I am too happy,

Too scared to be happy,

Because right after the light,

Comes the darkness of night.

FREYA

As I expected, as soon as I stepped out of the car with Alexander, all the eyes were on us especially the girls. That made me feel uncomfortable and since Alexander knew that his hands caught mine and gave a light supportive squeeze. I gave him a weak smile not feeling the support seep in.

"Girls might kill me for getting the most handsome guy to go out with me." I tried to ignore the stares around me.

Alexander's raised his eyebrow amused, "I'll accept the compliment but you know that before anyone could touch you they have to go through me."

"You are spoiling me, you know I should fight my own battles." I said to hide the immense gratitude at what he said.

"I'll protect you as long as I am here, no need to be brave with me around." He said with a serious tone I couldn't decipher.

So I just nodded obediently.

The rest of the day was usual with the bonus of Alexander next me ..well he had always been there but as my ... boyfriend didn't quite fit in well but whatever till I bring myself to say my life.

Alexander was an excellent student, attentive and appealing. I had to smile at him for answering all the questions and yet all his attention was on me. And as much as I hated being centre of attention, something about the way he looked at me made me feel warm and somewhat beautiful. I flash back to the day in cafeteria when I thought he couldn't be staring at me but now I know he was and that look made my head go staccato.

Lunch was special. Alexander didn't allow me to sit with my friends and my friends being the traitors grinned and forced me to leave. By the time I left I was filled with jealousy at every girl swooning at Alexander, I decided to ignore that.

We were having lunch at the spot where we earlier went to discuss the truth about Alexander, it felt like it was our spot.

"Lila is pretty, isn't she?" Alexander commented his eyes still on me.

Lila was my co-editor of school newspaper; she was damn pretty, so naturally I glared at Alexander.

I slipped up but I tried to resume my calm and muttered, "Yeah, she is."

Alexander laughed heartily and I scowled at him.

"You are adorable when you are jealous." He commented and an impulsive smile formed on my face.

He was teasing me...he could feel what I feel so he knew about the green monster on my back.

"And you said you didn't notice any girl besides me." I counter attacked.

"An angel never lies." He solemnly answered.

It was just a truth but it elated me way too much.

"I am scared just one day I will wake up and you will not be there. I am kind of girl that believes that being too happy about something jinxes it and I am just too happy around you." I finally confided in him.

His arms reached out and hugged me.

"You do know I can never love anyone else now, angels are connected to one forever. So yeah there might be a chance you get bored of me and dump but I have no one but you. You are the only one I love and will ever love." He said in soft loving tone that filled my heart with love.

I almost stood too shocked to say a word; he will always love me and no one else. He was mine, forever. As soon as I said it I felt the twinge in my gut, my unwanted fear. But why the fear, he was not leaving me, I for no reason will leave him. I decided I was just being paranoid.

"It is not a sin to dump angels then?" I asked trying to lighten up.

"Not technically but it is a sin if you dump a perfectly handsome angel." He replied with a cocky smile I loved so much.

"Oh I have a religious family and I do not sin." I said with pretence seriousness.

Suddenly Alexander bent down and planted a peck on my head, a little peck made blood gush inside me.

As the school ended I had an idea in my mind, a rather bold but perfect idea.

A week went by like this, Alexander felt more human to me than angel, just not at times when he would show me his wings because I wanted to touch them. He sighed deeply when I touched and I felt the tremor inside him. He was not used to this. I could still remember the soft texture of his wings underneath my fingers.

I did homework outside my house in the lawn and he sat there patiently watching me work. It was unnerving to work under his constant gaze and I blushed a lot but it was amazing having him there. I actually had the my-life-is-complete-with-him feeling.

But for past week I had a nagging thought in my mind. I asked him all the questions and he answered most of them and some I saw was painful for him so I decided to ask him later. Finally at the week's end I decided to ask the nagging question.

"Freya, are you drowned in thoughts? What is it?" Alexander asked, my name from his mouth made me skip a beat.

I decided to say it before my fears and hesitation prevent me, "Would like to visit my room? You know how we never went to a proper date and I haven't yet told my mother so I thought maybe.."

I was blabbering, I felt stupid for even asking that question out loud.

"I would love to." He just said those simple words but filled with adoration.

"Perfect. But this is a onetime thing; you are not allowed to come in without notice again." I warned to ward of the embarrassment I was feeling.

He grinned mischievously obviously having evil thoughts in mind. I rolled my eyes in return.

"I will see you tonight fiore." He said it like delicious promise that made me feel tempted.

And tonight I had to ask why he called me flower?

At home I hopped around like a kid who got their favourite toy. My mother was surprised at me and I felt slight guilt for hiding it from her. My sister's bump was big as ever, the seventh month and all. We had lasagne that evening for dinner. It was almost eight, my mom being an early eater and early riser was already done with dinner.

I munched on apple as I tried to calm my hyper nerves.

"You have a date or something?" My sister asked.

"No." I answered too instantly and I saw the look in my sister's eyes.

"I had too much caffeine at school hence the hyper activity." I tried to lie.

"Yeah, sure." She said and left it that.

I was grateful of her ignorance.

Before my behaviour weirded everyone out I went to my room, took a quick bath. I put on something simple that didn't say I was desperately waiting for you and for our date, a simple cream coloured full sleeve long top with white embroider neckline and a dark black leggings.

I looked in the mirror and decided what to do with my hair. I chided myself for this since I was just home and he would be in my room tonight. I tied it up in a high pony. I would have asked for a proper dinner date but my mom was never comfortable with me being out with boys after six. And more importantly Alexander always said it with a sad tone how he guarded me all life and never once saw the inside of my house, so I was giving him a chance.

I had no other desires.

I bid my mother and sister a good night which shocked them both since it was just ten and I was a night owl and then locked my room. For about half an hour I pretended to indulge in reading but just read same line multiple times.

Where was he? I had the tiny amount of panic in core of my heart.

I waited for two hours now my panic at high level, I felt jinxed.

Suddenly there was tap on the window and I felt the joy erupt inside me completely replacing any panic or anger I felt earlier. I joyfully hopped out of bed and opened the window with a smile.

The joy turned into terror and then I felt a hand clamp my gaping mouth shut. Last thing before losing consciousness was I, looking for my violet eyes...