"Why are u so unusual today?"
She asks and i smile
Cuz what else could i do
When i myself stand unaware
Of the 'usual' in this life

Life.
A series of uncertainties
Leading to the one certain
Everyone feared 
The idea of that rest,
Bought me peace that was Interpreted
'Unusual' as i now get scrutinized upon

How ironic it is,
I am potrayed as loud and cheerfull,
The girl who seems to shine
While i used my mask as a blade,
Which pressed deeper in my skin
Everytime i allowed a smile

But now, i feel the mask is stuck
My real sorrow burried in miles deep,
People, people,
And endless noise,
Yet i stand alone in crowd
Just within reach
But oceans apart for
The much lusted breach

But ofcourse its all greek to them,
The grief thus never saw the light,
hence i embrace the darkness
Its silence, a tranquil breeze,
And it's with this new friend
That i let loose of the
Raging screams
Which i carefully Contained within

But he doesn't judge me
Nor does he scrutinize,
Just Holds me firmly,
Guiding through the fiery pits
Of hellfire in my mind.

And thus,
I hide in the dark,
Its the only calm i find
I might have fallen for its silent charms
Which leave me breathless
yet pacified.

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