Recap

"I know you're just saying this to make me feel good and all. It's okay you don't have to. I am okay being the one I am. I am there for myself. I can just do things with my own help. I can console and make myself understand thing. And I think it's okay if I'm over-matured. I really don't mind that." I said with a smile.

We were just inches apart. One move I would have my first ever kiss. I was.....

Shanaya's POV.

I was about to say something but decided against it.

We were now currently​ looking into each others eyes ever so intently. I was so engrossed in those beautiful green eyes. The world around me got lost. The emerald color in his eyes was just so tempting. I was thinking about this beautiful creation of God when I felt him leaning in. He too was staring at me.

Is he about to kiss me?

No.

He shouldn't.

This isn't right.

I want to have my first kiss with someone whom I really love.

I can't have my first kiss with someone who has not even expressed his love or even showed it a bit.

Parker has never showed me his love.

Might be he has.

No. Whatever it is I can't kiss him.

If I know I can't kiss him then why the hell I am not backing off.

Why the hell am I stuck here?

Might be because I want to feel his lips. Might be because I'm attracted towards him. Might be because I do like him.

And worst..I can surely fall for him.
Why so I get those butterflies in the pit of my stomach. Why do I feel different when our skin collide.

I didn't stop him.

Parker was still engrossed in my eyes. His hands cupped my face. His lips were about to touch me.

Then suddenly, Veer came in my mind. His amazing smile. Our friendship. Our bond. His hatred towards Parker.

As soon as I thought about Veer, I backed off.

There I had thousands of reasons to claim my first kiss. I even had lakhs of reasons to back off. But no reasons had the audacity to stop me from kissing Parker but Veer had.

Despite me having more valid reasons to not kiss Parker, but, there, I didn't kiss him because Veer came to my mind. Why? Who was Veer to me?
Friend. That's it. I shouldn't think any thing about Veer more than a friend. He will always be my friend. My bestest Friend. Nothing more. Never ever.

I think I shouldn't stop my self. I should have kissed Parker.

"I am really sorry, Shanaya. I didn't mean to...I am sorry...Just in spur of the moment. I'm sorry. I know I shouldn't have done that. I am really sor--"

"Hey boy. It's alright. We are of opposite gender and it happens. We can always forget what just happened. Can't we?" I asked a bit unsure of the answer I would get. But yet I had to say something to reduce this tension.

"Yeah. Sure. We can." He said.

He looked hurt. He carried a painful expression. He wanted to kiss. He was sad. Upset. I could see that. But that doesn't mean that I should kiss him.
There will be many guys who would want to kiss me or even have sex with me. I can't fulfill their wished. Obviously I can't and I shouldn't.

But who am I kidding to.. Had it not been Virat I would have surely kissed Parker. I need to control my emotions and feelings. I can't fall for anyone. I need to control. I can't let anybody control my happiness. Not even Virat. Nobody can control my emotions. It has to be only me who could control my feelings and emotions. I need to know that. I fucking need to know.

"Shanaya, where the hell did you go? Drinking water would have surely not taken this long. What where you--" Isha said barging in my room but stopped as soon as she saw Parker and me sitting on the same bed. Parker was lying in the bed while I was sitting there probably in deep thinking.

"Ah! Ya. Actually I was talking to Veer on phone. I didn't realise untill I entered Parker's room. I was talking to Veer and when I turned I saw Parker. I was bored watching Harry Potter. So was Parker, so we decided to talk for a bit." I said clarifying.

"Yeah. She's right." That's all Parker said. I need to maintain my distance with him now onwards. Same goes with Veer. Veer is only my friend. Only my Best friend. Nothing more.

I can't develop any sort of feelings for him. I need to make sure about it.

"Okay cool. We were planning to play Truth and Dare. You guys wanna join or are you both bored of it too and would like to talk more." Isha said with a smirk plastered on her lips. Oh! Now I have to bare her teasing too.

"No." Parker and Me yelled together.

"Okay. Obviously you both will have to join. But just refrain from yelling. My poor ears."She said dramatically soothing her ears.

I chuckled at her behaviour. Why do I always laugh at serious situations. I should be in a deep thought about what was just going to happen but here I'm laughing. Nevertheless, we three joined the rest in the entertainment room.

"Look Parker and Shanaya are here."Sue said.

"Yeah. So how was "YOUR" Harry Potter." Leah said teasingly.

"Oh asshole. Mind to shut up. We were just talking about random things." I shrugged casually.

"I can imagine all your random talks." Jones hi-fied Leah and both were now laughing their asses off. Sue and Isha were too laughing.

I grabbed the pillows and started to throw them towards them.

Parker too joined me. And now we were all indulged into a fierce Pillow fight.

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