I was the star,

She was my light,

She was my weakness,

Now I can't deny.

XANDER

I clearly knew the difference between addiction and love. Before this moment I considered her my addiction something I can't live without, no matter how much force is applied I couldn't let go. I wanted her and desired her... an addiction but now I know it was much more than that, way more deep.

I couldn't survive without her. I wanted her, not to full fill me desires but because she was mine and reason I still existed. I would have long gone by now.

And when she wasn't even angry or judgemental at whom I was and I have hidden it from her for so long, I was enamoured with her. She was too glad when she looked at me, blushed at right moments, chewed inside of her right cheek. She had a mess of emotions inside her, she liked me and I was relieved to find out. But how much, I had no idea. I wanted to find out.

But the most important thing was that she stood too close even for my comfort but she was incredibly comfortable around me. I have seen her flinch and cower with a slightest contact, even a shadow but she was not like this around me. Her excellent instincts somehow told her that I was protector. Even before today she was never afraid of me.

Now there was a problem, my elder brother. I knew him too well to come to a dangerous conclusion. Freya will be the target of his hate towards me.

One look at the slender girl in front of me and I felt the natural instinct to protect her. And truthfully it was not a guardian thing; it was my feeling towards her.

And when I gave her the opportunity to ask questions she asked me all questions I didn't expect.

She was not afraid or even slightly wary, I could sense the feeling of utter happiness emitting from her. Would she be happy if I kissed her? I mentally stabbed myself for thinking such things now.

But the look in her innocent eyes, a question and an expectation was driving me crazy even as an angel. She was trouble and I said it out aloud realising that she didn't even knew what she was doing to me.

"Freya , I think you need to get to class now and don't worry I will not allow my obnoxious brother to harm you or anyone else for that matter of fact." I told her solemnly.

She gave me her trusting smile, I adored and sighed, "I don't think I can worry again about my safety I just met my guardian angel."

I shook my head at her straightforwardness

She trusted me too easily and completely. I sincerely hoped she wasn't like this any other guy...I felt envious even thinking about. Are angels allowed to have such sinister emotions...?

"What if I turn out to be some stalker guy?" I asked just to know her response.

She thought for a moment and shook her head lightly, "No, you are not bad. I have these really strong vibes or instincts or whatever you call it but I know in my gut when someone is bad like I did with your brother. You might be dangerous but I feel utterly safe around you even if you are just pretending to by angel. And you are not just a guy...you showed me the wings remember?"

Her so honest response somehow made me believe in myself and my heart filled with pride in me and the trust she had in me. What will be like if she starting loving me, it will be beautiful and song like, always stuck in your heart and mind?

She admitted to being afraid of my elder brother. Now I had to be on alert. I mentally cursed myself for breaking my years long resolve and become visible to her, to test elders' patience and sent in the conniving little bastard to check on me. I knew better, I failed at being a guardian angel and brought on the worst kind of danger on her.

"You will not be joining me in the class?" She asked sounding worried and disappointed.

Seeing her a bit sad crushed me and I turned to face her with my best smile.

"I will off course, we do not want to ditch more than one class in a day. That's not very angelic." I winked and her smile widened sending immense warmth in my heart.

She was definitely not just mere human, how can she affect me so much, her one smile, her one touch did.

As soon as we entered the school corridor, the bell rang. Students hurried out of the class and giving me a lovely smile she went ahead to look for her friends.

"See you later?" She asked hopefully before leaving.

I nodded and content she left.

As she left I heaved a sigh realising I was too worried and nervous to know her reaction after she came to know the truth suddenly from my brother. I was too stressed with her being so close and adorable around me and holding my bad side back.

Earlier it was easier, I watching her and she ignorant to my existence. But now I have talked to her, saw her smile just for me saw the trust in her eyes and more importantly touched her. Now it was excruciatingly painful or rather impossible for me to stay away from her.

Nothing and no one could make me walk away from her.

I had to call for re-enforcements.

Alicia was next to me within a blink of an eye. She was the only one I could trust now or the other way round also.

"So you started the revolution, proud of you!" She gave me a little salute and grinned.

"Alicia, I need you to keep eyes on Haylien for awhile and inform me as soon as you sense something dangerous. I think he might try to harm her." I said with an unknown desperation.

Her smile vanished and she stared at me like I was guilty of a crime.

"Haylien was here! What did you tangled the girl into? You know how he is." Alicia sounded worried too.

"I know but Aunt Lizea is the one behind this. You know how she wanted to be the head Archangel when dad was here and now she poisoned the mind of Haylien. And just so you know, she knows about me...almost everything." I reported everything to her.

"She knows and she is still sane?", Alicia said with a tone filled with disbelief and awe.

I nodded internally grateful.

"Fine, I will keep an eye on him but what if she doesn't even love you brother. Maybe she will always consider you a protector and not a lover, a companion. Then what? Are you ready to lose everything to risk?" My sister sounded so unlike herself.

That worried me even more, nothing bothered my fun loving sister.

"What should I do?" I was inexperienced at this feeling and how to work with it.

It was harder than battling with bunch of demons.

My sister rolled her eyes at my question like I was not the too-be-King but someone naive.

"Try to know her feelings for you. What else? Love is a strange thing brother, it hurts like hell yet it is bliss like heaven. And getting someone's heart is not easy, human's who are hurt once are careful with it and your girl seems a lot of work." She explained and I listened intently.

I have to make her fall in love with me.

"What if she thinks that loving an angel is inappropriate?" I asked suddenly weird questions flooding my mind.

If council saw me now, I will certainly lose my throne on basis of my love sickness and weirdness.

"She might...how weird it might be for her to start falling for a religious existence? She might think it is unholy somehow or she might just feel weird dating a supernatural creature." Alicia stated all this without any note of hesitation.

I made up my mind. I broke rules, but always for a reason be it rebellion, anger or her. It will be a war to survive with her but it will be death without her so I knew what to.

Alicia must have seen my decision and determination in my eyes because she nodded and smiled approving my choice. She was the only one now. Loosing Freya was not an option and I was going to make her mine no matter how hard it is and no matter whom I have to eradicate in my way.