I've never seen Croatia so mad....sometimes he pouts but he was actually angry.He took the knife out the bunny and held it tightly.He doesn't know Belgium personally though.....why does he care so much?

"Croatia I know you hate him and all....but why are you angry?"He crouched in front of me and put a hand on my leg."First off,he's an annoying little prick,second,he's trying to take you away from me,and finally,he called you beautiful again the freaking creep...."

"I'm not beautiful though...."He shook his head no and blushes slightly looking away from me for a moment."Anyway,that place is like half a day away from here so you have four days to stay here."He stood up putting the knife down on his desk."Actually even better,what if we call an air strike on the place he's in?"

"There's a hostage."He bit his lip and then went back over to me."Um can you move over?I need to sleep you know...."I got up and he jumped on the bed,and I got in my bed.He turned off the light hanging in the room and we went to sleep.

I couldn't go to sleep though.

I was thinking about what we've always done......run away,hide,isolate,screw up,feel guilty.......these are becoming everyday feelings and events.....I want to change.....

But isn't that why we are friends?We always stayed with each other,playing the damsels in distress,never really doing anything.

In my state of deep thought,I got up and changed over into some casual clothes before walking outside.There was a tree stump near the back of the tent,so I took a seat and looked up at all the stars.

A times I've wished that I could be one,just to shine down on others and actually do something with my life.If I could take Croatia with me,then I wouldn't mind.....but I know he wouldn't.

There it is again.....egocentric.....maybe France was right.Im so self centered, and if it's not me its Croatia...I even had the chance to make friends multiple times but I failed all the time.....

I let them go,or we part paths,but in the end it's always my FUCKING FAULT.Its only been a little more then half a year and I'm already tired of this war.

"Ugh I'm just so confused!"I put my hands and head to the sky closing my eyes like that would give me answers.I just want to be happy with myself,and I want those around me to be happy,but I know that's not happening.

"Wha-oh hey (c/n),what are you doing?"I opened my eyes and turned to see Croatia standing next to me."Sorry for waking you...."He said not to worry,and took a seat next to me on the ground.

"Croatia,you know I don't like to talk right?"He raised an eyebrow and gave a sort of sarcastic head nod."I want to talk about something serious.Multiple things actually."

"Woah this isn't like you.But I'm cool with it,what's on your mind?"I just looked at the stars avoiding his gaze.He leaned his head into the side of me just keeping it there,using it as a pillow almost.

"What are we doing here?There is a war going on and we are just sitting here doing nothing to help."

"We don't really have much to do with it,well you do but I don't."

"Ok then why do you want Italy dead so bad?And keep in mind,you have to get rid of both of them if you want it off the map."

"Yeah,yeah I know but that's something I've always done.I can't imagine you being aggressive toward someone."He chuckled slightly and I started to tense up.I have sinned more than he knows,I've killed a country.

"You must not know me then."
I felt him sit up again and then he moved into my vision.His eyes were scared and he had a weak smile on his face."Y-your joking right?Y-you wouldn't hurt someone even worse kill right?"

I bit my lip and then almost ha dreads in my eyes before nodding yes.I put my hands over my face starting to feel the guilt and tears start falling.There was a hand rubbing my side,and it didn't comfort me at all.

"It's.....it's.....t-true......I......England..."
He tried to pry at my hands and I easily let them move away from my fave.I was hyperventilating,unable to speak a full sentence anymore.I saw his face,it wasn't disgusted or anything,it was something else.But I can't tell what it....is....

"Look at me (c/n)."
It took me a second or two,but I couldn't do it still.He put both of his hands on my face and then faced me toward him and I looked at him.

"I don't care....if you killed someone.Knowing you,it was for a good cause.You shouldn't feel guilty or be crying right now,there is no reason."
He let go of me and then I leaned forward and hugged him to which both of us fell.

"Wh-"

"I just....r-really need....a hug right now...."After a little I lifted my head up to see hat Croatia was blushing and making a pretty distressed face.

"Y-you know....when France asked if we were together.....I'm starting to think he's not far from the truth....."He blushed even more and had a surprised face on.It relaxed and I rolled off him,laying on the ground next to him now.

"We can make that statement true you know...."Wait.....I didn't expect that from him.....is he....confessing?His face is all red and he is just looking up.This must be a confession....But do I love him?I don't know myself...

We've known each other for so long.....I don't know!"Croatia.How do you know if you love someone?"I asked it in an awkward and shy tone,almost whispering."W-well it just means you like them more than a friend....."

Then.....then I do love him right?He started getting nervous,stuttering a bit and I got this weird feeling in my stomach.I didn't want to talk anymore.Actually my body wouldn't allow me to.

"W-well....(c/n)...since we are o-on this subject.....I have something to say!Yeah...."My heart was racing and turned over to look at me.We weren't really that far apart from each other either.

"Um well.....(c/n)...I-I really do love you.........oh I'm sorry what am I saying?You don't feel the same way abo-"

"I-I love you too...."He looked extremely shocked,and I felt my face heating up,not to mention the butterflies in my stomach......I can't believe I just said that.....

Before I could ask him anything,or say anything else,he passed out right next to me.I feel like he's done this before,maybe it's the pressure?
I went to sleep smiling tonight,which is the first time for a while.

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"(c/n)!Get up I made breakfast for us!"Croatia was shaking me awake and I got up eventually.I could smell the pancakes in the air,but he ended up carrying me on his back even though I was up.

We ate and then he usually tells me what he has to do today.But this time I actually had to go with him,which is new to me.He let me get dressed and then followed him into the main base,which was pretty big.

A guy came and gave him a slap on the back but then looked over at me in confusion."Hey who's this?A new recruit?"I shook my head no and hid slightly behind Croatia feeling a bit on edge.

"No this is (c/n).She's a great Allie."The guy smirked and then put a hand on his shoulder."Wait you got a girlfriend?Damn your lucky,you know that right?"
I blushed just a little,knowing that since we did both confess that should make us official right?

The guy left us alone after a short conversation and we went into a lab room of some sort."Ah sir we were expecting you.Im guessing this is
(c/n)."This man had a white lab coat on and these weird headphones on,but seemed harmless some how.

"Ok so we've made this shotgun right,and it works really well but we needed someone to use it.And since you don't have a gun,I was going to give it to you.Thats cool right?"I nodded my head yes and then the man presented the shotgun.It looked nice and he had a sachet to go with it,I'm guessing that's  for the ammo.

I was able to put it on my back,and the sachet just went across my shoulder.Both items were really light,even with the ammo and all.
"Nice right?Do you want to try it out?"

"I'd rather use it on a person,so no."
The man smiled like he understands how I feel while Croatia just patted my head."Is that it?"

"Yeah,we can go now."As we walked out I saw someone else give Croatia a thumbs up and he just closed his eyes.When we got back to the tent I asked him what that was about.

"News must spread really fast......"

3 days left.