You won't understand
what it exactly means.
Unless you've lived in it.

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Dear Diary,

You know what I really thought
about them.
You know how much
I cared for them.

Do you think I deserved this?

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The thing about anxiety is,
even the most honest people
will sound a liar to you.

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Why being alive so expensive.
I'm not even having a good time.

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Was I too soft,
or it was the world
who are too hard?

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Can you remember who you were,
before the world told you who you should be?

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No one notices your tears.
No one notices your sadness.
No one notices your pains.
But they always notice your mistakes..

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I’m still alive and breathing.
But my soul is already
asleep and dead.