𝒓𝒚𝒂𝒏'𝒔 𝒑𝒐𝒊𝒏𝒕 𝒐𝒇 𝒗𝒊𝒆𝒘

    "SO U WEREN'T LYING when you said it was 3 am." Louis gushed, propping up his phone onto his nightstand. I laughed and nodded, "Why would I lie?"

The luminous sun rays shined down upon his pale skin and brown eyes. His brunette hair rested on his forehead gracefully.

Smirking, he shrugged his shoulders. "U probably didn't wanna Facetime, I don't know." I rolled my eyes at him.

It was difficult to be upset at him, his energy radiated happiness constantly and I couldn't help myself. Whenever you're around him, it's almost impossible not to be joyful.

I whispered, "Shut up, I wanted to."

It wasn't completely a lie, I wanted to Face-time him even though my thoughts about him weren't the best recently. The British boy I've started to get comfortable with was confusing, yet his charisma and charm made me want to talk to him more and more. I wanted to confess my dismay towards him, but I was troubled he would become upset.

I'm quite confusing, I know.

His laugh echoed through my phone's speakers which lead me to press the volume down a few times. Louis playfully covered his mouth as he remembered it was late for me.

"You look comfy."

I looked down at my fluffy pajama pants and over-sized red hoodie. Tightening my hood that was over my head, I nodded. "Yup." Another laugh left his mouth.

My color-changing led lights surrounded my entire room that lit it up entirely. The sky outside my house was dark, while Louis' sky was bright and blue due to the time-change.

"How are you still up?" Louis questioned me, I noticed his face-profile changed from his nightstand to his hand. He made goofy faces, like sticking his tongue out or crossing his eyes, into the screen which lead me to chuckle quietly.

"I don't even know, honestly."

My tired voice probably sounded horrendous.

I grabbed my phone and set it up against my white-colored lamp. Laying on my stomach, I held my head in my hands and waited for his reply.

Louis quickly stood up and walked towards an area in his room that I wasn't quite familiar of. Well, I'm not familiar with any of it except the look of his bed/bathroom.

Placing his phone in front of him, he sat on a bench that looked like it belonged to a piano. I felt myself get thrilled as the seconds went on.

"Play me something!" I replied, excitedly. The boy Face-timing me nodded and planted a small grin on his face.

His fingers placed on the white piano keys, which led the piano to release a peaceful symphony.

Louis' mind soon focused on the piano. His eyes absorbed the keys below him. I sat there, watching the boy do one of his many hobbies, which I loved.

For minutes, I couldn't even begin to think why I was upset at him. Which was annoying, because I wasn't supposed to give in so easily. Boys like this are the reasoning why I hated dating/talking, considering they knew you were hooked and used it to their advantage.

But, I didn't quite know if he knew was doing it or not, like Grandma said. Boys his age are somewhat mature, but not as mature as girls, which is scientifically proven. Is he oblivious or sneaky?

The only "boyfriend" I've ever had was about two years ago, which didn't break my heart but did give me slight trust issues. The other small flings I've had didn't last long, reasoning because they were a player, or I just didn't see it going anywhere.

Not saying Louis likes me or anything, but if he does, he doesn't have the best way of showing it, considering Claire is the one who lives in his mind rent free.

The symphony soon stopped. I didn't even realize it due to the swarming thoughts in my brain. Louis popped his knuckles which lead me to cringe slightly. Laughing, he grabbed his phone.

"I loved that." I admitted.

"The knuckle-popping or the piano?"

His teasing lead me to playfully roll my eyes at him. I could already tell he loved being a jokester.

I replied sarcastically, "The knuckle-popping."

Louis looked directly towards the camera, he focused his eyes on me for a second. "You look sleepy, Ryan."

I was tired, but I wasn't going to tell him that. I enjoyed talking to him whenever he wasn't talking about his lover, as sad as it sounds.

"I'm not!"

A small yawn left my mouth, which blew my cover. He laughed once again. "Yeah, sure." My eyes began to water due to the yawn earlier.

He broke the silence once again, "Dude, Ryan, Claire keeps leaving me on seen and I don't know why."

There he goes.

Even though his obsession with this blonde who treated him not the best upset me, there was so way I was going to make him feel like he couldn't tell me. Louis even trusting me enough to vent to me meant the world and there was no way I was going to screw that up.

"Louis, girls do that when they don't wanna talk to you."

I noticed his merry eyes loose their brightness and his lips formed into a frown.

"Or maybe she's doing something, I don't know."

His denial saddened me.

It wasn't about this situation hurting me anymore. Knowing this girl could end up breaking Louis' heart, upset me even more and I never want that to happen. His heart was so full and so big, I didn't have to know him long to know that. I couldn't imagine his happiness being ruined by some girl who couldn't care about his feelings at all.

"Yeah, maybe."

The time turned to 4 am and I knew I needed to sleep. I sighed.

As much as I wanted to talk to him, I knew I needed to sleep soon or I wouldn't wake up until the afternoon.

"I gotta go to bed, Louis." He frowned even harder.

Pouting, he remarked, "Okay."

Before I could end the Face-time call, he spoke up once again.

"Goodnight Ry, I miss you," Louis sputtered. "I hope you dream about me."

His small joke made me laugh, "Goodnight Louis. I miss you more."

After saying our goodbyes, I ended the Face-time call. And I sighed, not knowing what to do with this whole thing.

I can't let myself get hurt any longer, but I couldn't bare to tell him the truth.

His happiness matters more than my stupid feelings.

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