Their name is M. I loved them right from the start. They had short brown hair and brown eyes with mixed skin. We met in first grade. We were best friends. We played dress up, swapped lunches, and hung out everyday. I loved them, they loved me. It was our thing. Everyone knew that we were destined to be together. But sadly, they found someone else in middle school...

It was tenth grade. They had a girlfriend, her name was Stephanie. She had long blonde hair with tan skin and green eyes. She wore revealing outfits that no administrator would have allowed. M and her had nothing in common. She was a ladies man and they were a loyal football player. I hated it. Stephanie hated me. She's said my dyed hair made me look gay, she hated my short and curvy body and often made me feel terrible. My eyes were often puffy and red from crying myself to sleep the night before. M never noticed. They was too busy with her. We stopped talking for a few months. I stayed to myself. My depression made me start cutting and overdosing. Nothing really worked...

One night I stood in my bathroom. My shirt and pants off with just my body and underwear, I stayed at myself. I looked at my hair, dyed and cut in different ways every month. My pale blue eyes brightening against my pale skin. My body was chubby. My arms were hairy. My stature was small. I had cuts and bruises all over my thighs and wrists. I was ugly.. M would never want me. I grabbed my sleeping pills and downed them in a minute. I fell to the floor. I heard my mom calling me

"SAMMY? SAM!"

"SAM ARE YOU ALRIGHT?!"

My eyes closed. I couldn't hear anything. I couldn't see anything. I couldn't feel anything... my heart felt pain...

I woke up. The room was white. There was beeping and files and so many words floating in the air. My body felt numb and tired, but warm and safe. I felt my hand holding something. I looked over to them. M.

"Sammy? You okay?" They asked softly.

I pulled my hand away but they grabbed it back "You.. you overdosed didn't you.."

I didn't say anything. I started crying and looked away. They grabbed my chin and turned my head to face them. They wiped away my tears and I felt my other hand press their hand against my cheek. Their smile came back. I loved that stupid smiled.

"Your mom told me everything, I'm sorry.." they spoke "I didn't know you felt that way Sam... I can't believe I didn't realize it"

I smiled and kissed them. They kissed back and held me close.

"I love you Samuel.."

"I love you Matthew"