why do i hang out with the same fucks
who only want me for what material things
i can give

selfish
hypocritical

why do i feel lonelier with them than i ever did
when i was alone

(because they don't care about you.)

that might be why.

ill still lie to myself
and pretend they do

it won't hurt any less
when they grow tired of me again.

- [too fucking lazy to text back, too fucking selfish to admit when you're wrong. why are we friends again?]