I sit here expecting miracles.

Magical words or expressions

Flowing from my finger tips,

Reliving these bitter tensions.

Thoughts of past lovers

Or past experiences, misunderstood.

Wondering how I got over them

Or if ever I should.

Experiences build people

And so my soul is a soaring tower.

How love has the ability to give

Or fiercely devour.

Alone I remain here

Wanting with words to express the pain.

These roaring feelings a gift

Yet I interpret them as strain.

Straining my mind and body

Causing confusion and sadness.

Of past lovers and dreams

I ponder on and reminisce.

I would give anything I have

To again feel the warmth of an embrace.

To see the passionate expressions

Or the lustful soothing taste.

But alone I am

And only feeling bad for myself.

With these thoughts hovering over me

My entire life I have dealt.

Excuse me now

For I must dwell in my sorrow.

For I will cry until asleep I am

And awake worthless again tomorrow.

She started a downward spiral when he called it off "for good."  The emotional roller coaster she was on must have been a horrible ride and it lasted off and on for years. I accept what some of my readers have said, that there was no way I could read her mind and that some people are so good at hiding their emotions. I am sure all the mothers that are reading this will understand when I say, I still feel like I should have known.

If you are reading this and are feeling like you are worthless, you are not. Take a moment to reflect on all the good you have done, the lives you have touched, the laughs you have shared and the love you have given. You are so important to so many people, you are not worthless! If you are enjoying Words A Mother Never Heard, please take a moment to vote.