so uh for the past few days , almost every day , i' ve been thinking the same exact thing .

i have no irl friends ;—;

like yeah , i have two best friends , one i met when i was a baby and the other in first grade , but . . . i don ' t see them anymore .  they go to a different school .  together .  i talk to one online but i almost never see them in real life .  and now that i think about it , i hate it .  i want someone i can talk to in real life and go places with and hang out when we feel like it .

but i don ' t have anyone i feel that comfortable around . 

at my school i have two friends , one i only see at school and the other lives down the block from me with her twin sister and older sister .  i used to play with her a lot but after middle school we kind of stopped and then it just . . . we just . . . slid away from each other

and the girl i see at school , well i don ' t feel like she likes me a lot and she just has friends that aren ' t really like me .  so i feel like she doesn ' t want to be friends with me .  and i just don ' t know what to do .  there aren ' t a lot of kids at my school and a lot of the girls are mean and annoying and rich and bratty and stuff . . .

i feel so sad about it though . . .