I was in the middle of my break when I felt a buzz in my back pocket. I was a bit curious since I knew that my mom likes to wait until my shift is over before texting me, and the friends that I have actually made recently are working right now. I pulled it out and saw something that had me choking on my meal.

Niall🧡: Hey, I wanted to talk to you guys again. Not through social media. I want to call, text, and even meet in person again. I really don't know what took me this long, but I missed you ❤️

I stared at the text for a good minute until I blinked and saw that I was already texting back.

Harry: You nearly had me choke... Happy to hear from you love. Of course I want the same to happen, and I really do miss you too. I miss all of you 💚-H

Louis🩵: It's been a while, but I'm so happy to be getting a notification from this... Have y'all been taking good care of yourselves? Harry? Saw your post?

Harry: Yeah. Been seeking therapy. As I'm sure you are all aware. Been going since my incident. Only just recently saw the good in me and be blessed with the outcome of everything.

Zayn❤️: What happened?

Harry: Kind of wanted to make this a public statement since it effected a lot of people close to me. However, you guys should be the first to know about it. Since I was with you guys the longest (of course outside of my family) and I kind of weirded you all out with my lengthy text.

Liam 💛: You didn't weird me out. Not at all. Was just lost with what to say. Hope you know how I feel though. All of the love that I have in me is poured into each and every one of you.

Harry; Love you too❤️.

Louis🩵: Nothing will push me away from you Harry. If anything, I freaked the fuck out when I saw that text. I wanted to ask, but I also wanted to wait for the time where you wanted to tell me on your own.

Niall🧡: Nothing but love here, so what happened?

Harry: Okay. Just know that I'm okay now, but when I sent that text I was coming out of the handful amounts of surgeries that I had to go through due a bad car reck. My doctor told me that there was a 10% chance of me making it out alive, and there was a 5% chance of me making a full recovery with no issues. She called me lucky, and I'm now accepting that I am very lucky indeed.

Harry: And I just knew that I had to express how I felt to you guys first thing.

It went silent from there. I stared at my phone and bit my lip as no one was saying anything. My co-worker soon came to me and reminded me of my break time, and I told them that I knew of when to clock back in. I looked at my phone and I started to type something before I had to put my phone away.

Harry: I know that this is terrifying to look at and I'm sorry for waiting. Everyone told me that you guys deserved to know what happened, but I felt scared. All of my life, my dad told me that no one truly cares for what happens to me. Of course I know that you guys do, but there was that thought of maybe I shouldn't put all of the attention on me. Just because that was something that I did all of the time pre emo. My dad kept telling me that nothing is about me and if people step out, then you need to accept it and not try to drag them back then. Because I wasn't worthy enough.

Louis🩵: You are so fucking worth it... My god...

Louis🩵: I am currently kicking at myself for not saying shit... Oh fuck.

Harry: Please don't. I'm okay, I promise.

Niall🧡: I should've came to you. I knew that it was a big deal, but I chose to not go to you. I feel so damn awful...

Harry: Guys, I'm okay, I promise you. It's in my past now. I'm here and talking to you all, yeah?

I sent that out and I then put my phone in my back pocket. I clocked back in and threw my apron back on. I walked over to my co-worker and she told me who just sat and has not been greeted. I thanked her and walked over to said table and started to take care of them. Throughout this whole thing, I knew that they are the reason as to why my phone is blowing up. Of course I don't mind for it, but I really hope that they will be able to relax soon. Of course I regret not telling about what really happened, but I have to move on from it and this is when I'm finally doing so.

...
"See you guys tomorrow," I tell my co-workers as I was walking out of the restaurant with them not too far behind me. They said goodbye in return and as I walked to my car, I pulled out my phone to see what happened while I was working.

28 Missed calls from Louis🩵
22 missed calls from Liam💛
23 Missed calls from Zayn❤️
20 Missed calls from Niall🧡

Louis🩵, Niall🧡, Liam💛, Zayn❤️
35 unread messages

Oh shit... I thought in my head and I decided to call the first person that came to mind. Which was the first male that I fell in love with. Louis. I pressed the phone icon right next to his name and my car immediately connected to my phone once I turned it on. He picked up on the second ring and the first thing I heard from him was a sniffle. It broke my heart and I looked at the little screen that was in my car with a sorrowful look.

"Hey love," I greeted and started to back out of my parking spot. "Sorry I missed your calls. I was working, and I was halfway through my break when Niall started texting," I tell him. He sniffled a couple more times before he finally said something. "It's okay... Um... Are you really okay? Nothing wrong?" "I mean, my back could be better. I'm still seeking physiotherapy for that. Right now, I can carry things for only 10 minutes. When I start to feel a sharp pain in my back is when I need to stop," I tell him truthfully.

"So... You will be okay?" "I am okay Lou. I'm not in a wheelchair anymore. I don't have a cast on me. I'm okay. Please stop crying. It hurts me hearing you cry." "I can't... I can't help it Hazza. I lost my mum, and I lost one of my sisters. I was dangerously close to loosing you and I just can't calm down..."

"Louis..." "Everything started with you Harry. Whether you want to accept that too or not. Everything started with you. You are my forever love. At the end of it, it's always going to be us vs the world, right?" I smiled softly as I turned another corner. "It's you and me baby, but it's okay. You didn't loose me." "But I could have! I could've lost you! It freaking hurts..." "I know baby and I promise you that if you ever feel lost, then you can come to me anytime," I tell him as I was pulling into my parking spot. I grabbed my bag and stopped my car. I held my phone with my shoulder as I was heading up to my apartment.

"You're opening your arms to me again... We are really ready for this, huh?" "Well yeah, but I always had my arms open for you. All of you. I know that we were working on ourselves, but there was never going to be a time where my arms wouldn't be open," I tell him truthfully and entered my home. "Did you eat by the way?" I asked, walking into my kitchen. "Yeah. Did I also think of your amazing meals? Also yes. Microwaved meals are never good..." I chuckled and took out a bottle of water. "Are you okay now Lou?" I asked and took a swig of water.

"Umm... I'll manage. I'm still trying to process what just happened, but I know that I'll be okay in the morning." "I hope that is the case. I don't want to dwell on something that happened a while ago. I know that it's pretty scary to think about, but I'm okay. I'm accepting my luck and I'm so grateful that to was able to come out of that. Because getting out of that had me seeing the ones that I love once again. Getting out of that had me speaking to my loved ones again." "I know, I know... I just need some time you know? I'm of course taking your word on it and I'm happy that you are seeing this a bit more positively than others. I will just have to see for myself. I'll visit you soon. I need to pay a visit to me mum and sister's grave anyways," he tells me.

"Okay. I don't have work tomorrow, so I'll be free. See you then Louis." "See you then Hazza... I love you," he spoke and I smiled big. "I love you too Lou. I love you very much," I replied and he said goodbye one more time before he hung up. I was smiling so big as I was dialing up the next number. He was able to tell me those words again and God did it make me feel so good!

I then went to Liam next and he was a bit less frantic than Louis, but he was still a bit worried. We talked for a good while and he told me when he was able to see me. No I didn't ask, but he wanted to let me know, so I of course took it and made a mental note to make sure that I had nothing to do that day. I'm seeing them again! I need to give them all of my attention, so I need to not be working.

He kept telling me that he shouldn't get in the way of my work, but I kept telling him that a job isn't forever. What I have with them is. Which made choke up a bit and it made me smile. I spent the next five minutes trying to calm him down, but he did get to that point eventually. He even said those magical words to me and of course I reciprocated those feelings back to him.

Next up was Zayn and he was like Louis. He was still crying and it took a bit for him to calm him down, but we did tell each other our next availability so that he can hug me physically. Heh, he even warned me that I might feel a rib break from just how tight he will be hugging me. He then quickly told me that it was a joke. I told him that I was able to tell and that made him feel at ease.

He then went on a rant about how he was going to kill whoever put me through that kind of pain. Even though I knew that my Zayn wouldn't have the guts to take a life, it made me really happy with how serious he is of me. It made me say I love you first and he was a bit shy, but he did say it back.

Now the last, but far from the least was Niall. Niall was just panicked and he knew that he probably had to sleep on it in order to get better, but we spent a good hour just talking. He never liked talking about the big elephant in the room, so I did my best to avoid the big topic. He knew that and I could hear by the tone of his voice that he was already getting better.

"There is nothing that will take me away from you Niall. I really hope that you know that. I will always be with you. Just like how I will always be with the others," I tell him comfortingly and he chuckled.

"Yeah... I know. Thank you Harry."

"You're welcome baby."

"I love you." We both said before we said our goodbyes.

I love you all...
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