Chaahat's POV:

I was red in anger!!! I hated the words that came out of his mouth...those piercing eyes that questioned me about such a gross thought!!!

How could he just picturise me and give me a character certificate just because my choices and opinions back then didn't match with his!!!

Fine he wanted marriage and I wanted live-in relationship!!!

But I'm not such a irresponsible woman to get into someone's bed in casual dating.. above all pregnancy 😡 seriously Neiv Kapoor badly needed to sterilize his brains...

Although I had tears in my eyes my anger was on 9th cloud now!!!

I was pissed to the core!!! I felt bad when I was in washroom and I heard the bunch of women gossip shit about me and my character.

I silently shed tears while Karan hugged to console me although I didn't feel like telling him the reason for my tears but Neiv speaking shit like this!!!

I wanted to pull his tongue out and chop it into little pieces with a chef's knife!!! Yes I loved this piece of shit...
I....still do 🥺

But then I cannot let anyone bark rubbish about me...I gave him a tight slap and walked out of the room.

I walked down the staircase while I feel Neiv's gaze still on me as he was standing outside his room.
I wanted to give him a strong reply although I slapped him hard...

I saw those women again doing hush hush gossips...
One of them saw me and asked ...
'Ohhh Chaahat beta(child) I heard you vomited...is everything alright?' followed by silent giggles. I got the shit brains and sadistic sarcasm!
I would usually keep quiet as I don't like getting myself into a gutter but then today I definitely wanted to clean up this shit!!!

To which I turned around and said...
'Actually na aunty according to me it was a case of mere gastric issues but looks like we have a lot of doctor's here other than Aaru, Mihir and Karan...
I heard sooo many women giving opinions about my sex life, choices and suspecting my pregnancy too!
Extremely interesting you know... Specially to hear it from women who speak so high about other women's character when still being judgemental of the choices a women dared to own in life!!! Rather than bowing their head to anything served in your plate in the name of society and norms!!!

Just because I left the wedding alter doesn't make me a characterless woman.

I agree I must have took a matured call before like wayyyy before of speaking my heart out but then I didn't!

Before wedding I chickened out but I'm still not regretting it!
Yes I'm not aunty!
I wasn't ready for it!

Marrying then meant destroying someone's dreams. Being half loyal and half hearted in a relationship. It's as much crime as that of cheating in a relationship. And Chaahat Garewal does everything whole heartedly.

Shaadi bhi Pyaar bhi (May it be marriage or May it be love)

And I loved my man whole heartedly and my soul knows it!!! I could swear and shit like that but how unlucky you are I don't care to prove it to you neither do I believe in god. Lol!!!

We may have had babies and a married 'tag' but honestly tell me is every women here who married at the right age 100 percent happy???

I am not telling everyone isn't happy! I see MyPie SonaPie, I see Veer Nisha, Aaru Mihir, Dev uncle Ishaani aunty but then that was their choice!

I didn't want my partner to regret marriage!
And my self conscious didn't allow me to take such a fake step forward as I have seen marriages break! Call that my childhood demons but that's my truth!!!

I know my step took a toll on our families.... but atleast we didn't do anything half heartedly...
Yes I'll forever curse myself for running away and not staying back and asking Neiv for some time...I left my MyPie SonaPie to answer everything...my stupidies were answered by then. That they didn't deserve! I regret running away like a coward. I must have stayed back...faced it all.

Now that's my mistake but this!!!
Marrying him that night!!!
I'm sorry to say!!! I still feel I was right!
And if women here want to judge me for being 'modern... western' etc ...
I'm proud being that!
And one more thing aunty...
My body my choice!!!
Most importantly I've always learnt from my MyPie...
There are illegitimate children!
There are only irresponsible illegitimate parents!!! Although you didn't get the required spice from me here I least expect you to learn a lesson and respect people's CHOICE!!!'

Saying I looked up to gaze him...looked down again towards the lady and said...
'My life my choice' saying I walked out of the living area while I passed by Dev uncle and MyPie. MyPie cupped my face and kissed my forehead while Dev uncle said in my ears...
'I usually don't...but my Daadi used to do this...I want to do it for you'

Saying he used both his index fingers on either side of his mouth and whistled loud 😗🤣

I chuckled and left from there passing Mr Neiv Kapoor a fiery glare.

I was sitting in the garden area post the function with a glass of whisky and I hear the Kapoor's family head maid Binni aunty say...
'Neiv baba didn't eat anything from morning... atleast give him some fruits'

To which the waiter said...
'I tried Binni aunty but Neiv Sir denied and is all by himself in the room'

And I was shocked 😳

He hadn't eaten anything from morning???

Why????

I walked towards his room and was about to talk to him. I didn't want him to starve. I slapped him too. But then he deserved it.

While I was about to enter his room I saw Aaru trying to convince him to eat...

'Bhai yaar please... You are not letting me apply medicine to your cheek...there is a handprint there literally... now you are not eating food... what the hell is this Bhai... I know Chaah Di's outburst was all your provocation, else the man himself who supports single mother rights, provides working hostel for both men and women who are single parents with or without marriage working at Kapoor Group of Industries can never ever try to judge a woman for her choices. That much I know you Bhai. I don't know about Chah Di...but why did you provoke her?' she asked

While hearing all this I was shivering and was unable to understand any of it!!!
I stood there trying to listen to his answer

'She needs to stand up for herself Aaru...no random woman can tarnish her character, paint her a bitch shade and walk away. I can't take her being portrayed like that. This was a much needed one. If she didn't clarify this tomorrow hundred other will try to suppress her.
Yes....yes I hate to see her with Karan.
It burns the hell out of my heart to see her in someone else's arms...
I want to hide her in my chest forever...
But!!!
I can't forget how she ran away!
I can't forget how she literally broke my family's hopes!!!
How she never thought once about me... about how I will answer my family...
Not once!

But I will never judge her character Aaru...

I don't have the rights! But I don't want to stand up for her. She is not mine anymore.

Although my heart belongs to her. But I don't!!!!

It's like my heart vs self respect!!!

My love vs my virtue and pride!!!

And I am sorry but I can't do that! But she must protect herself! Stand up for herself!!!

No one can just come and spit on my Chaahat's character you see'

Hearing 'My Chaahat' from his mouth poured non stop tears from my eyes...

I felt like something big was now clutching my chest!!! I felt like there was a painful sphere that pierced through my chest yet a peaceful death awaited me in his arms...
I just wanted to feel him...
His warmth....

I closed my eyes and entered his room.

Looking at me Aaru was shocked...

'Chaah Diii...' she said and although his back faced me and he was looking outside the huge glass window of his room ...I could clearly see his body stiffened.

'I....I....guess you both need to....talk... Please talk.... please... I beg you both' Aaru said and I looked at her with tears falling off my eyes... She was also in tears... She left the room closing the door...

I took silent steps towards Neiv who was still looking outside the glass window...
I could see his eyes glistering with tears when I went and stood next to him.

I kept looking at tears dropping from his eyes drop by drop
...
There were no words...

I sniffed through my tears... Wiped my face. Picked his favorite Alu Paratha with pickle into a serving plate while still noticed he wasn't moving.

I caught his wrist in one go and pulled him to the huge red king chair in his room and made him sit. His eyes were still in faraway thoughts and eyes were pouring.

I wiped his eyes once twice thrice...

It just kept pouring...

I have hurt him a lot throughout years...

A lot...

I know 🥺

I kneeled down and took a small piece of Paratha and took it near his lips.

But all he did was look in a trans state, shed tears and didn't open his mouth.

'Please Neiv' I said softly...

There was no reaction. I noticed his cheek was red due to the slap. I printed my hand on his cheek.

I closed my eyes. Stood up.

Next...I sat on his lap.

I saw his eyes out of trans now were fixed on me.

'Eat' I said....

And before I could understand anything...

He put his hands on my waist and slowly touched my bare waist...

Pressed it a bit and pulled me closer...

I could hear him breath heavily... angrily...

'I don't need you'

He said while his angry red eyes still kept pouring and I softly caressed his cheek I slapped hard...

He closed his eyelids and caressed my waist and fondled it.

I loved his touch!!!

3.5 years later his fragrance, his proximity, his touch...

I so wanted him badly...I missed him 🥺

I slowly kept the piece of Alu Paratha on his lips
..
His eyes were still closed
He still didn't open his open but his hands made wonders on my waist...

I closed my eyes when multiple drops of tears fell from my eyes on his cheeks...

Next minute I bent down and smashed my lips on his!!!

I sucked his lips both really hard...I was kissing him after years now. He was my sanity which I had lost and I needed him completely to be back into senses.

Nibbling through his lips, While I was about to pull out I felt his grip tightening over my waist and he pressed me more into him...

I felt him way too excited as I was sitting on him and knew this wasn't going to stop so easily...

I felt his tongue enter my mouth and he began deepening the kiss and here my heart was beating like a drum.

I need to stop!!!

I really need to stop what I began!!!

But I can't!!!!