(*Acts of self-harm!*)

*Taco's P.O.V*

Man. Yesterday was so awesome! It was such a nice change to the everyday forest scenery.

I've never had that much fun before! Shopping for clothes was a little boring, but getting other nicknacks was nice. I got a phone case for my phone!

The zoo was AMAZING! So many animals! That was my favorite thing I've ever done. I loved looking at the seals. So fucking cute!

Our day out was soo nice. However, I'm still a little salty with Balloon. He brought some spicy chicken from the Chinese place for dinner. 

She made me believe that it was normal sweet and sour chicken, and I believed them. I don't know why I believed xe. But I ate it, and my mouth was on fucking fire. 

He was just laughing! She must've known about the whole thing! They must've set me up! Ugh, the little cheeky bastard.

Xe apologized afterwards however, so I must give him that. I'm still a bit salty, but I forgive her. They are too kind for his own good. 

Now. For the bad part. I need to get back into the game. Not the actual show, but I need to get back in the mindset. 

The show is going to go back to being recorded soon. So, I need to help Microphone with everything. Doesn't mean I can't make time for Balloon, but I might have to distant myself just a bit. 

For Balloon's sake. I don't want him to get caught too soon. So, that's why I'm going to be a little distant. On days when Mephone records a new episode, I'll be distant. 

When everyone has a break, I'll be more in touch with Balloon. Yea, that works. Right now, I'm on a night walk. Balloon was most likely asleep. Which is good. I was out here to get intel on when recording was going to start back up.

I would ask Microphone, but it was currently about.... 12 am. So almost everyone would be asleep. Almost everyone. Mephone and his 2 co-host are bound to be awake.

I knew the basic of where everything was in the contestant grounds. I was heading in the direction of where the host cabin was. After a few minutes, I can hear some sort of chatter. Sounds like 2 people talking.

Weird. Shouldn't it be 3 people? Why is it only two? I need to get a closer look. This is risky, but fuck it.

I walk closer and I hear I think Mepad and Toliet. I climb up to a window and look in. I can sort of hear what they were making out.

"What are we gonna do!?", I hear Toliet say

"Calm down Toliet. Panicking will not help us.", Mepad comforts.

What's going on? I can see them inside, but not Mephone himself. Hmmm... Strange.

"Mistah Phone has been gone all day! What if something bad happens?", Toliet exclaims with worry.

"Mephone will be okay. He just likes taking walks. Get his mind off of the stress.", Mepad reassures.

"But-", Toliet starts, before getting inturrpted.

"Let's get some sleep my friend. Perhaps he will come back in the morning.", Mepad sugested.

"Mmmm. Okay! Goodnight Mepad!", Toliet gives in.

"Hmm. Goodnight Toliet.", Mepad bids as they soon head to bed.

So~ Mephone was gone? Hmm.. Interesting. Let's see if we can find him~.

I jump down from the window and head in a random direction. Not sure where Mephone could've gone, but I'll look anyways. 

After about 30 minutes, I can hear something. Sounds like Mephone! How convient. I hide within some bushes, careful not to make a noise.

I sneak a bit before finding Mephone himself. Huh. I wonder what he's doing. 

"Ugh. This is stupid! Why am I thinking about him of all people!?", Mephone shouts in anger.

'Him? Who is he talking about?', I ponder in my mind.

"Gah! I don't want to think of his stupid face! Not now! Not ever!", Mephone keeps yelling.

He then generates a burnt painting of.... somebody and just stares at him. He looks angry at the guy. Who is he? He looks a little familiar...

"Why? Why can't I just delete you from my life? Why do you always have to come and haunt me?! Why won't you leave me alone!?", he angrily shouts, with a mix of sadness in his voice.

Mephone proceeds to kick down that painting and just stare at it again. Then, something weird happens. He begins to glitch out.

I forgot Mephone isn't fully human like us. He's an android; or a cyborg of sorts. So, physically, he looks like all of us. But on the inside, he's full of wires and coding. Coding that makes him more human. 

"Ah! S-s-s-stupid g-g-glitches. Ugh. I s-s-should h-head back t-to. *glitches* Gah!", Mephone tries to say.

He tries to leave this area, but he glitches again. Man. He is really outdated. But, he's still our 'lovable' slob of a host. 

He still glitches as he walks away. He suddenly trips on a rock; guess he couldn't see it. He falls and hits his head. Shit! Did he knock himself out!?

'Should I go help him?', I ask myself. 

I probably should. I carefully leave my spot, just in case he wakes up. I rush towards him and turn him over. Huh. He's out cold. Damn.

I sit him up, just so it's not akward for him. Hmm... He has a screen in his eyes and arms. Never noticed that. 

Let's see.... How do I turn him back on? Does he have a button? Oh! Found it! It's behind his hair. I press the button and he looks like he's turning on.

Wait... SHIT! He's turning on! I got to go!

So, I book it. I didn't want him to see me after all! So, I ran back to the cabin so I can get some sleep.

What I didn't know, was that I just helped the co-host for the next episode...

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*Timeskip: 3 days.*

*During Episode 13 of Inainmate Insanity 2*

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*Balloon's P.O.V*

Taco's been avoiding me lately. 

Okay, It's only been 3 days, but still! She wasn't making much conversation with me, and she didn't eat lunch or dinner with me. Something's wrong, but I'm not sure what!

.... Was it me? Oh god! Was she still upset at the prank I did with the spicy chicken from the Chinese place!?

Oh GOD! What if she was!? She hates spicy food! FUCK! DID I RUIN OUR FRIENDSHIP!?

DAMNIT! SHE MUST HATE ME NOW!! THAT'S WHY SHE'S AVOIDING ME!!! WHY DO I RUIN EVERYTHING!?

I place Ash on the ground making the poor bunny confused. I get up from the couch and rush off towards the restroom. I curl into a ball and being to sob.

I can't so anything right! I make Suitcase have more 'episodes'. I make Trophy depressed probably! And now I make Taco upset at me! God! I'm a TERRIBLE PERSON!!!

.... Knife was right. I haven't changed. I thought I have.... But it's clear I haven't. I abandoned my 2 closest friends I held dear to me. I make my new friend upset at me just because of a stupid prank!

I... I don't deserve friends.... I was a manipulative asshole who wanted didn't care about others. I don't know why I even try anymore...

I stand up and put my head against the wall. ..... 

'do it.' 

'you deserve this.'

'this is for the best.'

Negaive voices plague my mind. I don't want to hurt myself... but the urge is too strong. I bang my head once.

I bang a second time. A third time. ..... I loose count soon afterwards. 

All I know... is that my forehead and wall are bloody. This feels good. I feel a little better. I also feel super dizzy.

Taco isn't back still. She's been out all day. She hasn't even had lunch! It's about... I have no clue what time it is. Everything is spinning.

'Ugh... my head hurts like hell', I groan in my head.

I try to walk, but I can't. I end up falling. I bang my head one final time on the floor.

My vision becomes nothing but darkness. I pass out.

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*Timeskip: 3 hours later*

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Ugh.... My head.....

Wha- What happened? 

I open my eyes and blink due to the light. Ow.

I open them back up to glance at my surroundings. Looks like.... I'm in the living room?

How did I get here? I try to sit up. Ugh... My head is pounding like crazy!

What time is it? I look at my watch. It's 6:30 pm. Dinner time. .... I'm not that hungry right now. 

I know I'm suppose to be making dinner, but Taco isn't back yet. So, I'll just skip cooking tonight. ... I should still get something though.

I want to get healthier. I wasn't keeping myself healthy back at the hotel. I didn't eat as much as I should have been. I want to change that now.

I try and stand, but I felt super dizzy. I shake off the dizziness and walk towards the kitchen. My walking was a little shaky, but I make it to the kitchen. 

I stand there for a minute, debating on what to get. After a minute, I settle on some chips. I head to the pantry and open it. I grab some Doritos; cool ranch flavor; and grab a water. I make my way back to the living room.

I open the chips and eat. Gosh. My head really hurts. I can't think straight. Not that I am straight, but that's getting off topic. Wait. What was I thinking about?

I have no clue. I'm just gonna sit in silence and just.... over think. Why hasn't Taco come home yet? Was she really that upset at me? I didn't mean to make her so mad.

Or was she ignoring me because of something else? She doesn't hangout with me. She just makes small talk, then leaves for the whole day!

Was everything she said two days ago all.... all a lie? Did she not like me? Did she actually see me as a nuisance? Her lying makes sense, she lied to all of us back in season 1....

What's stopping her from lying to me? ... Am I really that helpless? Did Taco let me stay because she pityed me?

I was never her friend was I? Was she using me?

I had too many negative thought running through my mind, and it showed. I had stopped eating and curled into a ball on the couch. 

Ash was on the couch trying to calm me down. He was nudging my leg and rubbing against it, signaling that he wants to be on my lap. I bring my legs down so he could get on.

Ash jumps on me and begins to nuzzle my neck. Awe~! So cute! 

I feel myself calm down a little. I put my focus on Ash as I went in and pet him. He goes all chiflado mode on me! Awe. Also, chiflado means 'crazy' in Spanish. 

Ash lays on his back, siginaling he wants belly rubs. Such a cute boy. I start rubbing his belly as he flops his ears in glee. Gosh, I love Ash. 

Hmm. Ash is techinally a wild animal still. He's not a actual pet. I wonder if we can make him one? I'll check on that later. Right now, he acts like a real pet, so I shouldn't worry about it!

I keep playing with Ash for a good 10 minutes when I start to get dizzy again. Oh, I forgot my head hurts. Ow... I should go get some asprin or something to help with the pain. 

I get up and walk towards the restroom again. I walk in and look at myself in the mirror. ... Wow. I look awful.

I have bags around my eyes, nothing new there. My head was bandaged somehow. My hair was a bit of a mess, and my eyes look puffy. Overall, I look depressed, per usual.

I keep staring at my reflection for a while. ... I reach inside somewhere and grab a sharp item. I wasn't paying attention to everything around me. I then made some cuts on my arms.

I bandaged them up and cleaned my mess. So it doesn't look suspicious that I did something in here. My head decided to remind me that I was still in pain. So, I grabbed some pain meds and took them. 

I left the restroom and went back to my couch. *sigh* I'm so pathetic. I ruin 2 friendships and am involved in a fake one! Why does shit like this happen to me!?

Ash nudges my arm. I smile sadly as I lay down. He soon lays on my stomach, for comfort. 

Gosh, I love animals. They'll stay by your side no matter what. They are all loyal to their owners. Ash was no different.

I pet him while looking at him. He stares back with his adorble hazel eyes of his. 

"You wouldn't leave me... right Ash?", I mutter to him.

He didn't answer back, of course he didn't it. He's a simple bunny. But he did twitch, probably meaning 'yes'. Heh.

"Heh. You're super cute. You know that?", i whisper.

Again. No response, just a nose twitch this time. Cute. 

"*Yawn* ... man.. I'm tired.", I mutter.

I guess it it late. Not super late though, it's like 7 pm. I didn't want to make Ash move, so I stay where I was. 

I feel my eyes grow heavy. I let out another yawn as Ash stretches. He's probably tired too. 

I kiss Ash's head as his eyes flutter. He soon is asleep on me. He doesn't snore, not that bunnies snore... I think. 

"Goodnight Ash...", I say.

My eyes grow heavier. I let out one last yawn. I finally close my eyes. 

Soon, I'm drifter off to a peaceful slumber. Not knowing that Taco had returned home.

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*End of Chapter 20*

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Yay! 

A chapter that isn't posted at 10 pm!

What a fucking miracle!!

Also, shorter chapter. 

Sorry!

But. Let me ask.

Do you like the longer chapters?

Or the short chapters?

I want to know, so I know for later chapters.

ALSO!!!

Ep. 13 of III CAME OUT!

MY FUCKING FEELINGS!

NICKLOON SHIPPERS GOT HEARTROKEN!!!

DAMNIT NICKEL!

AND DAMN YOU CANDLE AND SILVERSPOON!

(might make a small rant chapter talking about the newest chapter. you want to see that?)

That's about it! 

Update tho!

No more Sunday updates.

That will be strictly for my art book!

Ok. See ya next week!