Katsuki's POV:

I wake up in my own dorm. I sigh because yesterday Shoto was out with his dad after school so we couldn't hang out. But today is our date and I'm so excited. I jump out of bed and I smile at the thought that this week had only two beatings on Saturday and Sunday. This is how it's going to be for the rest of my high school year. I'll only get at most two beatings from mother since I'm in the dorms now. I won't be as sore when we train on Fridays since they'll happen on the opposite side of the week. That means 6 days to recover.

I look at the time and see that it's 7:36. I showered last night after everyone fell asleep so that I wouldn't have to worry about anyone seeing me without the make-up under my eyes in the morning at the showers. I can just put it on before I go outside my room. Maybe I can text Shoto to see if he's awake so we can hang out before school. Hm, maybe he just wants a little space for now. I mean we don't always have to be with each other. It would be healthy if we spent sometime apart. I also don't want to seem too clingy.

I just put on the scar make-up and then I put on my school shirt. I'll leave the blazer for later. I put on the under eye make-up and grab my stuff and put on my blazer then I head to the 1st floor. I have time and maybe I can make Shoto some food. I can't make much, but maybe some bacon and egg will be fine. He's always doing stuff for me, I can do things for him too. I'll make some for Kirishima and the others too. It's not hard, I've done it before. Maybe they'll enjoy it. I check my phone as I'm in the elevator and see that I got a text from Shoto. It says, 'good morning Katsuki.' I smile at it. It's not much, but it's more than I've gotten in a long time.

When I had my breakdown the other day, Shoto was there for me. He just held me as I cried and I really appreciate him for that. I don't think there is really any way for me to repay him for that. I'll try my hardest to, though. I've saved up almost $100. I've collected cans. LOTS of cans. I would usually go at night since I didn't want anyone to see me, but I didn't do that for long since I got anxiety thinking about Shigaraki taking me again. Anyways, I've been saving up to take him on a date. I know our second date will be today, but I want to take him out sometime in December. I don't know where, just somewhere.

I'll find out his favorite place to go and maybe take him there. I'm in the kitchen now and Kaminari is in the common room with that purple-haired guy from the general studies class. He's freaking cool. But you didn't hear that from me. Kaminari looks nervous but then, I think his name is Shinso, made him laugh. He looks really happy. Hm, does he have a crush on him? That's cute. I'll make note to tease him about it later. Wait. If he likes guys, then maybe he won't judge me for liking them too. I don't know, I want to come out with Shoto, but I don't know. I'm too anxious and just thinking about it makes me more anxious. I should just focus on making food.

I grab the eggs, bacon, and butter from the fridge. I grab the pan and a large spoon and turn on the stove as I put on the pan. I put bacon on that one and then I grab another pan and turn it on. After making half of the bacon, I grab some butter and place it on the other pan. I quickly make a group chat with Mina, Sero, Kaminari, and Kirishima. I text them that I'm making breakfast and that they should get down here now. Kaminari is still with Shinso, but I know he saw the message because he looked at me and motioned to Shinso asking if there's enough for him. I smirk at him and he turns around embarrassed. When he turns back I nod and he nods back.

Then I finish with the food and they come down together in the elevator. I serve them and give them their plates. Kaminari walks towards us with Shinso and they all sit on the counter. There's two spaces left and so then I serve myself. I quickly text Shoto without anyone noticing and not even 5 minutes later, he comes down. I tell to him, "Tch Half'n'Half there's extra. You want the rest?" I try to sound angry and upset and it works. He looks at me with his regular bored look and nods. The only two seats that are left are right next to each other. I sit next to Kirishima and Shoto grabs a plate and serves himself what's left since there isn't a lot and then sits next to me.

Kirishima whispers to me, "You guys really seem like you still hate each other. It's great." I glare at him and then whisper, "I have something important to tell you tomorrow, alright?" I make sure to sound serious and not angry. He looks at me with a worried look on his face and nods. We all start eating when Mina announces that we only have 30 minutes to eat.

Everyone compliments me but it's not really that great. I just made some egg and bacon. I didn't mix anything to make another thing taste better. It just already tastes good. I say, "Tch whatever it's nothing special." Shoto whispers a quiet 'thank you, it's really good,' under his breath and I quickly whisper back, 'no problem it's the very least I can do.'

Everyone finished in about 15 minutes and they each washed their own dishes. I quickly wash the pans and other things I used to make the food. Everyone left to go to class except for Shoto. I saw the others head to class while we were eating too, so for the most part it's only me and him in here. Maybe that invisible girl is standing here somewhere. I turn around and look suspiciously and then Shoto comes up to me. "Hey, I'll wash. You washed last time I made breakfast." I'm already done with one pan and I just need to wash other one and the spoons I used to cook.

"No, I'm almost done anyways. Please, I just wanted to do something for you. Can I just wash these?" I look at him with a hopeful look on my face. He sighs and nods. "Okay but only because you asked nicely and you're face is hard to say no to." I smile and then blush when he says that last part. I quickly turn around but I can feel my face turn red. I continue washing the dishes and he sees that I got flustered. "Awww did I make you blush? Did I really?" I shake my head as my face turns even more red. "N-no you didn't. Shut up." Crap. That stutter did not help me. He gasps. "I made you stutter too. Hm, this must bey lucky day because that was adorable."

He continues and as my face is beet red, I turn around with soap on my hands and throw some foam on him. He glares at me and then grabs some foam and throws some at me too. He turns on the water and throws some on me. "Oh it's on, Shoto." He smiles cheekily and grabs the sponge from my hand and throws it at my blazer. I gasp. He laughs and so I throw foam and it lands on his face and hair. We throw the foam and water back and forth while laughing until we hear the bell ring. Fuck. We're late. We both stop and look at each other with wide eyes. We both run to grab our bags while laughing. We run to the main building.

We're laughing as we run. Then he quickly stops. "Wait, some of your make-up came off." I stop too and quickly grab the make-up and apply it using the mirror it came with. Then I look up at him and he nods and gives a thumbs up. I smile a bit and then put away the make-up. We continue running and he starts laughing a bit. "You look kinda cute with your hair wet," he says. I glare at him. "Hey! Stop it with that. You know it makes me flustered," I yell at him. He just laughs a but more as we're at the door. We both open the door quickly and practically fall in the classroom while kinda laughing.

The class is dead silent as they're looking at us. Most of the class has faces of pure shock except for Kirishima. He's smiling like a maniac. Me and Shoto both stand up straight and walk to our desks silently. Mr. Aizawa was silent too, but he had a small smile on his face. When he noticed I saw it, it quickly disappeared. "Why are you two late?" He asks while we're sitting down. "Um we were washing the dishes from breakfast," Shoto says. Mr. Aizawa looks at me. "Tch, he's not lying," I say trying to sound annoyed. "Okay then why are you both soaked and have bubbles in your hair?"

"We were competing to see who could wash the dishes the fastest and you know me and Kat-Bakugo are always competing," Shoto says. He almost said my first name, and I'm sure a lot of the class heard his slip up. Crap. Just don't ask anymore questions. Pleeaassseee. "Okay I won't mark you tardy, just don't let it happen again," he says and as I'm turning around to look at my desk I see a small smile appear on his face again. Ugh he's definitely on to us.

I'm just glad he didn't ask more questions and that I won't get in trouble with Mother for being tardy. I sigh in relief and then listen to Mr. Aizawa. He talks about class stuff and I don't really care. I think about when I should tell Kirishima about everything. Maybe in a few weeks. I don't know. I just know I want to tell him before we tell any pros. I sigh. Maybe I'll tell him today after class. Yes. That's better because I just want to get it over with.

I sigh nervously and start fidgeting. What if he thinks I'm gross after. What if he gets mad that I was hiding this from him for some long. Ughhh. I need to leave. I feel like I'm going to explode. I haven't cut in a while and it's thanks to Shoto. He's helped me since I told him and even before that, I had stopped cutting as much. I want to get better, but it's times like these that make me want to cut and not stop. I don't want to die. But I'm not scared of it. I've only wanted to die a few times in my life, but those are in the past.

Now I just don't want to be sad all the time. I want to be able to do stuff and be happy. I don't want to have to pretend that everything is great. I don't want to keep lying to my friends. I don't want to keep secrets anymore. I just don't know.

I feel myself start breathing irregularly. I quickly stand up and run out without telling anyone anything. I run past Mr. Aizawa and he gets this weird look on his face when he sees mine. Why didn't I ask to leave earlier?! I'm so stupid. I have to calm down. I have a date with Shoto today. I can't be like this right now. I quickly close the restroom door behind me and lock it. I go to the sink and look at myself. I don't know when, but I started crying. Tears are just streaming down my face. Then I fall to the floor. Why do I have to be so annoying!? I've already had 2 breakdowns in less than a week. I do this to myself.

I take deep breaths and try to regulate them. I hear knocking on the door and I hold my breath. "Bakugo? Open up, it's Mr. Aizawa." Crap I'm not ready for anyone to see me like this. "Open up, are you alright? I heard crying. What's wrong?" He sounds kind of hushed. I let out a sob and start crying again. "Do you want me to calm someone? What about Kirishima or Shoto?" I don't know what to do at this point. I calm myself down enough to tell him one word, "Shoto."

"Okay I'll be right back," he says quietly and I hear him leave. Why did I decide to do this now? Why couldn't this have waited for after school? Does everyone think something is wrong with me now? Will they start asking questions? All this makes me more anxious and my breathing becomes more irregular if that's even possible. I hear running and then a few knocks. "Katsuki, hey, are you alright? Open the door. Please Katsuki," Shoto half whispers, half yells. I get up slowly and open the door and when Shoto sees me, he pushes the door open and hugs me. I hug him back and I cry into his shoulder. I see Mr. Aizawa run to us and he looks at me sadly.

"Bakugo what's wrong? What happened? Are you alright?" I shake my head. I don't feel like answering and acting mean. Shoto looks at him and shakes his head. "We'll tell you soon. He just needs some time okay?" Mr. Aizawa seems hesitant but nods. He looks at me sadly and I hide my face in Shoto's shoulder as I cry. I don't know why I can't stop. It's already happened to me once this week and it's happening again!? Usually one big break down is good enough for a few weeks. This is two in one week.

"You two can stay in your dorms. I won't tell the class what actually happened. I'll just tell them that you felt sick and that Shoto was with you, so he could also be sick," Mr. Aizawa says. "Okay thank you Mr. Aizawa. We really appreciate it," Shoto says. I nod and hope that Mr. Aizawa saw it. "And get some rest because I can see the bags under your eyes. You can leave your bags here, I'll drop them off after class," he says and then I hear him walk away. We're still at the door of the restroom, so Shoto walks in with me still crying into his shoulder. "Are you okay Katsuki? This is the 2nd time this happens this week. And this time it was in the middle of class. Are you sure you're okay?" I shake my head.

I hug him harder and continue crying. I have to stop. This is too much crying and he's probably annoyed. I take a deep breath and stop. I pull away from him and wipe away my tears. "Okay I'll stop now. I'm okay now," I say. It takes everything in me to not cry. "I know you're lying I can see that you're not done crying. I'm not mad that you're crying. I just want to know why, so that I can help you stop crying," he says calmly. I let out another sob and fall to my knees. Why is he so nice to me? I've never been nice to him. I've always been a jerk and here he is, holding me while I cry.

I'm ruining his blazer for like the 100th time and all I can do is cook him a simple breakfast that anyone can make. I don't have a lot of money and I don't know how else to repay him for everything he's done for me. I pull at my hair in frustration because I have no idea what to do. I started crying because I was thinking too much. I only do this to myself. But why do I do this to myself? I hate this.

I feel Shoto grab my hands and pull them towards his chest. I look up at him and see him hold them there. "Stop that Katsuki. I hate seeing you hurt yourself. It hurts me too. Okay?" I nod sadly as I continue crying. I'm not letting out sobs anymore, it's just tears now. "Do you want to go to your dorm or mine?" I think about if for a second before saying, "Yours." He nods and opens his arms for me to go into. I'm not that far away, but I crawl into his arms and stay there. He makes me feel safe. I feel relief wash over me everytime I'm in his arms. It's like all my problems go away.

"Okay let's go now so no one comes in and sees you like this alright?" I nod and we stand up. I pull away and Shoto grabs my hand. He walks us to his room as I cry in silence. We're at the dorms and then we head to the 2nd floor into his room. "I have some comfortable clothes for you. Do you want to change?" I nod and he gets out some joggers and a T-shirt. I grab the clothes and start making my way to the door. "Hey, no you can change in here. I'll change in the restroom. Okay?" I'm still crying, but I just nod. He quickly leaves and I lock the door. I quickly change and after school minute or two, I hear a knock.

"Are you done Katsuki?" It's Shoto. I just open the door and nod. I get in the bed and pat the bed so that he can lay with me. He smiles at me sadly. "Is it alright if I lock the door?" I nod and he does just that. Then he heads over to the bed and gets in. He wraps his arms around my waist and my face is in his chest. "I'm sorry for crying so much. I did this to myself by thinking about a lot. I'm going to tell Kirishima about everything today. Can you come with me?"

He rubs my sides and it calms me a but more. "Yes I will. Are you sure you want to tell him today though? Are you okay?" He asks me so calmly and it makes me even more relaxed. "Yes. I freaked out about all the ways it could go wrong. That's why I ran out of class. That's why he broke down again. I'm sorry. I know it's probably annoying that you have to deal with this all the time. I just don't know why I do this to myself. Thank you," I say as I hug him tighter. He just shakes his head. "Katsuki. It does not annoy me that you have breakdowns. Don't you ever think that okay? I don't know how many times I have to tell you this, but knowing that I can help you, makes me feel better. I hate that you feel this way, but if I can change your mood from negative to positive, then that makes me happy. Okay?"

I take in what he says and nod. "I'm still excited for out date. I can't wait," I say. "Are you sure you still want to go? We can change it to next week if you'd like. I have no problem as long as we have the date because I love taking you out." I smile at him and nod. "Yes I do want to go today. I just need to sleep right now okay?" He hugs me tighter and nods. After a few minutes, I finally doze off.

Shoto's POV:

When Katsuki falls asleep, I grab my phone. I need to find ways to help him out. I have no idea how to help him, but I really want to. I also look up places to go eat today. I don't really know where to take him to eat. Of course we're going to the carnival, but the food there is very unhealthy. We can buy snacks from there, but we should also eat a meal.

I also see texts from an unknown nunber. They read:

Unknown Number- Hey is Bakugo okay? What happened?

Unknown Number- By the way this is Kirishima. Midoriya gave me your number.

These were both 10 minutes ago. I should just tell him that Katsuki has to talk to him later and that he'll tell him then. I change his contact name to 'Kirishima' and then send him a text.

Me- I can't tell you now, but Katsuki will tell you later. Okay?

Not even a minute later, he texts back an 'okay.' I put down my phone and decide to go to sleep too. The date is going to be a great one and I'll make sure Katsuki enjoys it. I'll be by his side the whole time.

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I know this is late again!! I'm really sorry. Ugh, I'm so irresponsible. Anyways I really hope you guys liked this chapter. Thank you guys for the votes, reads, and comments. The comments really make my day. I'll fix typos when I can. I know I've said that for a LOOOOONNNNGGGG time, but I will get to it, so for now I'm really sorry. Love you guys. And again, thanks for reading!! <3