March 3 2018

Y/N
I sat on the bench in the park alone.

I drove Jack away.

But I'm not going to admit it's my fault because it isn't!

He is so selfish!

I nodded and gave myself an encouraging thought.

I had left Burger King.

I almost wandered back to my apartment, but remembered that I had no where to live.

"Y/N..?" A tired voice croaked

I turned to see a hooded figure.

It was Jake.

Fear nibbled at me, but I tried myself to stay calm.

He slowly walked over to me and sat on the far edge of the bench.

I took a glance at him.

He was still as cute as ever.

I frowned.

His hand was bandaged.

"What happened to your hand?" I asked

"Fire" he murmured

"I'm sorry...." I apologized

Not for the burn, but for not telling him anything...

"I'm sorry too. I didn't mean to scare you that day. I didn't know what was wrong with me." He squeezed his eyes shut as if it was too painful to even remember the scene.

"Is there something paranormal going on with you?" I asked

I had seen it all.

I wouldn't be surprised if he said yes.

"Yes..! I feel like I'm going crazy. It feels like there is something that controls me when I don't have the will to do anything anymore"

My eyes saddened

"Y/N.... I'm sorry about burning your apartment. Would you like to live in my house?" He turned to look at me

I froze

His eyes widened as if he realized how creepy that sounded

"No! Not in a creepy way or something... I just didn't want you not having a place to sleep for the night! I won't hurt you I promise. Uh... actually that sounds even worse" he sighed, giving up on even trying anymore

I laughed

"How aren't you scared of me?" He asked

"I am.... It's just. I don't want to run away from you and leave you alone"I knew that I would never forget when he almost killed me several times.

I would always be scarred by that.

"I'm sorry. You know I'm not a monster.... please. Can we restart?... Uhm... as friends?" He gave a weak smile as he put out his un-injured hand.

I hesitantly accepted it.

"Okay" I smiled

Why did I feel like I shouldn't be doing this?

I felt like I was betraying Jack.

I shook the feeling off.

"If you don't feel comfortable with me I understand...-"

"No. I'll do it" I spoke up before he could say anything else

He seemed fairly surprised

"But I will be cuffing your arms and legs. Okay?" I meant it as a joke, but he just nodded

I followed behind him quietly.

Nobody said anything.

I knew where he lived because I had spent some sleepover nights at his house before.

He lived alone with his two types of dogs.

One was a 4 year old husky, he was called Waffle.

Another was Sapphire, a 5 year old terrier.

I sighed.

When Jake had got them he let me name Sapphire.

I remembered we spent at least one night debating on the right name.

A smile tugged on my lips as I thought about it.

I remember Jake wanting to name Sapphire lil potatoey

I laughed Phelps by accident

Jake turned to look at me.

"Sorry...." I grinned "I was just thinking about that time you wanted to name Sapphire Lil Potatoey... phfft!"

I began to laugh again.

He smiled

"But Lil Potatoey is a good name!" He pouted

We both laughed.

It felt like the old times again.

Before everything went wrong.

"Jake... " I reached out to touch his arm, but he suddenly dodged my touch.

His face turned into fear.

".."

"What's wrong??" I asked as I pulled my hand back

"I don't wanna hurt you" he whispered "I-i don't know.... I could suddenly change into a monster and try to.......hurt you real bad"

He turned his eyes away from me.

I frowned

"It's not like me touching you will activate your bad side right..?" I tried to reason with him but he shook his head.

He turned away from me and proceeded to walk.

It was silent again.

When we made it to his house I instantly got more flashbacks of our relationship.

When we had pillow fights......

snuggled under a pillow fort......

pranked people on the phone....

watched scary movies together.....

cuddled under the stars...

These memories actually brought a few tears to my eyes...

He got his keys out and opened the door.

But...

I caught a glimpse of his arm.

Covered in scars that looked pretty fresh.

They were cuts.

My eyes widened, but I didn't say anything.

We entered quietly.

A smell of cologne swirled around me when I first stepped in.

We passed by the kitchen and living room before finally making it to a room.

"This is your room okay? You can lock it when you sleep. If you want... I can give you pepper spray, a taser, a knife and a few other things you could attack me with if I try to hurt you"

He opened the door.

It revealed a room that seemed untouched.

It was so new and white.

"Okay.." I said as I slowly walked in

"Im ordering pizza....would you like some?"

I nodded

PIZZZAAA!

"Yes yes yes! Could you buy-"

"(Your favorite pizza)" he interrupted "Right?"

"What?? How did you know??" I asked "did you get new psychic powers?"

He laughed awkwardly

"N-no... it's kinda weird... I remember you always ordering the same pizza on our dates" he smiled

I smiled.

After a few minutes I heard Jake call for me to come to the kitchen.

I slowly tip toed there.

I peaked my head at the kitchen door.

"Jake?" I asked

Beer bottles

The smell of alcohol was strong.

I didn't think Jake noticed

He was eating his Pizza happily.

"(Yes in French)Oui?" He replied with a stuffed mouth

"Wow. Why are you suddenly French." I ignored the fowl smell and stood beside him.

I turned to grab a slice, but bumped into him.

The slice he had in his hands flew out and fell straight on the ground.

"NOOOO!" We both cried at the same time.

He bent down and grabbed the dead slice of pizza.

"WHYYY?? THE PIZZA WAS SO YOUNG" he said dramatically

"I'm sorry!!!" I cried

"Ahhh... I don't know if I should hate you for killing my baby or love you because I love you and you are kinda like my baby girl too-"

My face went hot.

He paused

"Joking! Yes.. yes! A joke! Yes LOTS JOKE! ME JOKE  VERY!" He gave me a forced laugh and a thumbs up. "So much joke! Yes joke joke. Very joke!"

He spoke in broken words.

Nothing coming out of his mouth made sense after that.

I was embarrassed

He was embarrassed

AWKWARD.

PURE AWKWARDNESS

Then I heard a small pitter patter.

"Waffle and Sapphire!" I awed as I went on my knees.

Then ran straight towards me and tackled me.

I pat potato's soft black and white fur

Then I pat Sapphire's chocolate brown   Curly fur that smelled strangely like brownies.

"Aweee! I missed you two so so so so much!" I said in a higher pitched voiced.

Waffle barked and started to lick me.

Sapphire on the other hand left my embrace and ran to Jake instead.

"Hey lil pup." He softly said as he scooped her up into his arms

Waffle noticed Jake holding Sapphire.

His ears perked up as he began to run towards Jake, tackling him into the ground.

Jake fell onto his butt.

"Hey! Stop it! STOP. I KNOW  YOU WANT SOME LOVE TOO, BUT THERES ONLY ONE OF ME" Jake tried his best to push the large husky off him, but Waffle just tried harder.

Jake placed Sapphire down

She whimpered because she wanted the attention back.

I giggled

There's my Jake.....he's back

Jake closed his left eye because Waffle was smothering his left cheek with licks.

"Oh you think this is funny?" Jake struggled to say.

"Yep!" I grinned

Suddenly Jake pulled me by my arms into him.

Then I felt Waffle stomp on my stomach.

"HOLY MOLY  WAFFLE IS SO FAT. GO ON A DIET" I coughed

Waffle sat on top of my stomach.

I was on top of Jake.

Sapphire was whining for attention.

"F*ck... sorry... I'm so sorry Y/N!"

Jake pushed Waffle off and gently lifted me off his body.

"Im sorry!" He furrowed his eyebrows

"Stop being a mom. I'm fine! Waffle wasn't that fat. I was exaggerating" I lied

Waffle was fat.

He was definitely fatter than me.

"No... I'm sorry that I pulled you in like that. I could've hurt you."

I sighed

"You're not gonna hurt me. It's okay"I comforted him.

Was it really? I wasn't sure.

"You don't understand...I have nobody else! If I hurt you....."

"Stop it! Listen! Whatever is possessing you... ILL DRIVE IT OUT WITH MY WEIRDNESS!" I grinned

"Y/N..." he murmured "I love.....yo.... Your shirt! Your shirt!"

"Psh thanks!" I rolled my eyes. "Now come here! Hug me. We'll take baby steps together."

He shook his head.

I crawled towards him and pounced at him.

"Nooooo!" He cried out as loud as he could.

I hugged him.

It didn't feel the same.

It wasn't like Jacks.

But that didn't mean it wasn't good...

I mentally slapped myself.

Why would I be thinking about that EYELESS SELFISH LITTLE PIECE OF DORKY TRASH right now??

I don't need him! Look at me!

I'm living my life!

"Please let go! Let go! Y/N I'm serious!" He growled

He pushed me off a bit too rough.

"Get away from me!" He roared

Even the dogs got scared

He hugged his knees.

"I said get away.." his voice became soft and shaky.

"I'm sorry..." he murmured "I don't know what happened."

"Please. Go to your room... lock your room right now. I don't feel well" he said

"I'm sorry Jake.." I whimpered

I could see his fingers digging deep into the sleeve of his jacket.

"I... I missed you. Goodnight" I whispered before leaving

Katnip

Actually idk what my life is now

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