Feelings upon feelings
My love wasn't enough
Cause when you said that you loved me
I believed you sure enough

I though we'd be forever
I dream come true maybe
But of course you lied to me
You used my weakness against me

It's not my fault I'm different
It just happen by fate
It's not my fault I'm a freak
I just was made this way

What I though was my confidence
Turned out to be my demise
In the end I felt worthless
Like a fuckin' waste of time

I though no one would want me
That I didn't have a purpose
I felt like I wanted to die
Wishing I was never born

Then some people came along
They changed my point of view
They made me realize something
That I was too good for you

You see I have this testimony
A story about my life
You though using it against me
Would ruin my whole life

You though you won the battle
But, oh how wrong you are
You see you though you played me
But in the end I'm the one that won

For the weakness you used against me
Only made me stronger
I realized my self worth
Your attempt made me confident

So now let me tell this
Even though you were a jerk
You made me gain more confident
So thank you piece of work

Now I'm doing better
I love more everyday
But I never ended up telling you
I forgive you to this day

Thank you making me stronger
For showing me self-worth
I'm greatful that you came along
For you're a lesson learned

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This poem is based off a life experience when a now ex-boyfriend broke my heart, using my biggest weakness against me. Attached to this poem is also a letter I wrote to myself back in 9th grade, it was when he first broke up with me. I hope you guys enjoy the poem and thank you always listening when I need it! I love you all and hope you continue to enjoy my poems!

To my ex,

I can't believe I was stupid enough to believe you actually cared about my well being. Was I even anything to you? Nothing but a game? We were together once before and were happy. But then I opened up about things I'm usually so stubborn about and it seemed like you didn't want to be with me anymore.

Yeah, I was ok with that. It wasn't until you admitted the truth though. The first time we broke up, you told me you didn't want me to get hurt because of a condition I had. Then when we decided to give it another go, I found out you lied. You didn't care at all. You just wanted an excuse to end things.

Why did you come back if you didn't want to be with me in the first place?
You caused a fight between I and one of my friends because you broke up with her to date me. You ruined so many things and most likely don't even regret it. You ruined me the most, because of you I lost confidence in myself. I though no boy would want to date me because I'm different, it isn't my fault I can't have kids, it isn't my fault that it could kill me.

It isn't my fault I only have one kidney, at least I'm still alive because of a live saving transplant. It isn't my fault I have all these other medical problems I have to deal with for the rest of my life. I hope you're happy with yourself because of you not only did you break my heart. You made me feel like I didn't have a purpose in this world, that I was a worthless piece of trash that should have never been born. You made me feel like a freak.

I hope you're happy with yourself because of you I no longer feel like a human being. But yet still in the end, I forgive you.

Sincerely,
The Girl who's confidences you destroyed