The next few days go by without Seonghwa and San seeing each other in their dreams just like last time, but when a week passes, they begin to worry.

Seonghwa has been having normal dreams about San now, feeling sad every time he wakes up and knowing it wasn't the real him again. He just wants to be with him again.

Seonghwa's friends have been worried about him for the past week, knowing something is off. Every time the try to ask him, Seonghwa quickly pushes it away and changes the subject. He can't let his friends know about this, they'll think he's crazy for sure.

In Seonghwa's normal dreams he's been having and unable to control, he's able to touch San though. Not the real San, but it still makes him happy to see him and be able to dream of being with him.

At the end of the dreams, San always disappears and Seonghwa feels this overwhelming amount of dread every time he wakes up. He keeps waking up in a sweat, feeling scared and worried.

Is San alright? He can't even check on him to see if he's okay... What are these dreams?

San has been drawing a ton of sketches of Seonghwa in his journals, missing him in the absent days. After a week passed, San begins to theorize that maybe if they keep touching more and more, then the length of time they disappear grows. Or maybe the more intimate the touch makes the time away increase? He writes all of his thinking in his journal. He will have to tell Seonghwa about his theories once they meet again.

San can't keep his mind off of Seonghwa and the dreams even while he's in class, having fallen asleep way too many times during the lecture this week. San's new friends also begin to worry about him. He's never slept in class before, what could be keeping him awake all night? Studying? They can't be sure, but they hope he will be okay again soon.

San thinks about his return date to Korea and he can't help but smile. He's going to be able to meet Seonghwa in real life. They will be able to really kiss each other and not have to worry about disappearing. San smiles down at one of the sketches of Seonghwa he's drawn. How much longer do they have to be apart?

It's been twelve days since they've been in each other's dreams, but that night they appear again.

Seonghwa wakes up in a familiar place, sitting up quickly and looking beside him. San is lying there next to him, still asleep, but just seeing him be there is enough to cause Seonghwa's eyes to water. He's overwhelmed with emotion.

"You're back! You're really back," Seonghwa whispers to himself, wanting to caress his soft skin, but he restrains himself. He should be waking up soon, Seonghwa thinks.

A few minutes later, San also wakes up in a familiar setting. He smiles as he opens his eyes to find Seonghwa looking down at him with his gorgeous warm brown eyes that make his heart melt.

"You've finally come back to me," San says, also about to try and touch him, but he pauses. He can't truly touch him... What can he do so that they can be able to? San has been thinking about the possibilities for days, and he came upon an idea that he thinks just might work.

San closes his eyes and conjures up some gloves, two pairs, one for him and one for Seonghwa. He motions for Seonghwa to put on the other pair as San puts on his.

"I was thinking that maybe if we wear gloves, that we would be able to make contact," San says nervously, unsure about his theory. What if they touch and then they have to wait who-knows-how-many more agonizing days apart? 

But... what if it does work?

Seonghwa's eyes light up as he puts on the gloves, "That's an incredible idea, San! You always have such creative ideas. It must be insane to be in your head."

Seonghwa holds out both of his gloved hands towards San, "This has to work. It's not skin to skin when we're wearing these!"

San blushes and nods, his heart fluttering when Seonghwa gets so excited about his thinking, "You're exactly right, Seonghwa."

San gently places his gloved hands onto Seonghwa's, closing his eyes, afraid of them disappearing from each other. But they don't.

San opens his eyes to Seonghwa smiling wide, squeezing his hands, "I-It works!" San exclaims, his eyes turning to glass as he feels Seonghwa's hands tightly on his. His grip is so strong...

Seonghwa is amazed as well, having squeezed San's hands instinctually. Being able to hold onto him makes his heart feel full. This is real. He's physically able to hold San's hands without the worry of disappearing now.

This makes Seonghwa feel emotional, sniffling as he gets closer to San. He loosens his grip of San's hands and moves them to hold his face, "Y-You're really real... I can- I can finally hold you," Seonghwa stammers, looking deep into San's eyes.

A tear streams down San's face as Seonghwa moves his hands to hold either side of his cheeks. San lifts one of his hands and gently places it on Seonghwa's cheek as well, "I've missed you so much the past few days, Seonghwa... Haha, my friends were starting to get worried about my grades! I know it's not healthy to stay up so late, but I just couldn't stop thinking about all of this... about you."

Seonghwa's face starts to feel hot, "M-My friends were also worried, but for a different reason, I think. I had such scary dreams while you've been gone, and I think it carried over into my real life a bit... I'm so glad I'm able to have these dreams with you back. You seem to make everything in my life better"

San eyebrows start to furrow, getting a worried look on his face when Seonghwa mentions his dreams, "What kind of scary dreams?"

Seonghwa explains to San about the dreams of the two of them, and how San always disappears at the end and how dreadful Seonghwa always feels when he awakens.

San gently rubs Seonghwa's head, running his gloved hand through his hair, hoping to calm him, "Don't worry, Seonghwa. I'm here, I'm not disappearing. I promise you," San gives Seonghwa a hopeful smile, hating that he's had to feel like that while he's been gone.

"That makes me so happy to hear from you, San," Seonghwa lets himself relax into San's arms. His long silk pajamas feel so nice against his skin. He feels like he's on cloud nine just being in San's arms and having him comfort him.

San looks down at Seonghwa laying against him, softly stroking his cheek, "I've been drawing you a lot..."

San's heart beats fast as he admits that to Seonghwa, worried he will find him weird.

Seonghwa smiles up at him, "You've been drawing me?" He gently places his gloved hand on top of San's, "I wish I were able to see your art. I bet it's incredible," he chuckles, "I don't know if you should be wasting your talent drawing someone like me, though."

"Nothing is a waste with you," San tells Seonghwa confidently, not afraid of his feelings for him, "you have become very special to me, and it's important to me that I have something of you to think about when you're not with me. "

Seonghwa is shocked, nervously looking away from San. He's special to him...? Does he really think that much about him in the real world? Seonghwa's heart feels like it's about to jump out of his chest. Could San really feel so strongly towards him?

San is still gently caressing Seonghwa's head but stops to reach down and hold onto his gloved hand once again, "I want you to know how special you are to me, Seonghwa... My journal has become full of your sketches," San squeezes Seonghwa's hand, "I only draw what I lo-..."

San pauses in his sentence as Seonghwa disappears from his arms. He looks down at his gloved hands though, and he can't help but smile.

Seonghwa wakes up in his bed in a sweat, breathing heavily. His alarm is screaming at him to wake up and he turns it off in frustration. He lays back in bed and stares up at the ceiling, "San..." he whispers to himself, out of breath. He smiles big as he thinks about him. Maybe he should be more like San, Seonghwa thinks. San doesn't seem to be afraid of his feelings. Seonghwa hopes that soon he will be able to talk to his friends about this situation. 

End of Chapter Four

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 Also, sorry ahead of time if some things don't make sense. I hope you'll see this till the end which probably won't be too far away actually. 

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