We ran away from Belarus and Germany completely and they brought me to their little house,if you can call it that.It was in the forest and it was a small little cabin,no electricity but they had solar dupanel chargers.

"Ok welcome to our house.I don't even know why we brought you with us...."
Said Iceland sighing and walking inside.Finland kind of pushed me inside and Belgium followed.It was like one big room but separated into different sections.

One side had three beds,and some candles because it was night time and hard to see without me using my tablet as a flashlight.The other side had a couch,a bookshelf and a small kitchen area.There was a wood oven and stove,and this box that was cold to the touch.That must be the fridge then....

"You can relax here,they said it would be a good idea."Said Finland.Nobody else said it was fine for me to be here,maybe it's his voices?I took a seat on the couch and put my tablet to charge.I pointed at the books and Iceland nodded me permission to read them.

As I was reading them,I started thinking about how nice they really are....Why was I against them in the first place?They just seem to be misunderstood that's all....

I wish I could just be neutral and just look for Croatia......He wasn't at that base so where would be?As I was thinking,I didn't realize that Finland was looking over my shoulder the entire time,kind of creepy.

"So (C/N),Croatia is a friend of yours?I heard that you two are best friends or maybe......more then that?"I shook my head head no and he snickered at it.People thought we were.........I don't want to think about it.....

"Don't you guys have friends?"
I heard Belgium and Iceland let out a sigh and Finland stood up."We are like a family!I have lots of friends in here,but these guys always come first!"
He pointed to his head when he said he had lots of friends.But they are like a family,so they aren't related?

Well all I know is that Belgium's brothers are Netherlands and Luxembourg but she seems to hate them.I have no idea about Iceland and Finland if they really are brothers,they don't look similar really besides the eyes.

"Whatever keeps you happy.Hey who wants waffles?It might be late but a way of celebration to welcome (C/N) into our lives."Belgium stood up and walked over to the wood stove.She got a match and lit the wood underneath.For some reason it smelt like.....maple.

It was calming and I enjoyed it,better then smelling the blood on Finland's hat.We were all talking,laughing and eating through most of the night before we went to sleep.I slept on the couch,but they gave me a blanket and pillow before blowing out all the candles.

I like this family....but why do I still feel so lonely?I feel like I'm just getting pushed away even more.....but why?
I want answers so badly......

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There was another nice smell in the air....so calming,but that mean breakfast again.Its been about a month since I've taken a break from looking for Croatia,staying with these guys I call family.

I love it here,I even learned that the war is in full swing,but nobodies come for us or tried to kill us for a good while.And if they do,we have Finland who will protect us."Morning (C/N)!I made some fresh waffles for you guys,eat up!"

We have been upgrading the house,we have this cool sauna now in the back of the house that Finland made.He seems to enjoy it a lot,saying its a staple in his country.Iceland got more books over time and threw out the old ones and he seems content with them,spending whole days reading them.

I'll read sometimes too,but the coolest thing came from Belgium.She found a puppy!Its a girl and it's adorable,I believe we named her Hanatamago,but we call her Hanna for short.We just give her some food and water everyday and she stays energetic and happy just like us!

Trust me this is the best life gets in a war,and I'm extremely thankful for it.
We laugh,eat,talk and repeat everyday,and that's all I wanted in my life really.If Croatia was here with me then I wouldn't have to worry.

Every once in a while I'll get a picture of a country or a short video on the tablet which I'll watch on my own time.One was of this guy that had a spear,and he was fighting Turkey.

It weird I was watching it like a sport,wondering who would win but it would always end before I got to see.
I got one today so I decided to watch it while eating breakfast.

This one is different.

After I finished I looked at it again with more detail,it was really different from most of the others.There were two people,but one was obviously in control in the situation.He had short blond hair that covered one of his eyes,and looked scared for his life.

The other had his eyes closed,and a curl like the guys flying the helicopter that one time.If I'm right it was on the opposite side though.

The one with blond hair was tied to a chair and had something over his mouth so he couldn't talk.The curl one stepped close to him with a butcher knife and playfully chopped at the air by his face.

He drew a swirl on the blond guy's face,and it had blood coming out.The one with the curl seemed to giggle before the video stopped.

What did I just watch?

It made me sick to my stomach and I guess Iceland noticed this and came over to me."Hey what's up.What are you watching?"He took the tablet from me and then I watched as his facial expression changed.

"Hey Belgium what does your brother look like."His eyes were wide not even looking at her."Well Netherlands has a scarf-"

"Luxembourg."

"You don't have to cut me off!Anyway Luxembourg has this nice blond hair and dark green eyes."

He bit his lip and showed her the tablet.Her eyes widened and she grabbed a knife from the table.

"We have a reason to be in this war again."