A/N: Quick warning guys! This is a bit of a sadder one shot! Just wanted to let you know. If you keep reading please do enjoy. :3 on with the chapter. Bye.
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*Derp's POV*

I awoke to him screaming and sobbing again. The night terrors constantly tormenting his mind again. The sad thing is he'd been doing well the past few nights, but, nothing lasts forever, I guess.

I walked into his room and over to his bed, sitting down on the edge, pulling the half asleep sobbing man onto my lap. "Shhhh... Wake up Ian. Wake up." I cooed softly, stroking his head. He whimpered and shook but finally opened his blue eyes which were red and puffy from crying. "Night terrors again?" I asked gently. He gave a slight nod burying his face in my chest. I continued stroking his head for about an hour till his shaking and breathing finally calmed, to the point that I thought he was asleep. I angled my head slightly to check and I could see his eyes were still open. I needed to get him to sleep again. Not even for my sake but more his. He hadn't been sleeping, or eating well for that matter for weeks. He'd lost a lot of weight... So much, that it wasn't healthy for a man his size. "Ian." I said gently. He glanced up at me. "You need to get some sleep." I told him, trying to be stern but not too stern. Only it didn't really work, he just glanced away. "Ian..." I started.

"It shouldn't of been him..." Ian said quietly.

I bit my lip and held him close. "I know Ian... Just get some sleep... We... We can get some of that coffee you like in the morning ok?" Ian didn't respond, he just leaned deeper into my chest. Eventually I felt his breathing even out to the point that he was sleeping. I let out a small sigh of relief and laid him down. I pulled the blanket over him and sat down in a chair I moved into his room for nights like this. I leaned back, keeping my eyes on him as I slept incase the night terrors stuck again.

Your probably wondering what could've possibly happened that brought Ian to such a lowly and depressing state. Well... Ian is suffering from survivors guilt. I wasn't there when it happened but I was explained to by lots of people. So here's what happened.

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*Flashback *Ian's POV**

Crainer had flown out to my place so we could both attend PAX this year. Crainer had never done it before and had always wanted too so Derp and I treated if to him and he was super psyched to be here.

It was one of the final days and Crainer and I were walking back to the hotel after meeting a bunch of fans. Crainer was ecstatic and I couldn't of been happier for him.

"Thank you so much Ian!" He cried happily.

"For what?" I replied with a smile.

"For allowing me to come to this," he said gesturing to our surroundings. "For allowing me to become one of the YouTube community, for being there for me." He said lowering his excitement to a slightly more serious tone.

I smiles and gently patted his shoulder. "Anytime Crianer. You don't have to thank me."

Crainer smiled and put his hand in his pocket like he was going to grab something, but he gently bit his lip and stopped, his bright green eyes swimming with a curious nervousness. He honestly looked really cute like that. Yes I just said that, I've had a slight crush on Crainer for awhile now, I just have been to nervous to tell him. Maybe I will when we get back, but for now I'll just make conversation.

"You ok dude?" I asked him.

Crainer blinked, realizing that he had zoned out and returned to his happy cheerful self. "Yeah! Just making sure I didn't forget my wallet."

"Alright." I replied with a chuckle.

We walked a bit longer till we came to a stoplight. We were close to our hotel but we wanted to walk around town for a bit first. We waited for the light to turn green and we began to cross. I walked a few steps ahead cause I was taller than Crainer and he was just kinda looking around, enjoying the walk. I wasn't paying attention. Until Crainer yelled my name.

*Narrator's POV* ~Still Flashback~

Crainer walked a few behind Ian, fumbling with an envelope in his pocket. He looked up and saw a bright red car zooming way to fast towards Ian who didn't seem to see it. The car didn't seem to be slowing down and at the rate it was going it would smash into Ian. So Crainer reacted. "IAN!!!" He yelled, hurling himself at his friend, pushing him out of the way as the car ran the red light, flinging Crainer at first onto the hood and windshield, but then he rolled off and laid in the middle of the intersection.

*Back to Ian*

I felt a large shove from behind, making me stumble foreword. I heard the screeching of tires and a thud. I held my breath, almost to scared to move, but adrenaline coursed through my veins and I turned around... Crainer lay on the ground, crumpled and bloody. My eyes widened in panic and I rushed to his side. "C-Crainer! Crainer!" I yelled bending down by him. "Crainer! Wake up! Please!" Around me I could almost feel the stares of other passerby's. Some rushing over to find out the problem, others just walking by and someone calling 911. Tears pricked my eyes as I wrapped my arms around my broken friend, bringing his head to my chest. A small cough emanated from him and I felt like I was about to burst. "C-crainer! Wh-why did you do that?!" I cried. Another weak cough escaping his. He was in so much pain, I could tell it in his eyes. But still, somehow he managed his cute lil smile.

"C-cause... Your m-my... Best friend... A-and... Friends... C-come f... First..." He said very quietly.

Tears rolled down my cheeks as I gently stroked his now matted with blood, sandy blonde hair. He tried to speak again but all that came out was a gurgling sound. "D-don't t-talk... H-help is coming..." I told him. He coughed again, this time spitting up blood. My stomach was in knots and my heart ached. I couldn't bear seeing him like this. But I saw his hand shakily reach in his pocket and started pulling something out. I helped him and in his hand was an envelope with my name on it. He placed it in my hand and made sure I held onto it. "C-Crainer...?" I almost whimpered. He gave me a tiny smile... Closed his eyes... And his head went limp against my chest... "Crainer! Crainer!!" I screamed. I took two fingers and searched for a pulse but I couldn't in one. More tears pricked my eyes as I held him closer.

By the time the ambulance got there my eyes were puffy and my cheeks were tear stained. Some medics came out with a stretcher and put Crainer on it, while an officer came over to me, putting a shock blanket around my shoulders and helping me to a bench. He started asking my questions, but I couldn't answer, I cried my throat raw and I just couldn't do it orally. So he changed his tactic to asking yes and no questions which I was able to answer.

About 10 minutes later, one of the medics came over and whispered to the officer. The officer gave a slight nod when he was finished and the medic walked back to the ambulance. The officer looked back at me, a look of empathy on his face and suddenly my insides turned to ice. No... "Sir... I'm so sorry... But your friends heart has stopped... I'm so sorry for your loss." He said slowly. I felt more tears gather in my eyes as he spoke, I put my head in my hands and my shoulders began to shake. Everything was fuzzy after that. Eventually Derp came and got me, we went home, but never once did I let that envelope leave my hands. Until one day I fell asleep, and woke up and it wasn't there. My guess was I either dropped it or something else like that... But... That car... Was going to hit me... And Crainer took the hit to protect me... And worst of all... I never got to tell him how I felt... Crainer...

~Flashback End~

*Derp's POV*

Awhile later that day I received a call at our hotel. Which as soon as I heard I rushed to the scene to make sure they were alright. Which really... Neither of them were. As I showed up I saw a white blanket being pulled over Crainer's head which made me feel sick. Then I walked over to Ian, who was broken mentally. I could see it in his eyes, they weren't the bright blue they were but a bluish grey, like a storm over the ocean. I gave him a hug, and not much happened after that. I took him home and since my goal was to try to get Ian back to his old self again. And I have an idea, Crainer had given him and envelope which I had taken while Ian fell asleep for safe keeping. Tomorrow I have to get Ian to read it. It might help. I hope. This letter could either be my saving grace... Or the downfall of Ssundee. I gave a small sigh, leaned my head back against the chair and fell asleep.

~Next Morning~

I awoke early to a stiff back. Sleeping in a chair was not my best idea. But hey, at least Ian didn't have anymore nightmares. He also was still asleep which was good cause it gave me time to set up some breakfast for him. I made him some eggs, toast, sausage and that coffee I promised him. I also gently pulled out Crainer's letter and set it in front of the plate so Ian would see it. I decided that I'd let Ian sleep in a bit today because of the nightmare last night. But to my surprise not long after I finished preparing breakfast I heard some shuffling from upstairs signifying that he was awake. I chuckled as I saw him slowly come downstairs still half asleep with his hair sticking up everywhere and as soon as the smell of the food reached his nose his eyes opened a bit more. He walked over and sat at the table, eyes curiously wandering over the food till he reached the envelope. He gently picked it up, turning it over in his hands. Finally he opened it, pulled the letter out and began to read it to himself quietly.

~Crainer's Letter~

Dear Ian (Ssundee),

Gosh, where do I even begin. You've been such an amazing friend to me Ian. Letting me come with you to PAX, always be an awesome guy when we record (well I guess just an awesome guy in general.) I honestly just couldn't ask for a better friend and I guess coworker. :P But that's not the entire point of this letter. There's something important I've been wanting to tell you for awhile. I've just been stupid and too shy to do it in person, so Derp gave me the idea to do it via letter like this. So here we go...
I like you Ian. More than a friend. I've been nervous to tell you cause I wasn't sure if you felt the same and I didn't want to make our friendship awkward or anything. So there, I have a crush on you. But! If you don't share the same feelings, that's totally fine dude! :3 I'm perfectly content with us just remaining friends. I just really wanted to get it off my chest. So when you read this (if you read it cause I don't know) please let me know your thoughts so I can know myself. Don't leave me in the dark dude! I'm not a mind reader! ;)
Also! I found this cool ring that I thought you might like. I don't know if it'll fit you but even if it doesn't just kinda put it somewhere you could see it? I don't know, I don't really care what you do with it. :3 But looking at it kinda reminded me of you, so think of it as a token of friendship. :)
Anyway, that wraps up this letter. Please tell me your thoughts next time we have a chance to talk before a recording or something. I'd really appreciate it dude. But yep! See you later buddy! Byyyyyye!

Love,
         Crainer.

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*Derp's POV*

I watched as Ian finished the letter. He hugged it close to his chest. "I-I like you more than a friend too Crainer..." He said quietly. I walked over to him and rubbed his back. He glanced up at me slightly and then grabbed the envelope and tilted it so something fell out and landed in his hand. It was a silver guys ring with a some cool patterns on it and I think even some armed forces symbols. Which was cool seeing Ian was in the Air Force. Ian slid it on his right handed ring finger and flexed his hand and held it upside down to make sure it didn't fall off. It seemed to fit perfectly.

"Ian, I'm sure... As an angel now, I'm sure Crainer is watching over you. And I'm betting he's sad seeing you sad. I know this is hard, but I want you to try and cheer up, be the happy and cheerful guy Crainer fell in love with."

Ian nibbled on a piece of toast, thinking. Before he stood up, turned around and hugged me. "Thank you Derp..." He said quietly. "I'll try, for you, for the viewers, and for Crainer."

I smiled and rubbed circles on his back. "Take baby steps, but I'm proud of you." I said softly. Ian gave a small smile and rested his head on my chest. In the back of my mind a pictured Crainer, standing as an angel in the room with us, smiling. Happy that Ian was finally going to make a come back. I kept hugging Ian and rubbing his back when I heard 5 soft words leave his mouth. "I love you too... Crainer..."

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A/N: hey guys! So this one wasn't exactly a request, but I got the idea from a dream and I thought hey why not. The other night I had another dream that i could make a longer Crundee story out of something kinda like the movie/book if I stay. So if you guys wanna see that be a real book leave a comment and I'll think about it ;3

Oh also if you guys have made a request, don't worry I'm writing them :) I have about an hour during school where I have nothing to do I write chapters and one shots you guys have requested, so if you requested one it will be up sooner or later. I'm pretty sure. So Yeah... We'll go with pretty sure XD

But yeah! See you guys in the next one! Byyyyyye!

Mo