*BIG TW*

A tear runs down her cheek. She would recognize that voice anywhere, and it hunts her every night in her sleep. It the reason she's unable to sleep alone at night. And that smell of different mixtures of alcohols still stings in her nose. She can still feel that hand on her neck pushing her further into the cold sand.

She presses her eyes closed and another tear falls. "What a...are  you doing here?" Her voice breaks, the lump in her throat grows bigger.
He dragged his nose against her ear up in her hair. She swallow the lump, she knows she smells like a guys shampoo from when she showered earlier at John B's. He sniffs her hair and groan.

"You and John B seem cosy tonight" He says, you could hear the irritation in his voice.

"Jack, I told you. We are just friends. You said no boyfriends" She whispers. He tightens the grip he has on her.

"Good, it better fucking stay that way too" he says through his teeth. She doesn't say anything so he shakes her and screams

"Did you fucking hear me?" Him scream caused some teens to turn around an look at them and as soon as they did he pushed her away from him, taking a step back. She still hadn't opened her eyes.

"WINTER" Sarah scream for her made her finally open her eyes. She saw most of the bystanders watching her, she didn't even realise he had backed them away from the others. She looks back at him. He was standing a few steps behind her, she knows something will happened tonight if she stays but she can easily out run him so she takes her shot and sprint towards to where Sarah was standing, with tears streaming down her face. Topper is standing in the ocean holding John B under water. JJ step and into the water and puts the gun he had found earlier to Toppers head.

"JJ, put the gun down" Sarah screams at him. Winter takes a step forward and is about to take another when another step when a hand takes a hold of her arm. She closes her eyes, he got balls tonight she thinks before turn to see it's a worried Sarah, not him. Sarah almost forgets what was happening there on the beach as she sees Winter with black mascara running down her face, and how she flinched when she touched her.

"Did you say something princess?" JJ voice breaks them free from thought.

"JJ, please stop" Winter says. Everyone was yelling and everything was spinning for her. Her eyes starts to flutter and she was swing. Sarah tightens her grip on her arm. Kie notice them and try to help Sarah catch Winter but it was no use. Winter faint and fall to the sand.

Both of the girls scream at the others.
And everyone stops and look at the unconscious Winter. JJ and Topper break apart and Topper runs to his cousin, but just as he is about to kneel down next to her as JJ fires a warning shot.  Topper, Sarah and Kiara all flich and cover Winter on instinct. Winter returns to conscience with the shot, to see them all covering her. She and Topper share eye contact before he stands and pulls Sarah from her and off the beach. Winter sits up in shock. She hears Sarah's screams at Topper faint and John B on his knees in the water comes into her view before he falls backwards into the water.

"John B" She yells rushing towards the water. She bends down and lifts him enough to go down on her knees and rest him against her.

"Guys"

*****

As soon as she knew John B was okey. She ran as fast as she could away from the beach, from her friends.
She saw one of her old friends about to enter her car as she reached the parking lot. She called her name and ran up to her.

"Winter? Are you okey?" Winter didn't even notice she was crying again.

"Can you drive me to Rafe's"

*****

Winter stands infront of the Cameron's home and is depending her choices to come here. She lifts the fake stone that Mr Cameron had put out there for Sarah and takes the key.
She opens the door. Her back falls against the door as soon as she closes it. A door creeks open and foot steps.

"Sarah, Honey. Is that you?" Rose, Sarah and Rafes step mother say coming down the stairs.

"No"

Rose takes one look at her and runs down the stairs and take the girl into her embrace. "Oh honey" she says letting her go wrapping away Winter's tears.

"Neither Rafe or Sarah is home yet" Winter takes a breath of relief before their attention goes to the stairs Mr Cameron is coming down. Winter steps out of Rose's hold and runs to him as soon as he reached the last step, throwing her arms around him. He didn't hesitate to hug her back, stroking her hair as she presses her cheek against his chest. He had always been like a second father to her and he has always loved her like as a daughter. But as she did with everyone, she cut him off after her mother's death. As she hugs him, she felt a pain in her chest. She misses having a father figure around. Someone that makes her feel safe.

"Talk to me, Sweet girl. What's the matter?"

Rose could tell this was something she wasn't a part of, so she disappears upstairs again and thay move into Mr Cameron's study. She sits down on the couch as he pours whisky into to glasses and hands her the one with just a little in it. He sits down on the coffee table infront of her.

"A drink calms my nerves sometimes, and it look like you could use it" he say clinking their glasses together.
She takes a small sip of the drink and it burns as she swallows.

"What's going on that makes you stumbled in here at 1 am?" She bites her lips, swirling her drink.

"Did something happen? Did somebody hurt you?" He asks another question and she nods.

"Did they hurt you tonight?"

She finally says something.
"Yes, and before that sometimes before that too" Her heart is beating out of her chest, and her sentence made no sense. He has always been able to read her like an open book.

"Start from the beginning, Honey"

And she does just that.

*****

TW

It was the week after her mother died, and Winter hadn't spoken to neither Rafe or Sarah for that whole week. She was sitting on the sand at a secluded area on the beach that you couldn't see from the road. She had her sound and vibrations off on her phone. She heard foot steps coming closer to her, she turned around to see it was Deputy Jack Mason. He works with her dad and Godmother. She gave him a faint smile that fade quick.

"The entire island is out looking for you" He said as he sat down next to her in the sand. She laughed to her self as she pulled the hair out of her face. "Not everyone" She said quietly to herself.

She knew well that father wasn't out looking for her. They hadn't even talked senses her mother died. Her grandparents offered to have Winter stay with them and he started packing her stuff without hesitating, not even asking her before. This was the first time she had gone out of her room since she got to her grandparents.

The man next to her could see her head spinning. This wasn't his first time "comforting" a girl in pain and knew how to get them to crack into pieces for him to play with.

"Here, it helps sometimes. Just don't tell anyone" he said as he handed her a flask. She looked at him confused to the action. A somewhat known alcoholic cop, giving a sixteen year old girl a flask of what she assumed was some kind of alcohol.

"Go ahead, I won't tell either" he said pushing the flask closer to her. She wasn't much of a drinker but she trusted him and hoped it would help. She took a big sip, but she had to hold her hand over her mouth as she swallowed, as it made her gage.

She took a few more sips before he took it back, saying it was quite enough. They sat on thet beach for some time as her eyelids got heavier with time. She could barely hold her head up as it felt like someone was pulling her by her hair into the sand. As she felt her body on the sand she looked over to Jack confused. She let out a sound of frustration as she tried to move but was unable to, Jack just stared down at her smirking. The realization hit her like a train.

She heard a buckle being undone she prepared herself for the worst.

And it came.

*****

She spared him of the details but he got all that he needed. Now it was him who didn't know what to do with himself. Anger was boiling inside him for every word he heard. This was a man he had trusted with his children, with Winter. One of his old school friends, he considered him a friend.

The drink he had poured himself was long gone. He drops the empty glass on the table and it makes Winter jump from the loud noise. Ward hesitates to hug her, not knowing how she feels about being touched anymore. When she was younger she would hug everyone all the time, he always thought she was so cute when she was little and couldn't fathom how someone would like to hug or show affection.

"I'm sorry, it was all my fault anyway. I shouldn't have told you" She finally spoke because as Ward was spinning about how she was suffering, she thought about how Jack would suffer if this came out. How the police station would suffer, and how her father and her godmother would react.

She shock her head. "Please forget this" She looks at the ground as she says it but Ward doesn't hesitate. He lifts her head by her chin, for her to look at him.

"I'm not going to forget about this, Winter. He is an police officer and a family you trusted and you were sixteen, trying to grieve your mother." He takes a breath for himself before he continues. "This wasn't and never will be your fault. Winter, You need to hear me on this. He is going to pay for what he has done to you and probably multiple other girls" a tear runs down her face as a warning before the others. She repeats the last three words of his sentence to herself. She always thought she was the only one. She told herself as long as he is thinking of her, he won't hurt anyone else. Someone like Sarah, kie or Wheezie or any other girl on this god forsaken island.

"Why don't you go upstairs and get some sleep. I bet your tired" Ward says wiping away the mixture of mascara and her tears running down her face. She gives him a faint smile and nods before they stand together.

"Good night, Honey" he says kissing her on the top of her head before she heads upstairs.

*****

Winter knocks lightly on the door infront of her before she opens it slightly.

"Weez, can I come in?" She says stepping into the room not waiting for her to answer. Wheezie turns to face Winter standing by the other side of her bed.

"Winter?" A tiered and confused voices says as Winter climbing into the bed, laying down. If it had been a year ago this would had been completely normal for the two, but sense Winter and Rafe broke up, and she stopped being friends with Sarah; Wheezie almost never talked after that. Wheezie was almost more sad then her sister was when Winter stopped coming around. They loved each other like sisters, and Winter loved the idea of them as an only child.

Winter snuggle closer to the girl, who's bed she had taken over.

"I'm sorry I been such a bad friend, Weez" Winter says.

"I get it" She says looking down to Winter who was hugging her arm.

"I should have tried explaining why to you, but I didn't even know why I did the things I did. I still don't with some of it."
Winter means what she says. Everyone she hurt should get an explanation and an apology from her. But she could barely tell Ward, the man she has loved sense she was a baby. She can't bring herself to tell her old friends not yet. Not the pogues either.

"I have missed talking to you" Wheezie confess and Winter looks up to her and smiles. Change position, Winter jumps up so she is face to face with Wheezie.

"Oh yeah, about what?"

"I don't know. People we like, I guess."
Winter smiles as she says people. Wheezie is the only person who knows she likes boys and girls.

"Do you like someone?" Winter asks her and Wheezie looks away from her, smiling at the ceiling.

"There is this guy, but he is two years older then..." She doesn't get to finish her sentence before Winter ships in.

"Wheezie, your way to young to be going out with older guys" Winter says from experience

"You were my age when you and Rafe officially started dating"

"True, but dating older guys at your age will only cause you pain"

"But I really like him and he asked me to be his girlfriend" She says exited.

"I like that your telling me this, does Sarah know" Winter asks and smiles as Wheezie shakes her head. "And now I love it"

"I'm supposed to go to breakfast with Topper in a couple of hours, but he was a total dick. So, do you want to come with me instead?" The tiered girl nods before nodding off to sleep. Winter gets some sleep too.

*****

It's 10 am, the next morning and Winter was still sleeping and Wheezie has just woken up happy as ever. She quickly gets dressed and heads down to see her dad and Rose eating breakfast outside whispering about something. She has a smile wide as it could get as she walks outside and sits down at the table.

"You guys do know your outside in our massive backyard? You don't have to whisper" She says taking some of the graps infront of her and pooping them into her mouth.

"Is Winter still sleeping?" Ward ask her, still keeping his voice down.

""Yeah, why?"

"Just wondering if she will join us for breakfast or not" the door from the kitchen leading outside opens and Sarah and Rafe both steps out.

"Who?" Sarah asks. Rose was opens her mouth to answer but Wheezie quickly answers instead. "You"
The two oldest siblings made a face at each other and took their seats at the table. As they are eating Rose looks over at Wheezie, who weren't eating.

"Honey, you have to eat something"

"I will, I have plans" She answers another smile returns on her face causing the entire family to look at her.

"With who?" Her big brother asks.

"A friend"

"What friend" Sarah ask with a sarcastic tone, implying she has none.

"Dad" Wheezie turns to him to say something.

"So what do you and Winter have planned to day?" He asks and no she gets angrier.

"Wait what" Rafe says the same time as Sarah ask "Winter is here?"

"Seriously dad" Wheezie's phone vibrates on the table.

Winter
[Do you think Sarah or Rafe has any of my old clothes still?]

Wheezie
[Will check!]

"Well bye" She says as her siblings start rambling with their dad about Winter. She runs of to one of the closest inside where she knew Rose had hide all Winter's stuff that Rafe and Sarah had told her to throw out. The two of them has always been known for being a little quick in their decisions and regretting them so Rose was smart enough to keep the things for when they changed their mind.

Wheezie caries the box full of stuff upstairs to her room where Winter is waiting on her bed scrolling though the message from her friends the night before. It was mostly from Kie and Pope. But it where one text in their group chat she couldn't ignore.

[Where is W sleeping at?]

And she realized this was the first night she had slept without any of them sense the first day she and John B became friends. If she wasn't at the chateau with John B and JJ, she was at kie's.

"What's it you got there?" She asks as Wheezie sets down the box on the floor at the foot of the bed.

"Some of your old stuff" Winter hopp of the bed and knees down next to it.
As she opens it, the first she sees is a framed picture of Winter, Sarah and Rafe from a few years ago that Sarah had on her nightstand before. Under that there is some items of clothing. It's also contains some of the stuff she gave back to Rafe when she broke up with him, like a necklace he had given her. She really loved that necklace. It was a thin gold chain, with a little snowflake charm on it. It matched the one she had with Sarah too, only they had their first initial as a charm instead.

Winter has seen that Sarah still has her on, meanwhile she has hers in a little box on her desk. She pulls out one of her favourite skirt from the box.

"I wondered where this one was" She stands up and pulls the skirt on underneath the dress she was still wearing from yesterday. But the smile on her face drop as she buttons it.

"What is it?" Wheezie asks look over at Winter, who walks over to the mirror and lifts up her dress. Her former perfectly denim skirt is now almost two sizes too big, now hanging low on her hips revealing her entire stomach. Winter catch Wheezie looking at her with concerned look on her face but she takes it away as she sees Winter looking.

"I don't see a problem it looks good like that"

"Yah, maybe" Winter picks out an simple white tank top and quickly changes out of the dress and on with the tank. Someone knocks on the door just as the girls are ready to leave. Wheezie opens the door to reveal the entire Cameron family standing there watching them.

"Hi girls, we were thinking of heading to the club. Why don't you join us Winter" Rose says while Ward looks annoyed, Sarah looks hopeful and Rafe is just leaning against the door frame looking at the floor. Wheezie was about to tell them of but Winter jumps first.

"You know, I should actually go home. Elton and Jessica has been calling me all morning and so has my friends. It's just best I get out of your hair" She picks up the stuff she had pulled out of the box and put it back in quickly. She picks it up and walks towards thinking they would move for her to get by, but they didn't at first. She and Ward shares eye contact for a second.

"Thank you for letting me stay here, Mr and Mrs Cameron" She says and the step aside.

"Anytime, Honey" Rose answers.

"Would you like me to drive you home" Ward asks before she steps down the first step of the stairs. She looks back at the five of them and gives them a faint smile.

"No I think we'll be okey" She says before she looks to Wheezie and knods her towards the stairs for her to come along and Wheezie eyes lights up after thinking Winter didn't want to go to breakfast anymore.

They both speed walk down the stairs but Winter still hears the others.

"Dad, you were supposed to say something. She wasn't crying that much over some stupid fight. And surtenly don't faint from it. Something is wrong" She heards Sarah plead to her dad.

*****

Author's note:

Hi, I hope you enjoyed this chapter. Some serious topics were mentioned and I just want you all to be respectful to others and others trauma. SA is no jock and is hard to write, but it is a working healing method for me and others.

I had to cut this into two so episode one is going to have five chapters instead of four.

I will edit out all misspellings later but please comment if you see any

Love, Millie