-Juliette-

It has been exactly two weeks and three days since Eloise left and I stopped talking to Dorian.

I sat in the room surrounded by my loneliness, my eyes were sore from crying and I hadn't bothered to even go into work (not that they'd notice if I was absent or not).

My lack of friends had crippled me to solitude and ironically all I wanted to do was call Eloise to vent about Dorian, and on the flip side all I also wanted to do was call Dorian to vent about Eloise.

I knew Eloise would Here me out...But embarrassingly I wouldn't call her and admit that my relationship was all just a sham.

Clementine was kind enough to come and check on me from time to time and as grateful as I was for her company and concern I couldn't help but feel uneasy as I knew she was more than likely reporting back to one if not both of them.

I sat on the edge of the bed and sighed heavily as I shook my head, in truth I was the one to blame for this entire fallout.

No I didn't ask for Dorian to treat me like one of his pack members instead of his Luna to be, that was entirely on him...but I should have been more assertive to be included in his life.

Instead I've merely been ghost lighting as this soon to be mindless figure to have by his side. I should've let my feelings known and for that I take blame.

As for Eloise, I promised I would take her from our heartless aunt who constantly kept us under her thumb and made us feel unsafe...but once here I turned around and did the exact same thing, I kept her within arms reach, allowing her only so much freedom...same prison, different prison cell.

I hated knowing she had this amazing life that she felt like she had to keep a secret from me.

I recall the day Eloise left, I turned my full anger onto Dorian and went to seek answers.

He of course called his parents over and I laid everything out and demanded the truth, what I got was so much more.

Yes they revealed to disliking me, that they didn't think I was "suitable or qualified to be the Luna of this pack." They went on to tell me that they "tolerate" me because I "just so happened to be our sons mate."

The nerve of those insufferable people.

They only continued from there, I was told that I had come along, me a "nobody" had stepped in and interfered with a most advantageous marriage, one that was suppose to be quite lucrative for the two packs. The match was ideal in so many ways, but when Dorian found me everything they had planned out for their son and the future of this pack was thrown out the window.

I was made to feel like the worst person ever for falling in love with Dorian, that's when I found my voice.

Tears filled my eyes as the memory of that evening refilled every corner of my mind:

"You are my mate Dorian Travers and I do love you with my entire being, but that doesn't mean I have to love you right now, and until you can accept me as your life PARTNER in every way possible then I will remove myself from the picture...good luck keeping the respect of your people and your alliances when they find out that your own mate doesn't want to stand by your side."

I then turned to his parents, both because I couldn't stand to see the pain on Dorian's face and because I wanted them to have as much heartache as I had.

"I suppose you got your wish you've managed to get me out of the picture...but you should be careful what you wish for, for who is going to want a 'man' who can't keep his own mate or stand up to his parents, and IF the day comes that I do decide to forgive Dorian I will only continue a life with him so long as the two of you are no longer in it...you won't be there for our wedding, you won't know when I get marked, you will never see any children we may have, IF I forgive Dorian I will FULLY become his Luna and my first act will be to banish you from these lands."

"Juliette...if you walk out, I can't promise you pack protection." Dorian said.

I only looked at him.

The room remained silent as I took my leave, once in my car I turned off my cellphone as I didn't want to talk to anyone. I went back to the apartment and filled a couple of bags with clothes and shoes and went to a hotel in the city.

I looked around the small rented room and sighed. The heartache of not seeing or talking to Dorian was vast...but knowing I had hurt my sister crushed my soul.

My baby sister, I was meant to protect her and always make sure she was happy and loved...she found happiness, love, and protection in a mate who worshipped her and I chastised her for it.

I screwed up when it came to her...and I had to fix things with her no matter how much it may hurt my pride, she is the only family I have, I had to make things right by her.

So for the first time in nearly three weeks I turned on my cellphone.

I received text after text, multiple missed calls and voice mails flooded my screen as constant notifications lit up the sad hotel room...all from Eloise and work.

I began to cry again as I knew I had hurt Dorian by leaving...but for him to not even reach out In over two weeks really hit me hard.

A light knock sounded on the front door and I got up knowing it would be Clementine (I had chosen to listen to my sister and only tell Clementine my whereabouts on the off chance Eloise was in danger).

"I've collected some more clothes for you, figured you're probably running low...also brought some groceries, mostly sandwich stuff to keep in the mini fridge."

I hugged her thankfully, "any news."

"From which one?" She asked.

I made a face that silently said 'both.'

"Well Alpha Dorian held a pack meeting last night...he looked like shit, asked us if we knew anything about your whereabouts...when no one spoke up he announced you were no longer his Luna to be, and there did not require the same respect or protection as before."

I nodded my head.

Of course my heart was breaking but if so my best to hold it in, in front of her.

"The packs not doing too good right now, everyone's talking, no one really knows what's going on."

I sighed, I hated to hear it, but Dorian brought this on himself for not standing up to his parents and living his own life. "And Eloise?"

"Oh I saw her last weekend she looks happy, but I can tell she isn't as happy as she's putting on, she really misses you."

"But she's safe?" I asked.

"Roc wouldn't let anything happen to her, she's seriously one of the safest people now." She filled me in.

"I've heard about his multiple...partners, do you think he'd cheat on her?" I worried.

She shook her head confidently, "he is completely in love with Lou...there's no way he'd ever do anything to jeopardize their relationship."

I nodded in approval, "then I am glad she has found him."

She too nodded, "I'm sure if you tried calling her-"

"Actually I was hoping you could help me with that?"

She looked at me and nodded, "what's up?"

"While I love Dorian and do want to be with him, I can't force him to choose me over his parents...my sister on the other hand...I miss her like crazy and I didn't get to apologize in person...-"

"Okay...Wait...You're not seriously thinking of going to Springwell are you?" She asked with full concern.

I smiled a little unsure now.

"Juliette...fallout or not Dorian won't hesitate to go over there and collect you by any means possible."

I rolled my eyes, I knew she was right, "I know, and that's why I'm not going to Springwell per say...I was wondering if you'd take me to the field?"