it feels so wrong thought jinwoo i shouldn't have kissed her. i shouldn't have fallen in love with her at all.
maybe i shouldn't even exist. maybe... maybe. it's such a waste, i'm such a waste.

for the past three days his thoughts had tortured him even more, the days since he had kissed go cho hee. although she still called him, this time it didn't help to make him feel better, it just made him feel guilty.

he sat down on his bed and swallowed a hand full of pills, closing his eyes.

cho hee stood rang jinwoo's door with some pastries in her other hand. she knew, that the boy loved sweet things and she wanted to surprise him.

when no one answered, she just attempted to let herself in. the door wasn't locked, but there was no sign of jinwoo anywhere. panicing she stumbled around, trying to orientate in the unfamiliar surroundings.

the apartment wasn't big and suddenly she heard a small groan from what could be the bedroom. somehow she found the door handle and found hold at the footboard. desperately she called jinwoo's name, but he didn't react in any way.

quickly she took out her own push-button phone and dialed 911 with trembling hands.

while cho hee waited for the emergency doctor, she caressed jinwoo's hair and face. "you're such a stupid and beautiful boy, why'd you have to do this to me?"

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this shit isn't over yet