When involved with you

I instilled my trust

I mistook your I love you's

For what was really  lust.

You knew what to say

You held me when I would cry

Who would have thought

That when things got hard, you would say goodbye.

I sit and wonder

If I knew then what I know now

Would I have left the show

Or allowed you to take a final bow.

To clap at the performance

That has taught me so much.

You made me realize that not everyone's good

Not everyone deserves trust.

Now I sit in the theater

Reminiscing about the play

And I realize I still love him

I am sad to say.

Love should be deserved

But the heart knows not the law

It feels not with hands

Or your falseness I could have saw.

I lift my hat to you

The grand master of shattered dreams.

My world is now ending

Or so it seems.

Wishing I could hate you

For everything you've done.

Wishing I could open up

But yet I run.

Afraid to open up

Fearful of fates blow

So until my fear vanishes

My true self will no longer show.

As you already know, Nichole already suffered from low self esteem and self doubt. During this relationship her ideas of self worth were regulated by what he told her not by what she thought. It was a toxic relationship from the beginning.

No one knows you better than you. Believe in yourself, your abilities and your worth. Know that you are in charge of your life. If YOU choose to share yourself and your life with someone it is your choice - no one else's. These are obviously my beliefs but these are words I  have told my own children. If you like Nichole's poetry please remember to vote.