With my eyes closed

My thoughts continue to flow.

For I will never forget you

But my memory of you is running slow.

Sure I can remember

The color of your hair

but what if it all slips away

For that I am unprepared.

Isn't it enough

That you are no longer here with me

God has taken you to heaven

But why does he need my memory?

I cannot remember

The scent of perfume on your skin.

I can't remember your angry expressions

Or even your silly grin.

The Lord now has you

But he needs so much more.

I sit and I wonder

What is he doing this for?

I wish you were here

To hug me reassuringly when I cried

Or to giggle over night with me

Best friends, side by side.

But no words can I hear

And little picture can I see

For my mind is fogging

Where your memory used to be.

It's like losing you all over again

To not remember you now

And my depression

Is slipping further and further down.

Nichole wrote this for her best friend, Amanda. They went to middle school together and were in many of the same classes together their freshman year.

They were looking to the future and all ready planning on what colleges they would like to apply to.

One night Amanda went to bed and never woke up. To say Nichole was devastated is a gross understatement.

Amanda's family had no life insurance on her. I think a lot of  parents don't have life insurance on their children, they are not suppose to go before us. Unfortunately they do.

Nichole with the help of some of their friends organized a huge fund raiser at the high school in honor of Amanda, and to help her family.

I know that Nichole and Amanda are once again together in heaven.

Thank you for reading Nichole's poetry, if you have a moment, please vote.