3 chapters + epilogue

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Ashton usually likes to compare love to the ocean, as weird as it sounds since one has nothing to do with the other (love is red, ocean doesn't have a colour for example). [a/n: absorption and scattering of light fite me]

Right now he would use one of his philosophies to explain it, a simple explenation that would be beautiful yet heartbreaking. If you asked him he would say that love is like the ocean, beautiful but can cause so much damage. His love with Luke was calm for a while, just friendly waves and he was happy. Then it became a huge storm and now he's hurt. Just like the ocean takes down cities it took away Ashton's heart.

He looks over at Olivia who was sleeping peacefully on a weird position and drooling to the pillow. It was late when she arrived the room (Michael was drunk and Calum took care of him) and Ashton had already been asleep but he still felt the girl kissing his cheek and saying everything would be okay. Maybe his cheeks were rosy from crying and that's why she said that, he doesn't know but doesn't want to ask.

He got up and stared out the window in front of them, seeing the view from the little bit Olivia had left open on the night before. He went over to the balcony, shutting the door slowly and sitting down in a chair, staring at the view of the beach. Everything was so peaceful on that moment, it's like his thoughts had gone away. Ashton took out his phone and saw it was almost six in the morning, he probably should go to sleep.

His phone buzzed with a text and he wondered who could be texting him right now. Probably not his family since they were busy at the time, not people from the crew because everyone was probably asleep. He grabbed his phone from the table and sighed at the notification.

3 texts from Luke.

[From: Luke]

i can't sleep

i can't stop thinking about you ash, i need you right now

i miss you

[To: Luke]

should have thought about that before walking away from me and breaking my heart

go to sleep

Ashton locked the phone and walked back inside, laying on his bed and cuddling his blanket. He let the tears stream down his face as he remembered the moments he had with Luke before all those bad things started happening. He remembers when Luke took him on that lunch and how much fun they had just spending time together without even doing anything but eat and watch a movie. Ashton sobbed into the blanket and hid his face when Olivia spoke up.

"Ash?" she said with a sleepy voice, getting out of her bed and laying on Ashton's.

She wrapped her arms around the smaller boy and sighed when he started crying into her shoulder. She didn't want to see him like that, it hurt so much.

"It's going to be okay Ash. You're going to be okay."

Ashton nodded and hugged her back, soon falling asleep.

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lukehemmings media needs to stop thinking stuff just because of some pictures

lukehemmings i'm straight, me and ashton are just friends and nothing more than that

lukehemmings we are very close friends and kisses on the cheek/head are a very common thing to us, doing that with my friend does not make me gay even if i have nothing against the LGBT+ community

lukehemmings please stop making stuff up about my sexuality and love life when you have nothing to do about it

Ashton probably shouldn't have checked twitter on that morning. He was a mix of both sad and angry on that moment, so much nerves that he didn't finish his breakfast and ran to his room. He stayed there until Michael called him so they could go to the studio and finish a small scene that he had to record with Luke.

Olivia had said nothing about the night before and he was glad she didn't. She knew Ashton was bothered and it was nice of her to not give him even more nerves. It's like he could cry and punch a pillow at any second.

He looked at his outfit and smiled at the dress, it was one of the little things keeping him happy on that moment. It was a pale brown dress with a blue bow on the back and he had noticed that colour appeared so often on the movie that it probably became his favourite colour. Ashton walked out of the room and went to the field, being led by one of the directors.

Michael gave him a thumbs up and he nodded at his friend. As angry and grumpy as he was on that day he couldn't be rude to Olivia, Michael or Calum. They were there for him and didn't let him down. He might be making a drama out of it but to him it means so much because he loves Luke and feels betrayed since the other boy claims to love him but doesn't act like it.

He stood in front of Luke, not looking at him while the blond kept his eyes locked in Ashton's features.

"Action!" Hedgar said and Calum spilled his hot coffee on a co-worker, making her scream "Edit that later!"

Kyle grabbed Percy's hand, kissing it slowly.

"I'm leaving tomorrow. Will you be there to watch me leave?" Kyle asked, a hopeful look in his eyes.

"I will." Percy said "Nothing will stop me to see you leave. I'll be there for you when you leave and when you come back. I'll be waiting for you."

Kyle kissed his cheek sweetly "I love you."

"Stop recording!" Ashton yelled, those three words shook something inside him. He stepped away from Luke and the blond looked heartbroken, he was probably just acting.

"What's wrong?" Hedgar asked, approaching Ashton "Do you feel sick?"

"I just need a moment, I'm sorry but I can't stand working with him right now. I have to be honest."

Ashton said, sighing and pulling his hair slightly. Luke looked hurt and offended, opening his mouth slightly.

"Working with me?!" he yelled "What the fuck did I do?! You're the one who has been acting like a prick!"

"You know what you did!" Ashton yelled back, sending Luke an angry Luke when he pursed his lips realising what Ashton was talking about.

"You don't have to put our personal problems on set though."

"You were the one who said it was much better if I was comfortable on set and guess what, I'm not comfortable right now." Ashton said, making Luke sigh and try to grab his hand "No, that thing won't buy me right now. Fuck off Luke!"

Hedgar told Ashton he could rest in his dressing room and if he wanted to go back to his hotel room it was okay, they could record it on the next day. Ashton chose to go to his hotel room instead of staying in the studios he needed to calm down, probably on the next day he would be ready to see Luke.

As he got out of the dressing room he collapsed with someone and was covered in orange and yellow paint after that, at least his clothers. They were all white so it gave a pretty view, he didn't mind that much.

"Oh God, I'm so sorry!" a boy with brown hair and brown eyes said "I didn't mean to! Oh God your outfit must cost so much but I'll pay you back and-"

"Stop, it's fine!" Ashton said, giggling when the boy stopped talking "It actually looks prettier now, does it wash off?"

The boy shook his head "Good, I just have to put them drying in the sun then. I'm Ashton by the way."

"I-I'm Austin, I paint the sets."

"Really? They're all so lovely!" Ashton said, smiling. He seemed to be less tense now, maybe Austin was a good company.

"I paint flowers and sights too."

"Can you show me sometime?" Ashton said, wanting to be friends with the boy.

"Maybe at dinner? If you want to." The boy asked, scratching the back of his neck.

Ashton blushed and smiled, nodding "Sure, when?"

"Tonight if you want to. I know this really good place down town, I think you'd like it."

Ashton nodded and Austin gave him his phone so Ashton could put his number on his phone. Ashton nodded and after that they walked away from each other, a light blush on Ashton's cheek. Was he going on a date?

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hello i just read smut it had gifs i'm a little shook

-ana rita (moony)