i slide the bag from my shoulder and slip my shoes off
i lay down on unmade sheets, drawing a sour-smelling cover over my body
and i just. lay there

i lay on the sheets with crumbs and old tissues, slipping in and out of consciousness, thinking of what anyone else is doing
i will stare at the closed blinds and watch the sunlight disappear
the room will eventually get cold, and i will only get up to turn on the heat
i will get up for nothing else

the sounds of people living fade in and out
laughter
a door slamming
a conversation in parts
and later, when i wake in the dead of night
ill still be so tired
so tired

ill sleep after a drink of water
ill sleep until my eyes open again, and i leave only to come back once more
i will lay down
sleep
leave
lay down
sleep
the sounds of people fade out

- (are you still taking your medication?)