A thought keeps knocking my head off

A phenomena I find no answer for

Now that I pray and fast and spend in His way

Why does fate keep playing with my happiness still?

All these trials I've crawled on my knees to survive through

These pieces of skies I've held on my shoulders

To keep them from falling through

Now that I pray and fast and spend in His way

Should not these turmoils lessen in my way

Yet the sky is now all on my back

The fires on my bridges are right in front of my path

And as I burn and as I scorch

As the tides of trials drown me under their mount

I wonder why I am still unfound

By peace and happiness and life's good givings

And then I hear His words and it comes to me

Now that I am of faith these trials shall increase

For before He lets me into Paradise

He tests my worth by testing me further

And as I pray and fast and spend in His way

And I deal all my trials with patience exquisite

Then I shall verify myself as worthy and fit

Of eternal and forever happiness, in the after world

So I knock this thought out of my head

Pain is not permanent

How can it be?

When I myself am ephemeral.

- your worthy soul