Sorry I haven't been active..I got my phone taken away. But I'm back now.

Jeremy made me feel wonderful. He made me feel like I was the only girl in the world. I'm going to be honest with myself & say it.. "I LOVE JEREMY" there I said it, & now I feel so relieved. Who would think I would love a guy like Jeremy. Jeremy wasn't the type to show his emotions or show that you truly mean a lot to him, so I know it's hard for him to express him self just like me , I can't express myself so easily because I have the fear that they will take advantage over my heart. So I have to be patient & wait till Jeremy makes his move.

Mind you, I didn't have many friends. But when I'm with Jeremy I feel like I have the most of friends I could ask for. I feel so important when I'm with him, even if it's just 2 seconds that I'm around him.

Alright now enough of speaking about my feelings towards Jeremy. I have to focus in school & get good grades & graduate with a good GPA.

After finally getting on track with my school work, I decided to relax a bit & have the day to myself just relaxing, without any interruptions or distractions. I laid down on my bed & closed my eyes, falling myself to a light sleep.

(Wakes up hyperventilating)
"Omg, what just happened? " .. "I think I had a nightmare", "one of the worse nightmares ever" I dreamt about me & Jeremy graduating high school together as a couple & he had proposed to me in front of the whole school!!! Can you believe that? Too bad it wasn't in real life. (I wish reality was like a fantasy) but then came in the bad, in the middle of his proposal ,the lights went out & everything was pitch black & all you heard was screaming & this loud gunshot. Once the lights went back on Jeremy is lying on the floor with his blood spreading across the floor & the ring in the box in front of me & there was all this blood on my cap & gown , there was even a bit on my face & hands. As tears fell down my face , I couldn't help seeing Jeremy on the floor that I picked him & laid him on my arms & screamed until no more tears fell down my face, it was one of the worse dreams I had ever had. I don't ever want to imagine that happening.

As I'm still haunted by the horrible dream, I check my phone to see my notifications & see a bunch of notifications from Jeremy. I quickly open them . I opened them & saw a lot of "hay's" & emojis. He even tried to call me a couple times. Was it that he was just bored, so he decided to text me? Or was it that Jeremy is actually interested in me?