"what's wrong, hon?" effy asked. it's been two days since they've hooked me onto the strong new medicine, and aside from feeling as if there were a thousand needles prickling me every second, hav wasn't around to make me feel better. i glanced up at her, my mouth twisted into an unhappy pout.

"i'm lonely," i mumbled, and effy the nurse pursed her lips and sighed softly.

"read the story books, okay? they'll keep you company. you're recovering really fast, and soon you'll be able to go outside and make new friends," effy said cheerily, albeit a little hesitantly.

"i have no one outside these walls," i said quietly. "i don't have anywhere to go. sometimes i think about that and i don't want to leave this place anymore."

"oh, hon. don't think too much about all these things. get some rest, okay? i'll be back with your dinner later," effy cooed, patting my arm softly before turning around and scurrying out of the room.

they always avoided the topic of my family. where did they go? are they coming to visit? i haven't seen them in ages. the nurses and greg would always brush it off, saying that it's better to just focus on what's happened right now, but honestly there really isn't anything very much eventful in this little room. just me, and my stars.

i wondered for a second if hav had a family like me, too. and then i wondered if his family came to visit, like mine didn't. maybe that's why he's so busy, so busy he couldn't come and visit me.

hav...his purple eyes and soft laugh, he always put me at ease and never once made me feel like i was a burden. but that's because he's nice, and i think he likes me. because i'm really quite a burden around here and if he didn't like me then he would have to hate me.

i wondered again, this time a little more daring, and thought about how hav and i could be a family. just the two of us. and his family too, of course. but mostly just the two of us. how nice that would be.