Dang when did I turn into such a... Lovey dovey mushy gushy little... Thing on the inside?

My day with Chris was amazing.... We walked into the movies without knowing what we wanted to see... And ended up in the theater for Finding Dory of all things.

It was actually surprisingly good for a Pixar sequel. Also I cried. So now that's something Chris can make fun of me for for the rest of my life.

The weeks went on and on, and the dates only got better. And as much as I've hated the cheesiness of this sentence since I was born...

I'm in love.

No, I'm not just an irrational teen.

No, I don't just have a crush.

I... I'm in love...

Man, I know it's cheesy but if you've experienced it, you understand and if you haven't yet, you will.

You see, the scary thing is, I know this can only end in one of two ways.

One; break up. Real heartbreak and months of tears.

Two; marriage. And let's be real. That word is as scary as it is exciting.

But the weeks turn into months.... Months of getting deeper into a relationship than I ever imagined I'd be.

I walked with into an office the first time he tried out a prostatic arm. I was there when he cried because he hated it.

And I was there when he finally found one he liked; although often, he's found he's ok just embracing the fact that he's only got one arm.

We've seen other movies; I've cried at a lot of them... When did I. W one such an emotional wreck???

We've had countless nights at dinner, most of which include  some moment with me snorting Dr. Pepper out of my nose.

We've also been bowling... We both use bumpers all the time and Chris always teases that he actually has an excuse to use them. Which I know is true, but I argue with him anyway.

Before we know it, it's been a year and half of dating. We've endured the "we told you sos" with mostly patient and good humor. We've acted like idiots and made many people smile doing it.

We're high school graduates... Who don't know what's next.

And honestly... As much as Chris fills my heart... There's something we don't always talk about.

There's still a hole in my heart... Because I don't know how Ayana is doing.