

Blurred by self hate

Oh yeah when love is called an open gate

Then why does noone wait

For me

To get better

They all want be to get by

And yeah they tell me get well soon love ya

Yet noone cares about me

And if I die

Their pain will fly away

Like they did already when I was alive

Noone I have

Not even me

Im washing my hairs

Dont know why

Because I dont even care

With noone else about me

Noone does

Seeing drop by drop

Falling down to the shower head

Wish I could fall deeper in my bed

Get out of my head

The tears the feelings

I got rid of

And I see it all in a haziness

All the face

I have

And shortly I doze off

I am about to cry

But I cant

My head is burning

Everything is overwhelming

Am I too dumb to get life

Or is life too dumb to get me

I am unfathomable

Nobody can reach out to me

And well why should they

When one more drop

Gets out of my veins

Out of my blood

Drop by drop

Blood by blood

I perish

So let me cherish

This last look in a nibulous reflection

This last scream at me for everything I am

Let me cherish a last moment of life

I am locking away in a treasure chest

With all the things I had

With a heart pumping in my chest

Now it is all gone

Now I am all gone

Bury it bury it with me

What I once had

So people dont forget

That I had to be alive once

But now Ive come to realise that you dont have to live before the death