W-where am I?I opened my eyes and looked around.Hospital?That's what I think anyway...there is a IV in my vein,and there is a person in the room with me.Blond hair and brown eyes.

"Oh my lord...your actually...*sob*"

I just started at them in complete and utter confusion.Who was this person?Were they a family member?"Croatia...I've missed you so much...Let me get everyone here...*sob*"

I know that's my name but...who is this exactly?Im just so confused but I don't want to offend him by asking who he is...A doctor came in the room and smiled at me."Your awake!"The man had a husky voice and seemed to be excited.

"Now...do you remember?Anything?"
What am I suppose to remember?
The blond one looked at me intensely like his life depended on it."Um...I...what am I suppose to remember?"

"T-there was a war and your country was in it!Don't you...?"I was so confused...why am I here anyway?!?
"I'm sorry I don't know who you are..."
He had waterfalls pouring out of his face and he took hold of my hand."I-I'm your brother...Slovenia..."

"It seems like he has lost parts of his memory...son,tell me the last thing you remember doing."Said the doctor.I thought for a second...multiple seconds actually...

"Um...I was at a friends house...and...I was on the balcony...then they started to pull me into the house...before I passed out I guess and here I am."
Both of them looked shocked.Was I wrong?I don't remember what the person's name was or why I was there but...it felt like just yesterday.

"Croatia...that was almost 7 years ago...(c/n) isn't with us anymore*sniffle*..."
Was I in a coma?That is the only thing I could think of!And that name...
(c/n)...why so...familiar?I can't remember what the person looks like or even sounds like...what a shame.

The doctor left the room and some other people came in the room.I pushed my body against the back f this bed and tensed up a bit.Now who are THESE people?

"Croatia lost memory of the last-"

I cut him off.

"Was I in a coma or something?"
They all looked at me and then Slovenia said yes lowly."2 years..."
That explains a lot.Im having trouble remembering who people are and certain things that have happened in the past...

"Well you probably don't remember me...I'm Serbia...your older brother."

"Well hello...I'm Macedonia...Serbia's Wife..."

"I'm your younger brother Bosnia.Hello."

"I'm Montenegro...yeah I'm your cousin...had a good two year nap?"

I kind of chuckled at his sarcasm,but...this will all take some getting used to...but something just feels off here.Not them but me?Am...am I missing something?I looked around me for a second and my family members watched.

"Croatia what are you looking for?"Slovenia asked still holding on to me hand."I feel like someone or something is missing...I don't know if it's me or not."

Slovenia looked over at the others for a moment before focusing back on me."Croatia you said somebody,right?"
I nodded and waited for his answer.The others kinda gave off a nervous look at Slovenia before he sighed.

"Croatia do you remember how I mentioned someone named (c/n)?"
I nodded yes and was curious to where he was going with this."Well...right before the war ended...she died...do you know what she was to you?"

I blinked and guessed."A...a sister?"
I watched Bosnia cringe a little and Serbia looks off into the window nervously."Croatia...you were going to be married to (c/n)...you told me that you proposed and would be married when the war ended..."

I was in tears.He's telling me......I was going to to be married and...and I fucked it up?I get that empty feeling but...now I feel guilty in a way...I let such an important life pass like that?
It shows how much I cared...

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It's been months since I've been at the hospital.Im currently living with Slovenia at my place,and I somehow got some answers.Another person who I've learned to be (c/n)'s brother came to us one day.His name is Rodney and he hugged me upon first sight.

He gave me two things.One was a photo book and the other just looked like a notebook.It was written in very nice cursive,but both seemed a bit tattered.

I took a moment out of my day to look at the photos...I was in some of them...with this girl.She looked very pretty to say the least,and then I asked who she was."Croatia your joking right?"Slovenia heard us and came in the room.

"Oh hello Rodney!Croatia I see your doing well."He went up to him and whispered something in his ear and his expression changed a bit.I was continuing to look through the album and I saw what looked to be my siblings and another person I didn't recognize.

She had long,sliver hair and these aqua
eyes.In this picture she was hugging me."T-that's our elder sister,Yugoslavia.She collapsed when all of us were finally formed but came back for a short period in the war for my place.Apparently though,she was assassinated by someone."

He said it like that was a normal thing.I flipped through and kept eyeing that girl in most of the pictures with me."Im sorry but...if I'm right...is this (c/n)?"
They both nodded and continued to point out who people were in the pictures.

Rodney left after some time but told me to read the notebook on my own time,alone would be best.So when I went to sleep that night I turned on the night stand and read through it.

Today was the day big brother died...I have to be a strong country...at least I have Croatia helping me along...

I was helping her?And my mind went blank for a second as...isn't Rodney her older brother?So what is she talking about?

The next and last entry seemed to be written clearer and had much more depth to it.

I haven't done this for a while...but I need to tell you something.A lot of things actually.There is a weird tension on me,and it's causing me to act out against Croatia.I really do fell bad,but showing emotions to others is weak and pathetic.

Second is that I've...been developing a large crush on him...we've been friends for a long time now and he visits everyday,even sleeping over sometimes.He's really nice though.

I remember a promise that he made to me when we were younger,and I just hoped now that it would come true one day.He said he would always be my prince,and I was the princess.That when we got older,we would be married.

I know we were just children...but it's something to hold on to.Unlike my brother...now I still don't know why people assassinated him...what did he do?All I know is that he should be smiling down on me in this time of pure tension....

I was crying.I felt like I could barely breathe.

"(c/n)...I'm so...so...sorry....I couldn't keep your promise..."