"When I brought it to my throat and looked to the heavens, I could feel His presence and he yelled at me: 'Don't do it! I know it hurts, but I've got something waiting just around the corner. Just hold on a little longer,  I promise things are getting better, even though you don't see it.' So I stayed."

This is actually a real life account of mine. I was feeling very depressed one night because on May 14, 2013, not only did I go to a funeral for a family friend of mine (the man described in "Happy Ending"), but also that same day, another family friend of mine named Savannah died from an asthma attack. I had stayed up nights praying for her and feeling that God was going to pull her through, but instead we got that call that gray day that she had slipped away. It hurt so bad and when I told my swim team coach about it he felt pity for me. But I didn't want to tell him that I was falling apart, so I shut up. About two days had passed since the funeral and death and my parents and I got into an argument. It wasn't a huge deal and nothing really happened, but I fled to my room in tears. Later that night, about two hours later, at about ten o'clock at night, I drew a knife I used for hunting out of its sheath and looked at it. I thought about it and decided that I could no longer see a light. So I put the knife to my throat, hoping to stop feeling so much hurt in life, when suddenly I could hear God screaming at me telling me that He had not dropped me. He had something ahead that I didn't see and I needed to hold on. Like it says above and as you can read currently, I held on. I am very glad I did because if I had not, I would not have met the friends I have now, nor would I have come up with a mission's project to help spread The Word to Hollywood.

Some nights we feel that we can't make it. But to the contrary, we can! Some people say that God will never give you more than you can take, which is partially true, but really, I think God does give us more than we ourselves can handle to we have to depend on Him. He doesn't do it to be mean, he does it to show you that He is trust worthy. If you ever feel like I did, just remember this. God will never drop you and there is a light somewhere, you just might not see it yet (or maybe you've let yourself be blind folded).