-Chapter 36-

•Alex's POV•

Ok so maybe I was a bit jelly of Jay even though I knew there was nothing to be jelly of, but still! I love my boyfriend and there's nothing wrong with me getting a bit jealous.

I mean you would be too if Derek was your smexi boyfriend & had a hot best friend, not to mention all that he's done to help Derek, and so that's when I realized that he has saved Derek's life, and well I got emotional.

I hugged Jay making him tense up for about a second before he hugged me back.

"Thank you for saving my boo thang, it's really nice to meet you." I said as I pulled away from the hug.

He smiled and said "You're very welcome."

And then he turned to Harry a big smile playing on his lips, I went to sit on Xavier's lap, he's gotten used to me doing random things like this.

"HARREH!! How have you been man!" Jay said giving Harry a hug, Harry laughed.

"I've been good, what about you?" Harry asked.

"Good good, you know just chillin. I'm surprised I didn't get attacked by a small hedgehog." Jay laughed looking around.

"He's not here, but he might come tomorrow or the next day, you're lucky he's not here to hear you call him that." Harry laughed sitting down across the table from us, Derek sat down next to Xavier who gently shoved me towards Derek. Derek chuckled when he saw me pouting and kissed my nose, I glared at him and he laughed harder kissing my lips, I smiled and turned towards Jay who pulled a chair out and sat on the other end of the table next to X.

"This is Xavier, my son, I adopted him at school and out of school." I said smiling, Jay smiled gently and took out his hand to shake X's hand which X shook timidly,I placed my hand on his shoulder to calm his nerves a bit.

"Uhm excuse me? He's my son too, I had no choice." Derek said making Xavier giggle a little, I rolled my eyes playfully at Derek, and Harry and Jay laughed at the same time.

"It's nice to meet you Xavier, Derek has told me a bit about you, don't worry no bad things." Jay said and Xavier nodded and smiled.

"Pfft as if X can do anything bad, he's too sweet for that kind of stuff." I said chuckling after X blushed a bit.

"That's why he shouldn't hang out with you as often, you'll corrupt our child." Derek said laughing, I glared at him as his dad walked in with a few empty glasses he shook his head chuckling.

"Don't even try to say it's not true Alex, because after the few times you've come over, I know what Derek means." Dwane said laughing a bit, I pretended to be hurt with a loud gasp and my hand over my heart making everyone laugh.

"But it wasn't even my fault!! Your son is the dirty one! Can't keep his hands to himself." I said pouting and crossing my arms over my chest. Derek kissed my pouting lips making me giggle.

"Do you ever get tired of all the fluff?." Jay asked Xavier, Harry leaned forward with his hands over each one on the table.

"I'm actually curious as well." Harry said.

"Not really, it's not always fluffy, sometimes it's really funny when they're in the middle of 'staring in each other's eyes, lost in the moment' kind of thing when Alex's friends come out of no where and ruin it, and well it's funny when Alex goes off on them chasing them or just cursing them out for ruining everything." Xavier said looking at his hands, I placed my hand on his shoulder again and whispered into his ear.

"Remember to keep your head up, don't be timid, I'm pretty sure they're nice guys. Also you have Dwayne Johnson here to protect you and your dads, I'm pretty sure Dwayne wouldn't want something bad to happen to his grandkid, much less a cutie like you." I said smiling making X blush a bit more but he still laughed a bit, he smiled and kept his head up.

I leaned back into Derek's chest and he wrapped his arms around me, I then tuned everything out getting lost in my thoughts.

I wonder if Xavier is going through something rough at home or something, or maybe he did before coming to our school. He reminds me of myself back when I went through... Well you know what. I used to be almost like X, except I was worst.

I'd jump for everything, I was scared of everyone and flinch at the slightest sounds, I was mute for a few months until my mom helped me through that. She didn't know what had happened to me then, all she knew was that her son went through something so bad that it caused him to stop talking all together for almost 3 months.

I did go to therapy and at first I didn't talk, until I realized that I in a way was causing my mommy pain. When I did start talking it was only to my therapist and he couldn't really tell my mom what had happened to me because it had stopped and I was no longer in danger, and because well the whole 'privacy policy' and stuff.

My two idiot friends helped me tremendously at school, they didn't let anyone treat me the wrong way, and well it wasn't until Ollie got frustrated with me not talking and he blew up, making me see I was causing pain with out really realizing it. He said my mom mostly because it was just me and her and she had no idea what to do or think.

So I started talking little by little and then one day I was tired of feeling weak, feeling like I needed everyone to help me with little things. I didn't want to depend on everyone else anymore, I felt like I was a weight in their shoulders even if they said it wasn't like that at all. And here I am today, confident with myself with a wonderful boyfriend and amazing friends who I owe my life to literally, same as Jay did with Derek, both Jane and Ollie have saved me from doing something stupid and also my mom has done the same, she even took some classes to become a nurse just for me.

But now, even after I became the person I am, it only takes those random text messages from him to bring out those old urges and feelings of panic. Even thinking about it makes my skin crawl, I shiver from the thought and Derek is now looking at me in the eyes. I don't realize it at first but after a few seconds I realized that I've zoned out pretty deep that I couldn't even hear him.

'When did everyone surround me?'

Derek, Dwayne and Xavier had panic written in their eyes, Harry and Jay looked confused and worried. Derek had my face in his hands and talking to me but I couldn't hear him, he cradled me in his arms turning me to my side, I think he thought that I was about to have a seizure since I haven't responded.

'Why haven't I responded?'

I had this bad gut feeling that something was about to happen, I've felt this before, and something always happens. I shake my head and take a deep breath.

"I'm ok, baby I'm ok." I tell Derek grabbing his face in my hands, my poor baby looked so scared.

"Why didn't you say anything, we have like five minutes trying to get your attention, did you have an aura?" He asked and I didn't know if I should lie or tell the truth. I sighed and shook my head.

"No, Uhm I got really deep into thought, and then I had this really bad feeling that something bad is going to happen." I said looking down at my hands, I was nervous that they wouldn't believe me or think that I was weird or something. I felt a hand on my shoulder and I flinched without even thinking about it, which surprised the fuck out of me, I haven't done that in a really long time. Xavier removed his hand and hugged me instead, I tensed up for a second before I hugged him back, he let go smiling at me.

"You're gonna be ok, I doubt that Derek or his dad would let anything bad happen to you." He said calmly, I wanted to believe him so much, but it's not that simple, I turned to look at Derek because he was quiet and I could feel his fist tight on my shirt, I kissed his lips and placed my hand on his cheek.

"It has to do with 'him' right?" He asked sounding really mad, but not at the fact that I was thinking about 'him' more like he wanted to rip 'him' to shreds. I looked down and nodded, he picked my head back up and kissed me.

"I'm scared..." I said in a low voice, but the others heard.

"What's going on guys?" Harry and Jay asked at the same time, buried my face in Derek's neck, he quietly asked if he could tell the guys part of the situation. I didn't know if he should or not, even if it may not seem like it, but there are certain things I don't trust people with, when I didn't say anything Derek spoke again.

"You can trust them both baby, I trust them with my life, if you don't wanna talk about it it's ok." Derek said kissing my forehead, I nodded looking at him, but I didn't want to talk about it myself, I guess he noticed because he cleared his voice.

"This stays between us, Harry we can talk about it with Lou if he comes but when Alex isn't around. This is something personal so I'm asking honestly if you can keep this to yourselves." Derek said looking at all three guys, I stayed quiet and just listened.

"You know you can trust me with anything, and if there's anything I can do to help I'm here." Jay said and by the look in his eyes I could tell I could trust him.

"Yeah, you can also trust me with personal things, I wouldn't tell a soul.... Well other than my other half which you can also trust. Louis might be loud but he has a huge heart, you can count on us for anything." Harry said, he made me smile at what he said, I turned to look at Xavier who looked really nervous, I sat up and gave him a hug to whisper something in his ear.

"It's ok if you don't want to listen sweetie, I know you can keep secrets and I've told you parts of this situation. So if you don't want to listen you can help grandpa with something while we talk ok?" I whispered for only X to hear, he looked at me worried as if I'd get mad at him or something.

"Aww!! Baby don't do that face! It kills meh! I promise it's ok, I'll tell you everything with time ok?" I said to X and he looked relieved, he got up from the chair and looked at Jay and Harry as he spoke.

"I'm gonna go..... over there, Uhm I can keep secrets, it's just a long story and well... yeah.." He said fiddling with his thumbs, I gave Derek a look as if to say 'get your dad' Derek got the hint right away.

"Dad, can Xavier help you out with anything?" Derek called out, his dad came out from the kitchen and looked confused. Don't ask me how we got to the living room because I don't remember myself, I think Derek brought me over here when I was deep in thought.

"Uhm wouldn't he rather stay here with you boys?" He asked and Derek gave him a look like saying 'I'll tell you later' and Dwayne nodded pointing towards the kitchen.

"Alright X, lets go teach you how to make chicken Alfredo." He said and X's face lit up smiling, he looked at me and I smiled as much as I could and shooed him to the kitchen. After Dwayne and X were gone, Derek was about to start explaining things when my phone buzzed indicating that I had a new text message.

[A/N]
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