I'm afraid I'll be left alone,
Without loving arms around me,
That plainly refuse
To let me out of sight,
Let alone out of mind.

It eats me up,
And battles  with my integrity,
Self-worth,
Self-identity;
For why would I need a lover
To make me feel secure?
Why would I need a heart
That just belonged to me?
Why would I die alone
When I have friends and family?

If I could  explain it,
I wouldn't,
Atleast not until
You decided you were here to stay,
And not just window-shop
In my store of antiquity.
I won't let you be a part of my story,
Until you promise me that
You'll be a character
That I could not ever hate,
And that journeys till the end of the book.

I'm just afraid,
Terrified,
And a retreated soul,
Awaiting yet,
For another to come,
Cohabitate my shell.
And if it didn't happen,
I'm  afraid,
My fears,
They would  just intensify.

I'm afraid of loneliness,
Being loved, yet feeling unloved,
Being me, without anyone to see,
Being,
Just being,
All alone.

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A/N:

Another  Free Verse today. What did  you think  of it?