Katsuki's POV:

When I walk in, Kirishima comes up to me excitedly.

"Hey Bakugo! Are we still on for today? Everyone is excited."

I look at him and nod. "Yeah I don't have anything better to do."

He gasps. "You didn't insult me! You must love me man!"

I pretend to get really pissed and look at him dead in the eyes, "SHUT YOUR MOUTH SHITTY HAIR OR I'LL SHUT IT FOR YOU!" He backs up and laughs nervously.

As he scratches the back of his head, he says, "Ah there it is."

"You would've been fine if you didn't say anything Kirishima," Kaminari says.

"Pfft yeah it's like you were asking for it bro," Sero butts in.

"Yeah well whoopsie me right?" Everyone laughs and I chuckle a bit too before heading to my seat.

It's almost nine, so Mr. Aizawa should be here in a little. I take out my phone out and then I hear a ding. I open the message and see it's from 'Snowflake' I feel my face heat up and remember that I put that as his contact name.

'Hey I found out that one of the classrooms is completely free during lunch and no one has a class there after, so we can hang out there or go there to talk.'

I look back at him and he notices that I'm looking at him, so I nod and quickly look back at my phone.

I text back 'Yeah what class is it? We can't just walk out of class together and head somewhere where the rest aren't.'

As I wait for a reply, I play some solitaire. I'm pretty good at it. I'm trying to beat my record of 43 seconds. Then my phone dings again and I open Shoto's message.

'Yes, you're right. The room number is D5, it's upstairs.' I type a quick reply because I see Mr. Aizawa entering the room.

'Okay got it.'

"Okay class, we're using the training grounds, so get your costumes and go change."

Everyone gets up and grabs their case. They all talk excitedly like they've never used their quirks before. I stay towards the back and follow the guys into the locker room with an annoyed look on my face. I really like my classmates, they're pretty cool.

I sigh and go to my locker slowly. I just cut today, so I still have the gauze around my wrists. The blood is dried now, so I can take off the gauze and just put my costume sleeves over it. I'm just waiting for everyone to leave first. I change my pants first, keeping my blazer on. Then when I don't hear any talking, I go over to the other lockers and check if anyone is still here.

There's no one, so I quickly run to my locker and take off the gauze quickly before putting on my sleeve things. I put the bloody gauze in my backpack in the same hole as my make-up and then close my backpack.

I rush to the door and walk towards the training grounds. No one is in the halls, so I jog so that it seems like I wasn't in the lockers for too long. I open the doors and see the class is only barely exiting the school, so I slow down and angrily walk towards them.

Putting on the sleeve of my costume hurt because they're skin tight. So, ouch, but the pressure feels nice. It doesn't hurt as much as cloth rubbing against them.

"Okay so we're going to make your quirks more tolerable by putting you through extreme pain-" Wow how nice. "-You'll overuse your quirks like in that training camp this past summer-"

I tense up. Everything he's saying is completely drowned out all of a sudden and I start thinking about when they took me.

Shigaraki pulling off my pants as I screamed at him to stop. Being helpless as he put his-

"Hey Katsuki are you okay?" Shoto whispers.

I jump a bit. We're in the back so no one is paying attention to us. I shake my head no.

"It's okay just calm down. I'm here. Do you have a favorite artist or band?"

I look at him and nod. "Okay then who is it? Is it a band?"

I take a deep breath. "It's a band. I really like Falling In Reverse, but I also like Waterparks. An artist that I like is Dean Lewis or maybe Yungblud," I say in a shaky voice.

He notices and just continues asking questions. "What's your favorite animal?"

"Umm cats." He nods.

"What about your favorite movie?"

I look at him and say, "Sing." I'm calm now and he could tell by the sound of my voice.

"Thank you Shoto," I whisper.

"Don't worry about it Katsuki. I'm glad I could help," he whispers back.

We turn back to pay attention to Mr. Aizawa, but then everyone starts walking away from him. Me and Shoto are confused so he goes to as Izuku and I go to ask Kirishima.

"Hey what are we doing?" I ask.

He looks at me and says, "We're just supposed to separate and go somewhere to strengthen out quirks. We're only doing this until lunch and then we're going back to class."

I look at him and nod. "Tch, okay, bye Rock Boy." I walk away and go into a secluded part of the woods with an opening.

I start using my quirk, but without my gauntlets. If we're supposed to make our quirks stronger, then I shouldn't use the piece of equipment that enhances its power. I should focus on my power on its own, then try it out with the gauntlets. I go full power until it hurts and continue even after that. I let out all my real anger and frustrations.

Lunch is at 1, so I have 3 hours to hurt myself without it looking like I did it on purpose. I have my hands facing the air so that my explosions go upwards to avoid causing a forest fire.

I do this for a long time. My arms really hurt now, but I continue doing this for around five more minutes. I think I've been doing this for about 2 hours. I don't really have a way to check since I left my phone in my locker and I don't wear a watch. I go to where Mr. Aizawa most likely is and see that 2 others went to go check the time too. It was only Mina and Kaminari. We still had around 45 minutes left, so we went back to what we were doing before.

He said he would call us when it was 10 minutes till lunch time, so that gave us only around 35 minutes more to train. My arms were really sore, but I could continue. I found the clearing where I was at and started using my quirk at the highest I could go.

All my sweat was making the explosions bigger, stronger, and way more painful. I didn't want to get too hurt, but I also loved the feeling.

My cuts most likely opened, but I wasn't worried about blood spilling or seeping out. It wouldn't happen since they already kind of dried.

Then I hear Mr. Aizawa yelling for the class to go back.

Once everyone is there, he makes sure everyone is present. Everyone was so drained and tired from overusing their quirks. We all dragged our feet inside as our faces showed how exhausted we were. We all went to the lockers, and again, I stayed behind. There were showers just to rinse off our sweat. They had curtains, so we used them often, but the blood from my cuts would go into the water and everyone would be able to see, so I decided against showering.

I just grabbed my stuff and went to the restroom to change there. I quickly ran into the stall and changed my shirt first. The sleeve from my suit had some blood on it, but I could just run it through water and it would be fine.

I hear the door open and close as I'm finished putting on the gauze. I put on my shirt and then my blazer quickly. They just went into the one two stalls away from mine, flushed, and then went to the sink. Then I heard the door close. I quickly took off my suit pants and then put on my school ones. The person wasn't from our class. They would've called out to see if it was me since I wasn't in the lockers, and if it was Shoto, he would've called my name to make sure it was me.

I go over to the restroom door and lock it quickly. I make sure no one else is in the stalls and then go to rinse the sleeves of my costume. Once that's done I out them away and the rest of my costume before unlocking the door.

I go back to the class and put away my case. There are some people there, but none that actually talk to me. It was Yaoyorozu, Aoyama, and Sato. They're alright I guess. I don't really hate anyone in the class.

Besides myself. Hehe. I laugh to myself and they turn to look at me. I turn around and then go to sit down, waiting for the lunch bell to ring so that me and Shoto can hang out. I grab my phone from my bag and open it. I plug in my earbuds and put one on. I still want to be able to hear the bell. I feel like listening to some music, so I put on 'my catchy playlist'. It has around 40 songs. I love music so much.

I have 689 songs in my playlist. Whoops, I guess I have so many because it's like another escape. I sigh and now there's more than half of the class in the room.

After a few more songs, the bell rings and everyone starts heading to the cafeteria for lunch. I guess Shoto just went straight to the meeting place since he was one of the ones who wasn't in class. I grab my bag, even though I don't have to, and go to the class where Shoto said to go. I guess I just don't want people to go through my stuff and see my blade, scar make-up, and face make-up. There would be many questions.

On my way there, I make sure no one sees me. I get to the second floor, and spot the classroom. Shoto is standing outside, probably making sure that I went to the right classroom. When he sees me, he stands up straight and waves at me with a smile. I smile and wave back.

This is so unlike me. No one would've thought that I'd be friends with Shoto. Especially not smile and wave at him like an excited little kid. We walk in and he asks if I want the door open or closed. Aw he cares about how I feel.

"It would be better of people didn't see us hanging out together. There would be too many questions."

He nods and he gets a serious look on his face. I get a little nervous and start playing with the hems of my blazer. He speaks up.

"Um Katsuki I wanted to talk about something." Oh no, he doesn't want to be my friend anymore. He hates me. He never wanted to be my friend. He was only doing this to be nice. It was a dare.

"Is your home life good? I mean like safe? What about you? Are you okay? Um how do I put this? Um, do you have depression? Oh and anxiety? I'm pretty sure you at least have anxiety. I would too if I were you. I'll just stop talking now. You don't have to answer these questions. I just wanted to know."

When he finishes, I look at him. I could break down right now. I turn around and try not to look at him. Why is this so hard? Why am I going to cry? Stop! Don't cry. Ugh. I take a deep breath and turn around. I see his face and he looks genuinely worried.

"I um, I do have anxiety. I mean it's not diagnosed by a doctor, but I think I'd say that I have anxiety. I don't want to talk about my home life. Not just yet. I will tell you about it, but not now. I don't know if I'm okay. I mean I am alive, so that counts for something, but I don't enjoy being alive. That sounds so depressing ugh. Also I don't know if I'm depressed. I'm not a doctor or anything, so I can't diagnose myself. I just don't know," I say.

He looks at me. I look around and try to avoid eye contact. He's making me nervous by staying so quiet.

"You can talk to me about anything Katsuki. About how you feel, about your home life, about your problems, just anything. Even though you do have me to talk to, you should go to a counselor or something. They could help you and make you feel like you can enjoy your life. I don't want to lose you Katsuki. Please, just- you can at least talk to me. I'm here."

I'm so very close to crying. I have tears in my eyes, so again, I completely turn around to look away from him. I look up and blink away the tears. I turn back around and let out a deep breath.

"I do want to tell you about more, but just not right now. I need time to prepare myself to tell someone. I also don't want to lose you Shoto, that's why I'm hesitant about telling you some stuff. What if you hate me after I tell you? What would you do then? You'd leave. I know that."

He looks me dead in the eye and says, "Nothing would make me hate you or leave you. Don't ever think that. You're a great person and I wouldn't ever leave you."

I smile at him. "Thank you Shoto. Also, thank you for today at the training grounds. You really helped me out. If I had panic attack in front of everyone, no one would stop talking about it. I also want to get to know more about you. I'll ask questions, and you answer them. I'll do ten, and then you'll go and so on. Deal?" He nods. Then he gets up quickly.

"I forgot, I brought some lunch for us. I also brought some of your candy. I brought some sandwiches and a small bag of chips for us to share. I noticed you don't eat all that much, you should, but you don't. That's why I brought you 2 sandwiches," he says as he takes out his packed lunches.

He gives one bag to me and I take it. I haven't really eaten since the sleepover. So when I open the bag and smell the sandwich, my stomach growls. Oh that's so embarrassing. Shoto looks at me.

"When was the last time you ate?" He sounds worried again.

"I um, since the sleepover."

His eyes widen. "Are you serious? That was days ago. Almost a week."

I shrug, "Yeah sometimes I go for a longer amount of time, but when I do eat, I make sure to eat quite a bit." I grab the sandwiches from the bag and put one on the napkin he brought me. "Thank you for bringing me something to eat. I really appreciate it, Shoto."

He just looks at me. "Katsuki it's no problem, I can bring you lunch every day. Are you allergic to anything?"

I look up at him after taking a bite. "No, Shoto, it's fine, really. I have money sometimes, so I can buy lunch or something."

He shakes his head no. "No, I'm bringing you lunch whether you like it or not, now tell me if you're allergic to anything."

I sigh. Getting food would be great, but he's already done so much for me. He's helped me a lot and I don't have any way to repay him.

"Um, Shoto, please just let me figure it out. Don't bring me lunch. I swear it's fine," I say as I take another bite.

"No, Katsuki, you aren't eating everyday. You can't become a great hero if you're not in top physical condition. If you're not eating, then you'd become underweight, and you wouldn't be able to build that much muscle, and then your quirk would start hurting you more. There are too many risks and you might not always have enough money for food. I won't ask why you don't eat at home, but you can tell me if you want. I am bringing you food. So just tell me if you're allergic to anything."

I look at him after his rant and I sigh. I nod.

"Thanks, you're right, but you've already done so much. I don't have any way to repay you. I don't have money or anything valuable. Why are you even helping me out?"

I put down what's left of my first sandwich and look at him, waiting for s response.

"I like being your friend. Being friends is more than enough for me. It's really no big deal. Just let me be a friend to you. Are you okay with that?"

He's sincere about what he's saying. I can tell by the way his voice sounds and the look in his eyes.

"Yeah, that's alright with me. I'm not allergic to anything. I'm really sorry you have to deal with all this. I like being your friend. You're really cool and I don't know how to thank you." He stays silent so I go back to eating my sandwiches.

He eats his sandwich and I grab my second one. He goes to open the chips and offers me some. I take some and then continue eating my second sandwich. It's really quiet today compared to the other times. I want to get to know more about him. He's been done with his sandwich for a while and now he's just looking intently at the ground. I open my mouth to ask him a question while reaching for a chip, but he quickly looks up and speaks up.

"A way you can repay me is by going on a date with me."

I drop the chip.

What?

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Word Count: 3,117
I know it isn't that much longer, but I just thought I'd leave you all on a cliff hanger cause why not. I always hate when people do this, but it's actually pretty funny. Anyways, I know I posted a little late again, but I had to do more chores than usual and I got me some anime to watch so you know how it be. Lol okay have a great day and the next chapter will go up on Tuesday. I know it's far, but it will be pretty long. I'll fix typos when I can. Have a great day. Thank you guys for reading!! <3