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Description: Remus sings his feelings about Sirius and doesn't know that Sirius is listening. (Heather by Conan Gray).

Story:

Sirius was with his girlfriend again in the common room. It broke Remus inside whenever he saw the two of them together. He loved Sirius more than anything and it hurt to know that Sirius would never feel the same way back.

Sirius and Heather were sitting together on the couch and she was giggling about something he said. Remus felt a deep ache in his heart, wishing that it was him next to Sirius.

He let out a shaky breath, wiping his eyes and disappearing up the steps to his dorm. He shut the door behind him and paced for a few minutes before pulling his guitar out from under his bed. He'd gotten it over the summer and played it often when he was alone. It was one of his favorite ways to relieve stress.

He shrunk it and hid it in his trunk on the train ride. He didn't want the other boys to see it because he was afraid of what they would think.

He took the guitar and sat down with his back to the door and started at tuning the instrument. He gave it a few experimental strums and then started playing some chords, making up the words as he went.

I still remember the third of December
Me in your sweater, you said it looked better on me than it did you...

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Sirius had seen Remus leave the common room and was quickly distracted from Heather trying to snuggle into his side. Remus had looked upset and Sirius spent the next minute thinking up an excuse to leave.

Once he was away from the couch and up the stairs, he almost barged right into the room, but he stopped himself. There was guitar music and a soft voice singing on the other side of the door.

Sirius thought at first that Remus must've figured out how to get his muggle record player to work inside the castle when he realized with a start that it was Remus that was singing.

He pressed his ear to the door and listened.

Only if you knew how much I liked you
But I watch your eyes as she walks by
What a sight for sore eyes
Brighter than the blue sky
She's got you mesmerized while I die...

Sirius slid to sit on the floor, his back against the door and unbeknownst to him, Remus on the other side.

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Remus hated himself for the tears on his face as he let out his feelings through the words of the song.

Why would you ever kiss me?
I'm not even half as pretty
You gave her your sweater, it's just polyester
But you like her better, wish I were Heather

Watch as she stands with you, her holding your hand. Put your arm 'round her shoulder, now I'm getting colder

But how could I hate her?
She's such an angel
But then again, I kinda wish she were dead as she walks by...

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Sirius listened closely through the door as Remus sang softly. He could tell by the lilt to his voice that Remus had been crying.

As she walks by...what a sight for sore eyes
Brighter than a blue sky
She's got you mesmerized
While I die

Why would you ever kiss me?
I'm not even half as pretty
You gave her your sweater, it's just polyester
But you like her better, wish I were Heather.

Sirius felt a pull at his heart. He thought Remus was very pre—

He gulped. Was he actually about to think that? Did he actually think Remus was pretty? And did Remus actually love him?

Sirius thought deeply as he listened to Remus sing about wishing he was Heather and Sirius came to the conclusion that he actually wouldn't mind kissing Remus. And yes he did think Remus was pretty, beautiful even.

It occurred to him then that he'd loved Remus all along, he just didn't know it. He'd needed Remus to spell it out for him.

Once he'd made up his mind, he stood and pushed open the door before he could change his mind. The music abruptly stopped and Remus grunted as the door hit him.

Sirius tried to apologize but his mouth wouldn't work right. Remus was sitting in front of him on the floor, guitar forgotten in his lap, staring up at Sirius in horror.

Sirius didn't know what to say so he blurted out the first thing that came to mind. "I love you."

Remus stared, face flushing.

"Merlin, I love you so much and I just didn't see it. Right in front of me and I didn't..." he shook his head, holding his hand out to Remus to take.

With shaking hands, Remus took it and stood.

And Sirius took Remus's face in his hands and searched his eyes for permission. Remus didn't pull away, so Sirius leaned in and kissed him.

They both melted into it. It was the best kiss Sirius had ever had. He decided that he liked kissing Remus a whole lot more than Heather.

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