Today I have another episode to shoot on my podcast and I have asked Harry to come along with me. He told me that he coule make this work, so when I pulled into the driveway, I wasn't shocked when I saw Harry waiting outside. I stopped my car and soon got out to greet him. He smiled at me and we shared a nice hug. When we pulled apart, he took the door and opened it for me.

Always the gentleman...

I thanked him with a soft smile and we were walking to my studio. "So how was your morning?" I asked first and Harry looked at me as I stayed looking ahead. "It was nice. Was able to squeeze some time with Niall before I had to get here. It was pleasant." "Did you do anything special?" I then asked and he shrugged his shoulders. "I really don't know how he sees it, so I can't say really..." "How did you feel about it Harry. Two people hung out, correct?" I asked again and he smiled. "Yeah... I really liked it. It was so nice seeing him smile and him being with me felt so nice. It's been like that with all of you actually," he confessed and I smiled.

"And your back? Is it okay?" I asked as I remembered that traumatic car accident. "My therapist told me that lifting something on my shoulders for longer than an hour is a bit difficult to manage, but we are still making process, so I should be 100% fine in no time," he responded and I just turned my head to look at him. "Are you sure? You aren't saying that to just make me feel better?" I asked and he looked at me again. "Liam. I'm okay. I promise you that I'm okay," he reassured with a sweet smile and I just took his word on it.

We get into my studio and I say a few hellos to a few of the staff that worked behind the scenes on my podcast and I walked into my booth that I film my podcast in. "Do you want to speak? I don't mind if you do?" I asked and sat down in my seat. Harry say across from me and he smiled.

"What would we talk about?" "Well... I was thinking about talkijg about us? Valentine's is around the corner after all?" I suggested and he hummed. "If you are okay with putting that out there, then I'm fine with it. Bring it!" I chuckled and smiled fondly at him.

Soon, the podcast began and I didn't usual intro before I turned to look at Harry.

"Now during this episode, we will be talking about love since Valentine's Day is quickly approaching. With this, I would like to formerly introduce a close person of mine to the show. Here with me right now is actually my ex-boyfriend Harry. Welcome to the show Harry," I greeted and he chuckled. "It's a pleasure to be here."

"Now before I hear questions on why I bright my ex on the show, I would like to let you know that we actually had a rather amicable breakup. As you all remember, I did mention that I was in a poly relationship and there was a total of 5. Harry was 1 of the four men that I was seeing. Now, we are actually pretty good friends, correct Harry?"

"Yes. We made that clear when that split did happen." "However now, we are working on it and on our relationship." "We needed to reflect and work on ourselves before we can proceed within the relationship. I couldn't imagine getting married without even making sure that I'm at the mental state that I want to be at in order to be a proper husband or even one day father."

"It was still sad. Like regardless if it was mutual or not, it still pained us to really grasp the fact that we were no longer together. I thought it was honestly a dream. I was so like 'Okay, this can't be real. No, I refuse that it's real. Look, I'm going to wake up and I will be seeing your or the others face first thing." "To be honest, I really thought the same thing. Even though I was the one to end it, I really thought that this whole thing was just a nightmare and I was bound to wake up soon."

"Well I'm kind of glad that we went through with it. Because now each of us have went through so many changes. Physically, emotionally, and mentally. I mean, we still have tattoos, but there's no more dye. Besides Zayn that is." "He did tell me that it's just enjoyable at this point. It's not about anything personally," Harry pointed out and I nodded my head.

"I like the fact that we have grown though. We went through hurdles and we have been able to finally accept how we were and we were able to face what we truly feared and thought for so long. It feels really nice." "And now that we have spent some time on ourselves, we are finally working on each other and our love life." "That's right. Now there are people that think that getting back with your ex is a huge no no and I understand their viewpoint a little."

"And I can see where in some cases, it would not be favorable to go back to that past relationship, but things are different with that. We are highschool sweethearts and we have been though a lot together. There are memories that I would never toss or throw away and I did say that I hope for there to be a time where we will be able to reconnect again and be together again. Of course not as our past selves as our past was rather troubling and it effected us in a negative way, but I hoped for us to become a unit again, you know?"

"Yeah, and we are just taking things slow for right now. We are hanging out with each other again and we are having as much fun as possible before the time is over. We had a couple of 'dares' but they didn't take us to being a specific label. They were sweet dates, but we are just friends with slight benefits if anything," I declared and Harry agreed with me.

"We'll get there in some time for sure," he reassured and we smiled at one another.

"So this next portion is going to be a little bit of a boyfriend tag. Even though you aren't my boyfriend, I still want to see how much you know about us and our relationship all together." "Oh, so Louis, Niall, and Zayn as well?" "Yup! Since they do listen to my podcast, in sure that they will be able to say if you are correct or not. Ready?" "I think so... A bit nervous since it has been some time since we were together romantically, but I'm going to try," he said and I could tell that he was getting serious. I chuckled and looked at my laptop.

"Would I rather hug or kiss?" "Oh... I really hope I don't mess this up. You and Zayn tend to go for a hug first before you kiss. Niall and Louis are the opposite. They like to kiss before a hug." "At least for me, you are correct, let's see..." I looked at my phone and saw a few texts.

Z: He's not wrong lol 😆
Lou: 😘
Ni: 😚

"And you didn't get the others wrong either. Now for you... You do either or depending on who you are with, but you are more of a hugger. You are happy with kisses though." "Yeah. I'm a good hugger last time that I checked, right?" I laughed a little and nodded my head. "Yes, Mr. Styles is one of my go to's for whenever I need a good hug. It would be him and then Zayn. Now... Am I a coffee or tea person?" "...Zayn doesn't mind either but... I think Louis is the only one who favors tea more than coffee."

Lou: Because tea is better!
Lou: Coffee is bleh 🤮!
Lou: Freaking gross!

"Okay... Safe to say that you are right again haha. You don't have a preference, but to wake you up, you like a nice cup of coffee," I answered and Harry nodded with a chuckle.

"Do I love children?" "Oh we all do. Not in a concerning way of course. Whether it's to visit them or spend time with them, we like to see them smile and do anything and everything to make their days enjoyable. We do want them in our future. That's like a definite for me. If there is no chance of me becoming a dad, then I'm out!" Harry said, spewing a small rant. "Okay... It's good to know that and it's wonderful since I do want to be a dad some dad. I don't even have to look at my phone to know that they feel the same way. Hazza is crushing it pretty well guys," I spoke and Harry just flipped some imaginary long hair. "It's who I am." I laughed and shook my head.

"Ooh! Describe me in three words." "Oh shit... There are so many but... You are bold, brave, and comforting. Zayn is creative, caring, and ambitious. Louis is protective, reliable, and open-minded. Niall is vibrant, energetic, and thoughtful. Not saying that I can't see this in another, but those are the top three that I think of when I think of each of you."

"...you are getting essays about how sweet you are. I'm thinking of saying something myself, but by the time that I'm done would be the end of the podcast. Um...Am I possessive for you?" "I'd like to say that each of us are in our wlown way and only to a certain point. Like... We trust each other and we of course love each other. There is no question about it. It's just other people that we would have to be careful around. In short, yes we are, but it's only when it's like... that person knows that I'm taken or one of us is taken and they still decide to get 'close' to us."

"So true. It always pisses me off... Especially when they would seriously flirt with you right in front of me. This happens a good amount of times at work. We used to work at Main Event together by the way and God... Some of those servers that we worked with were so disrespectful. Like everyone always said that it was rather telling that we were together." "Yeah! One of them said that they were able to tell because whenever I was going somewhere, one of you would follow shortly after or if I was standing at a certain spot, then the other would come up to stand next to me. Also many would see us holding hands and doing couply stuff when we are off the clock." "Just so irritating, so we are a little possessive of one another."

"Oh and my three words to describe ouu would be; romantic, optimistic, and supportive," I said when I realized that I never answered my own question. "Now there will be two more questions before we start to close our," I told him a nd he smiled more while nodding his head.

"Harry is the type to be precise with this so Mr. Styles... How long have we dated?" "Ooh! Okay um. First it was Louis and I. We were together for... 7 years, 3 months, 2 weeks and 3 days. Then with the four of us it was... 6 years 1 month, and 1 day. Then when it was the 5 of us we were going... 5 years, and 1 month strong." I blinked and when Harry looked at me, he chuckled. "I always keep strong." "So realistically, Louis is your longest relationship?" "Realistically, yes. Just like how you are with Zayn."

Lou: Hehehe 😉

"I think Louis just giggled in text..." Harry laughed and just sighed. "Now the last one... Do I love to kiss or be kissed?" "Y'all love to be kissed. At least that's by me. With each other... You like to kiss with the others. Zayn likes to be kissed by you, but kiss Niall or Louis. Louis, be kissed by me, you , and Zayn, but kiss Niall. Niall... Be kissed by everyone. Bit TMI, but if you don't know, I'm basically the top of the whole relationship and Niall is the absolute bottom." "Oh yeah. I think I've said this before. Not sure though," I said with a chuckle.

We soon ended the podcast and Harry and I shared a hug to close it out. When we were done with he editing and when the episode was out, Harry treated me to a non discussed date for the evening. Still didn't change what we were, but it was still romantic.

I hope this makes a big change between us though....
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