Feb 2, 2:09 PM

I apologize for my texts last night 🙏

I'm still hungover 😭

I didn't know what I was typing. Sorry. I see I called you too. Sorry about that.

You were really drunk.

I know. Well I don't remember much, but sorry about that.

It's ok.

You're not mad?

No.

☺️Yay

What are you up to?

Writing.

Oooooh, how's that going?

Good.

Hmm. You really don't wanna talk about it?

No.

Well, okay.

Did you enjoy the food I left at your door?

Yes.

Next time I'll bring it to you fresh. It's better that way.

You don't have to.

I want to. First you helped with Winston, and I guess I owe you for being such a loud and annoying neighbor.

It's fine. Did you patch the fence?

Uh...no. I'll do that when I'm not completely hungover.

Okay.

So...did I say anything weird last night?

Connor?

Oh, I did—didn't I? 😔 Me and my stupid mouth.

What did I say now?

It was mostly gibberish. You fell asleep during the call.

That's it? Usually I ramble worse when I'm drunk.

You talked about your friends and how lonely you were that they left.

Oh, okay.

Wait. Did I mention my ex?

I say weird things a lot when I'm drunk and if I mentioned him then I apologize.

No. You didn't.

I didn't? Thank god.

Was he bad?

No.

Oh.

It's complicated. I try not to share what happened between us, but my stupid mouth has no filter when I'm drunk.

Ah, I see.

Sorry, I just don't like talking about him.

Understandable.

This is awkward. I made it awkward didn't I? 🥴

No.

Cool.

Well, wanna know something funny?

My friends were joking around about Winston. Calling him my wingman.

Wingman?

Yeah. He gets all these people to my parties, and they go nuts over him.

He is cute.

Aww, you admit it.

Cute, but not for my allergies.

Well, yes. But this one friend of mine was telling me that one day Winston might actually be my wingman and find me a new boyfriend.

And then my other friend was saying that "No, Winston is your wing dog"

Get it? Wing dog. Winston. WINston. WINg dog?

No.

Oh, well I was already supppppper drunk and so were they, that we laughed our asses off for the whole night about it. I couldn't stop laughing about it. Still makes me laugh even now.

Anyways, yeah. Last night was crazy. And sorry if it was so rowdy.

I'm glad you had fun.

Yeah. Although it did get lonely after they left. Winston is great company, but it's not the same. I miss living with someone. Maybe Winston really will help me one day. I don't want to be single forever.

Feb 7, 6:29 PM

Hey, was there a package that was addressed to me at your door?

No.

Damn, it was supposed to come in.

It was a book I preordered. It was supposed to be out for delivery.

Hmm. Maybe it's coming later today.

I waited so long though. 😭 Booooo, I want my book. It was the latest edition to Oscar Calhoun's epic series. I waited for two years for this bad boy to be released. I wanna read it now 😡

Oh.

Have you heard of him?

No.

WHAT? You haven't? The AUDACITY. OMG, you need to read it.

I don't know.

Its this epic tale of this hero and his trusty sidekicks facing this mysterious villain. And plot twist, the hero falls for this mysterious man who's been helping him with intel about the villain.

I see.

And get this! The last book ended on this massive cliffhanger where we find out that the love interest was the villain all along!

Oh, shit. Sorry I spoiled it. But forreaaaal. I need the next book. To think I waited two years just to figure out what will happen now to the story, ughhh. I need it!

I didn't receive your package at my door.

😭 nooooo

But doesn't that sound amazing? I mean come on, you write. Isn't that evil?

Yes. Sounds...interesting, to say the least.

You should totally read it! I could lend you my copies, although its heavily annotated and I put tabs for my favorite scenes. Nobody understands the pain I'm in because of this series, and nobody knows about this totally underrated author.

I love him so much.

How did you find this series?

Ah, well, I was strolling the bookshelves at the bookstore, but I don't know. I read a lot, if not most of the queer male-led books that were mainstreamed, so I looked online and found some really good ones that didn't have many reviews. I scrolled through the charts and found the synopsis to the first book, where I was immediately hooked.

Oh. Did you not like the other books?

Idk, a lot of the overhyped ones were either too similar to each other or too rushed imo. I just want a solid fantasy series with an extremely natural slow burn, you know? Where romance isn't just shoved down your throat for the shock factor of having some steamy scene. Like sure, I love the spice, but sometimes the softest of touches like a hug, or hand-holding is soooo much better, you know?

Sorry, I ramble. But yeah. The characters obviously aren't thinking with their nether regions and are more focused about the actual problems in hand. Plus character development. I live for that shit. 😤🙌

Ah.

Lemme guess. Not your type of genre. Or didn't expect that I'd like that kind of thing?

I like fantasy. And books like that.

You'd totally love it. I've been searching for fanart and fan fiction for years and nobody really seems to be hyping the series as much. It's so upsetting. If I could draw, I'd totally be drawing them 24/7. Especially when the mcs shared their first kiss :( it was so angsty yet beautiful.

Hmm.

What's weird, is that nobody knows who this Oscar Calhoun is. Nobody can find him online. He—or maybe she or they, or whatever—just doesn't exist on any social media. The fans that I did find believe it's just a pen name, that he write under an alias for whatever reason. I don't wanna pry or anything but I'd love to just see him or meet him in person. His series is the best thing that's ever happened to me. Maybe even more than Winston.

Don't tell Winston that.

Geez, I sound like a bad dog dad.

But forreaal, these books found me at one of my lowest. I just want to thank him for writing such a gem.

Connor?

Curse me and my oversharing.

🥺

Feb 7, 9:56 PM

I'm sure that would mean a lot to him.

Really? I'd give him a hug tbh, of course if he'd be okay with that. Or send him gifts. And if he's as worried about showing his face as much as you are, even sending him a letter would do, tbh.

I get keeping your privacy, but wouldn't it be nice to be recognized and appreciated?

Or Oscar's allergic to people like me.

LMAO. Maybe. I just want him to know how much of an impact he has, you know?

I suppose.

I mean wouldn't you wanna be recognized for your writing?

I don't like showing my face anywhere.

🥺

I'm sure it's a lovely face.

But I guess, I wouldn't want people I know what I write if I were to write. But at the same time people spend years investing in a series like Calhoun's and to not be seen or heard from is pretty sad.

Maybe its as you said. He likes the mystery of it. Not letting anyone see his face or hear from him. Talking and making connections is a scary thing. Talking to fans is even scarier.

True, that makes sense.

But I think it's different when it's fans versus neighbors. And I'm actually in contact with you, unlike Calhoun, given Winston's escapades and our texts. But for Calhoun, nobody's heard from him. There's no twitter, or instagram or anything. I want to connect with him like I connect with you, you know? Actually get to know the person behind such an amazing series.

Hmm, maybe one day.

Maybe, hopefully.

I'll leave you to your writing and stop annoying you. Good night ✨

Good night.

☺️ Night.