I looked at the directions that Harry gave to me this morning and I told him that I would be there a few hours later, but that is obviously not the case. I wanted to surprise him for one. Also, I just got from my late mother's grave, so I wanted to find comfort as soon as possible. What better way than to visit the first man that I truly fell in love with. My Harry.

"Not bad...." I spoke to myself as I was stepping out of my car. I made sure that I was in the visitors parking lot so that no annoying ass people will bug me about it. Probably will still come around eventually, but that is so not going to happen today. I'm sensitive right now and if I get annoyed, then I really don't know what I would do.

I walked up two sets of stairs before I walked down the hall, looking at each door before I reached Harry's door. I was about to knock when I heard the door behind me open up. I turned and saw a stranger stepping out of their apartment. "Excuse me, but who are you?" He asked as soon as his door closed. I sighed, but chose not to respond to the man. "Harry didn't say that there would be people visiting him." "So he tells you everything that happens in his life? Because if I know him like I do, Harry doesn't just open up." "Well he confides in me whenever he feels off." That's when my confidence died a little. Because there was a chance of that happening. We have only started talking again a few days ago.

But he should've known... should've known that I'm all open ears when it comes to him.

"Now again, who are yo-" the door behind me opening interrupted this man's question. Which so happens to be Harry's door. "First off, I don't tell you shit. I tell you to leave me the fuck alone every single time. I don't confide in anyone unless it's my family, my therapist, or someone who I love, like him. It's not your business to know who he is. He's here to see me, and that's all that you need to know. Not his name, if we're seeing each other, or where he fucking parked. Now go on about your business and leave us be," Harry says and I looked behind me to see Harry, shirtless and wet hair.

I looked at the neighbor and I saw him frowning, but he then grew uncomfortable and walked away. I turned and saw Harry giving him a glare as he was walking away.

"I'm sorry about him. He's never like this when other people visit." "Were they family?" "For the most part, yeah." "Then that's why. He would be able to tell." "I guess that's true. He probably thought that he had a chance for a while now. Then a heavily attractive man comes to my door, and he grows insecure." I smiled at his compliment. He then stepped to the side and I walked inside.

"I'm also sorry about not being properly ready. I thought that yo-" he was interrupted by my hug. He stumbled a little, but I felt his arms around me, holding me tight pretty quickly.  "Are you okay?" I asked, voice cracking in the middle. I felt his hand rub at my back soothingly and I felt a light kiss at the top of my head.

"I'm okay Lou. There is nothing that you need to worry about," he says and I looked up from the hold. "I'll always worry about you Harry. There is nothing that is going to stop me from doing so either. Even if we despise each other, I can never even joke about not caring about you," I confess and he smiled down at me. He pressed a soft kiss to my forehead and boy did I wish that it was my lips...

After a good five minutes of doing nothing but hugging one another, I started to pull away. Which had Harry start to let go as well. "Are you hungry? I can make something quick to eat?" He asks and starts to make his way to his kitchen. "A little snack will be okay, thanks." "It's not a problem love. What did you do today?" "Just came from visiting me late mum's grave. Wanted to find comfort as soon as possible, so that's why I'm here a lot early than I said." "It's fine. I just took a good shower and washed my hair, so I didn't really have a lot planned."

"Where are you working these days?" I asked as I was sitting at the little island that was next to his kitchen. "I'm at a server at the restaurant right down the street, X-Meals," he responds as he was putting some things together. "How about you?" He then asked and turned his head away from his creation to look at me. "I'm actually between jobs right now. With me trying to build my own business, it's been hard keeping up with another. I do have an interview at some entertainment center," I tell him truthfully and he nodded his head, going back to whatever he was making for us.

"What about your business?" I then asked and that made Harry stop to look at me. "What's wrong? Did I say something?" I asked almost instantly and Harry shook his head. "No... You are free to ask whatever you please. It's not a hurtful question or anything. Um... It's still in the works," he tells me and I nodded my head. "Well I can't wait to hear more about it," I said to him with a smile. He just slowly nodded his head and turned back to the meal that he was making. "Have you seen the others?" He asked and I hummed. "I visited Zayn a few days ago, but you'll be my second visit," I tell him and he nodded his head. 

"How are your siblings?" I asked and he sighed. "Lottie and her boyfriend are expecting their first child. Phoebe and Daisy are getting more into their modeling and have been offered some really amazing opportunities. Ernest and Doris are doing well in school. Earnest talked to me about joining the soccer team, so I would occasionally try to head out to practice with him. Haven't spoken to Georgia in a hot minute." "And your dad?" "Haven't really tried to talk to him recently. He would try to make small talk with me, but that would be about it," I tell him truthfully and he hummed. 

"And what about your family?" I asked and he shook his head. "My mom is still an angel and I have never been so happy when she told me that she divorced my father. She now has a boyfriend and he treats me well. Gemma is trying to build a relationship with me, so I won't speak badly of her. My dad still doesn't want anything to do with me really. He still talks to me like a human being should, but he hasn't really tried to build up on that father and son bond." "But Gemma is trying to build a relationship with you?" I asked with a pleased look on my face. 

"Yeah. After my bad car wreck, she was actually scared to loose me. I was really surprised when I saw her in my hospital room. She apologised for everything that she put me through and she visits me a lot more than she did before. I did tell her that it was going to take a bit more time for me to trust her again, but she said that she was willing to try and so far, she hasn't disappointed me," he tells me and I am so happy about that. "That is amazing Harry. Wish that it didn't take for you to nearly loose your life for her to realize the error of her ways, but at least she came to that realization. Can't wait to see her again."

Harry nodded and turned to place a little jar in front of me. 

"Thanks Hazza," I said politely and started to enjoy my little healthy snack. "It's no problem. There is more in the bowl if you wish to go for seconds," he says as he sits next to me and enjoys his own little portion. "What are your plans for the rest of the day?" He asked after a moment of silence. "Um, not much really. After this, I'm thinking of going out- Not like on a date or anything!" I quickly stated and Harry smiled. "Thanks for clarifying that for me I guess. You are free to move on, you know. I know that we have talked about getting back together, but I hope that you know that you are free to date other people. I don't mean to hold you back," he then says and I looked at him.

"I'm not going to be doing that Hazza. I want there to be an us again. Even if the thought popped into my head, it won't last long. Because as soon as I see you, I will always crave a kiss from you," I tell him truthfully and he chuckled. "Then I hope that you do enjoy your night to yourself. If anyone gives you any problems, then feel free to call me, and I'll be right there." "Even if it meant to pretend to be my lover?" I asked and he gave me the 'really' look.

"I mean I was your lover, so I can easily pretend to be something that I will be once we get to that point of the relationship," he says and I giggled and finished up on my little treat. "What is the rest of your day looking like?" I then asked and he looked up before he looked at me. "There isn't a lot in my planbook as of right now actually..." "Well you can join me tonight if you want?" I suggested to him and he smiled. "Would you really be okay with that?" He asked me and now it was my turn to give him the look. "I don't see why I wouldn't? We are trying to get back together, aren't we? Then we can simply hang out as good friends, yeah?" I asked and he did see my point. 

"Alright. When do you want me to meet up?" "7:30 would be nice," I said and he nodded his head and typed something into his phone- more than likely a reminder to get himself ready. 

We continued to talk for about 30 minutes and we spared the time by watching a show episode together. One that the two of us would watch with only each other. It was a rom-com type of show and both Harry and I found that to be soe=mething that we would alway be up for when we first started to become friends.

Anyways, when the time came around, Harry was at my door and we headed out for our little hangout of the night on the town. I took a few videos of us, but I shared a photo with the others of just the two of us hanging out together. 

Me: So happy that we are trying to work on what we had years ago😊

The others liked the photo and when Harry got to see what was going on the group chat, he looked at me and smiled. "I love you Louis, and I hope that you know that there will be no one else, but you... and them of course." I giggled and nodded my head. He then leaned over and I really didn't know what to expect until I felt his lips press against mine. I was shocked, but of course I kissed this man back. That's where it stopped though, as sad as that makes me feel. I knew that there was going to be nothing more than kissing. As much as I wish for there to be more. I just know that the day will soon come where there will be more than this. 

Harry dropped me off that night and we hugged each other goodnight. When I walked into my house, I headed up the stairs and went to my room. I laid down on my bed and I thought about what happened tonight and I couldn't help but smile. It was one of those nights where hope was restored once again.

Happy to know that you're okay...

My Hazza....
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