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𝖘𝖆𝖑𝖊𝖒𝖔𝖑𝖔𝖌𝖞 2020

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There is vulnerability wrapped around her heart; it slithers and slides across her as blood pumps from underneath. But it is not the only thing that is draped over her organ. There is a blackened sheet, twisted and designed with steel to cover the thin sheet of vulnerability. It protects her heart, doesn't allow anything to poke its way through; it keeps her steady, keeps her from falling into the unknown.

But that armour is faltering, with every shredded breath, with every lie that falls from her painted smiles. It is weakening, she has a broken heart, and the healers failed to heal it when she was born. She was broken, faltered, and now she feels everything. Her heart had to fix itself with bloody bandages and wept tears she choked at night.

It fades now, and Winnie Bulstrode feels it disappearing in her chest. It leaves her weak and weeping venomous tears that paint her cheeks black.

When Winifred Bulstrode was a child, she trusted in almost everything that came her way. She trusted that her family would always be there, that pure blood was more significant than foe. She trusted that being a Slytherin was the most excellent way to prove how powerful you are; she trusted that power was more significant than anything else.

But blind trust leaves you with a bleeding heart, and her heart has already cracked too much.

She had been twelve and kicked to the curb for baring the colours of red and gold instead of green and silver. The trust instilled in her vanished in the flames as smiles turned into sneers, as love turned into hatred. Her world, once full of colour, now boosted in black and white, trust and love was something she could no longer afford to place in others, her family showed her how little it was valued.

By the time she was fifteen years old, she truly trusted only herself. She trusted that sticky buns could get her through any terrible day, she trusted that when winter chilled her bones, spring would bring comfort and soft flowers. She trusted that having friends was something she could not do; simple acquaintances were better. That could not hurt Winnie Bulstrode. She built her scars into bookcases, book after book, closing with each dream and wished she conjured. Trusting and loving herself was all she could afford.

It was how she survived.

She was fifteen years old when the world titled before her own molten eyes. Fifteen when the vials of her heart faded, she suddenly felt everything in a shaky breath. When the world of secrets and hatred turned more accurate in the hands of a man with scorching red eyes and nails as sharp as needles. When her school she loved so well turned into horror with the lines of a pink lady. Winnie Buldstrode was fifteen years old when her world twisted into grim and filth when fear choked her clean of any courage she had.

She was fifteen, and Theodore Nott became a reality of green in a world of black and white. A boy she had hated since she was twelve. A boy she swore never to see, suddenly became everything she saw.

Winnie Bulstrode promised never to trust again, but life has a mysterious way of turning your wishes against you. Before she knew it, Theodore Nott was why her world was in colour again.

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WINIFRED 'WINNIE' BULSTRODE / nicola peltz

THEODORE 'THEO' NOTT / lorenzo zurzolo

- others as described

WARNING !
major character deaths ,
blood&gore , explicit language and
phrases , misuse of drugs and
alcohol , mentions / scenes of abuse
and assault , sexual themes ,
sex&masturbation , unreliable
narrators , violence with guns and
bombs , surrounding scenes of
criminals.

COPYRIGHT !
   all rights reserved for
   © ashley from salemology for
   the creation of original characters ,
   dialogue , plots , edits. such
   things are not prohibited to be
   plagiarized.

DISCLAIMER !
    all characters in the harry
    potter universe belong to jkr
    ( unfortunately. )

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ashley writes!
— hello loves!! welcome to the new improved verison of winnie bulstrode's story. we have come a long way since i started writing this fic back in november, and we still have so much to go. as you know, i have begun rewriting this fic purely due to the fact i was no longer happy or proud of my work. so while most scenes will stay the same, new ones will be added / scenes taken out, and characters adjusted.

APRIL 2nd, 2023
      this book is going under edits. continue to read as i edit <3