We arrived in the town.I jumped out and followed Kaleb around for a while."He was last seen here,and he was getting carried here from a near by forest where he wasn't too far from a crashed vehicle."I just kept my head forward,but I was truly concerned for him.

I just don't like showing emotion in front of strangers.We got to a hospital in the town and went inside but Kaleb said that he had to head back to the base."A nurse will show you where he's at.Hope all is well for you guys!"He ran back out the door and vanished from my sight.

I was in the lobby for a while until a passing nurse saw me and came up to me."Um are you here for Rodney?"My eyes lit up slightly and I nodded my head.Rodney is here...and Croatia?This better not be some sort of sick twisted dream...

I stood up and followed behind her as we got into an elevator."Rodney isn't doing so good but your other friend was unharmed."It hurts.It physically hurts,is how bad I need to see them.The door opened and she gave me directions to the room.

When she told me I flew out the elevator into a full fledged sprint.I had to dodge a few doctors and other people but I don't care anymore!I get to see them!I slowed down as I stood in front of the room.I knocked on it and waited for a response.

My body was going crazy and I couldn't really control it for much longer..."Yes?"That's his voice.I opened it and peeked my head inside first.He wasn't looking my way,and Rodney seemed to be sleeping.I ran up to Croatia and jumped on him,scaring him.

"What the?Macedonia I swear to God if that's you!"I got off his back and then tapped him again."Try again Croatia."
He froze and then swiftly turned around to see me.There were tears in his eyes and soon I spilled some too.I hugged him tight,and didn't want to let go anytime soon.

"I missed you so much..."Eventually we let go of each other and then I sat down next to him."Croatia...before anything I need an explanation....about everything..."He turned toward me and put a hand behind his head nervously.

"Ok...let me get this out the way first...after the war ended...I awoke in a hospital.The last thing I remembered was when you were pulling me because of the bomb dropping from the sky....I forgot everything....It makes me feel like a horrible person that I could forget all of those things but..."
A tear rolled down his cheek.Its not his fault...but does this mean I know everything already?

"Here you might not know what's going on currently so I'll give you the lay down.A jackass country called Italy-"

"I have my memories Croatia."

He nodded weakly and put both of his hands on his lap.He didn't want to look at me,which I can understand a bit."Italy is a dictator run country now,and is invading Slovenia.He's my brother,so I'm concerned but...he an fight his own battles right?I've always had a sorta love hate relationship with all of my siblings...so I shouldn't be concerned for him..."

Slovenia is a nice country...actually he's the nicest out of all of his siblings so for him to say something like that...it's a bit heartless."I have some questions of my own,well about the last world war.If you don't want to say anything that's fine...I'm just curious about...j-just give me your experience...."

He actually doesn't remember anything...I told him what I thought he could handle and that was all.He was holding back something too,so I'm glad that we are on the same level of trust.
"One more thing...about Yugoslavia."
I felt my muscles tense up.The whole imagery came back perfectly in my head along with what I said,did,and heard....

I'm a monster...a sick twisted monster...

I can't be honest with myself let alone my fiancé...does he even remember that?After all of those times...emotions...words between each other it's all been wiped clean.Its just like this is the first time for him meeting me,accept I know who he is.

"(c/n)?Um you spaced out on me."
I looked back at him and he seemed pretty nervous and fidgety about it."I don't know anything about Yugoslavia..."I paused after at his pained expression,because I had to force those words out through my lips.

People say there are two types of lies,ones that do no harm and ones that don't just cause harm once...because they always come back to haunt you over and over again until the truth is our.This is one of those haunting lies where each time it's harder to keep saying it without breaking down.

"Oh...ok....well...now that your here and I've explained that...Rodney here got into a car accident on the way to the military base and has a gash on his arm.He's out like a light right now but he will be better soon."Croatia told hold of one of my hands making me widen my eyes ever so slightly.

"Look...because I lost all of my memories...I want to get to know you again and create new ones...When I saw your face again it was still the most beautiful person I'd even had the blessing of laying eyes on...I just want to make things right.Don't you agree?"
I nodded and he squeezed my hand a bit.

I have to act like all of those times engraved into my head...don't exist?I'm most certainly going to get flashbacks but...n-no.For Croatia,I can do it.I've done so much for him and he doesn't even know...

Heheh...The Clueless Country of Croatia...it has a certain ring to it...After that little thing he began asking basic questions about me but...Talking...so I just nodded and shrugged.He seemed a bit nervous when I didn't talk so maybe I have to explain that to him...*sigh*

"I...usually don't talk.I don't like the sound of my own voice so...I nod and give thumbs up...."He nodded,which I hope was out of understanding."Your voice is angelic though!I want to hear it more often...look everything about you is perfect!"He was looking straight at me,a blushing mess and my eyes were kind of wide.

Perfect...I'm most likely the opposite of perfect...

I don't show emotion at the right times...

I don't smile at the right times....

I'm constantly in a war with myself just trying to figure out why I can't,don't,won't...Why?Why?!?WHY?

Before I lost it I took a deep breath and looked over at Rodney.He looked just like he did when I was younger...
Yes focus on other things..."I saw you um flinch when I said you were perfect...was I-"

"Yeah...your wrong.I honestly don't understand how you can say that about someone like me.Its just...Insane really."He looked down for a moment and then stood quickly looking out the window."Hey do you hear a sound...?"
I walked up to the window and looked.
There was like a blast of...something coming this way.