Aphmau's Pov

Maybe what I did was harsh.

Maybe what I did seemed out of ordinary for me.

Maybe what I did was wrong.

I could list a hundred more maybes and never figure out why I did what I did. All I know was that I was angry, confused, and hurt. I probably acted harsh, but reacting to what I did has left me even more confused.

I'm not sure anymore on what to feel. What am I supposed to feel about this? I don't know and it bother's me. It bothers me not knowing how to feel. It reminds me of what Hyria told me, when she told me I was Irene, how Irene had become unable to feel anything.

I didn't want to become that, not again...

It's weird to refer to myself as Irene, after going as Aphmau for probably at least a year. I don't even know how long its been. I don't even know how I met Lizzie and Stacy, since I am Irene. According to Hyria, I slept in my dimension for years before being woken by Vylad, so how could I have met Lizzy and Stacy. My friendship with them was the only thing I could remember from my past for so long, I still remember nothing, and they remember me so it couldn't have been a lie.

It hurts.

It hurts to try and remember the past sometimes.

It hurts even more to think about my friendship with Lizzie and Stacy.

Even if they still consider me a friend after how I acted.

Lizzie's Pov

What can we do?

What can Stacy and I do to fix this, if this is fixable.

I'm not sure, but I'm trying. Trying to figure out what we can do. Whatever that is, we need to make it special. Special for Aphmau. And maybe she'll forgive us.

I hope.

Her friendship meant a lot to us. When Aphmau, Stacy, and I had met that time ago I found friends who could never be replaced. In many ways like how my Crazy Craft friends Yammy, Joey, SeePeaKay, Oli, and most definitely Joel are. Both groups of friends mean so much to me, I couldn't bear to loose one or the other. That's why I want to repair my mistake with Aphmau, I can't loose my friend.

I can't...

Stacy's Pov

In many ways, I probably feel the same about this situation as Lizzie does.

Why did we think that turning ourselves into animals just so we could listen to a conversation between Aphmau and Laurence, just to find out Aphmau's secret only to be caught. Not to mention hurting our friendship with someone we had barely been reconnected with. Someone who we were both very close too.

I know she wanted us to figure out her secret, but the way we did... it wasn't respectful to her.

No. The way we did it wasn't right, it wasn't something friends would do. It wasn't something either of us would do. It probably wasn't something Aphmau would do, but we haven't seen her so she could've changed.

Looking back she did change in a few ways, since we had all seen each other.

Back then she was more sassy, care-free, and pretty open. She still had those traits, but now was slightly more serious, secretive, and maybe a little more confident.

People change with time, but what made her change? Maybe I'll never know, but for know I don't want to focus on that.

I want to focus on fixing my mistake.

two updates... impossible!

-cat out!